Geek in adult world

Just some thoughts about life... made by geek for geeks (and not only... "normal ppl" please read and try to understand us :D)

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Valentine’s Day

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 Hey guys! I had a lot of thoughts lately. The 14.02 is near, and yeah – that’s cool – all love, hearts, warm feelings, kisses, little angels and stuff like that. It’s cute, it’s important, and it’s nice to see all this couples in love. But that makes me wonder. It’s not only Valentine’s Day on that day. For example it is also V-Day which is global movement to end violence against women. In Canada there is Congenital Heart Defect Awareness Day, in Poland there is National People Suffering from Epilepsy Day. And I just wanted to say that on this beautiful day we should also think and share some love with world as one. Give some more thoughts to those that suffers from heart defects or epilepsy (yes, I know that International Epilepsy Day is on 13 of February this year but whatever) or from any other disease. Smile to people on the streets because sometimes it can change world to them. Visit your long time no see friend or just be nice to your mates in videogames – that’s pretty hard sometimes isn’t it? And then… then try to do it more often or even every day :)

 And yeah, that was just my little thoughts. I will write more when I will be done with my weekly dose of exams. Fingers crossed – three tomorrow. I will survive! :D

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Rocking Horse by CurlicueAndVine <3 I asked my mum why she never bought me one like that - she was as much upset as I was about it :D

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I am responsible adult

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 Hey, I really want to talk about my work today. My job is interesting. Costumers are funny people.  We’ve got those returns or complaints forms where you can write comments. Like what we should do to make it better for buyers. Just normal stuff or whatever stuff that people can think of. I love...  and I really mean it... I love those comments. People are writing really weird stuff there. Life stories are the most common. “I bought this and that for my best friends wedding... but she screwed up my boyfriend so I am not going there, that’s why I am returning this stuff”... wow come on, I understand that it’s really stressful situation and sometimes it’s easier to talk to strangers, but really? And how am I supposed to reply to that?(we are always replying to those forms) “I am really sorry?”, “do you want my help with hiding bodies when you finish with them both” or just “we hope that this situation wouldn’t change opinion about our store”. I don’t know how to deal with stuff like that.  I’ve never been in such situation. And adult psychology is really complicated and dark place for me. I always want to help when I read something similar but jeez it’s not my job (and it wouldn’t be – I want to work with kids). That’s really awkward. It makes me think why people keep writing those things. Do they think about person that would read it? Or they just thinks that nobody really read those? I don’t know, maybe one they I’ll find out. Another possibility is that they thinks that we wouldn’t accept return if they write something “normal”. 

But the most funny are things on complaints form. When costumers are angry because something happened or the product came to them damaged – people remember that we “shop workers” are also only humans... we sometimes oversee something. Okay so I am dealing with angry costumer, only through emails or phone but always dealing. I tell them that we are really sorry and ask what do they want us to do – repair/new product or maybe refund. And there is where fun starts! Words like: “do you know how embarrassed I was when some man told me that I have hole in my blouse” are pretty normal. And that is what I call one of the worst problems of world. Wars? Doesn’t matter but some dude told her that she got hole in her sleeve! Okay but I am nice person I try to understand her feeling and put myself in her shoes. And I can’t? Oh come on one little hole is not that of a big deal. Once I travelled whole city with enormous hole in my jeans on my butt. Now I have funny story to tell because my first thought when I found out was “I am really happy that I have nice pants on”. Okay but as professional employee I was telling how sorry I was and that we as company will do anything to prevent this kind of situation. 

So my “Turtle Company” is strange place. It’s not job of my dreams that’s for sure but still it gives me some sort of satisfaction. Also my colleagues are nice people (almost all of them), different from me in so many ways that’s overwhelming but still fun to have around. I know that they have problems to understand me sometimes because I’ve got overexcited about stuff they don’t care about – but that was really a problem with me socializing with whole bunch of other people so that’s normal. 

From other things I had today my “History of Education” exam... I hope that I nailed it and it didn’t nailed me. I get stressed out, all dates was having big fancy party in my head and I couldn’t find the right one. Also I had problems with sleeping and eating because of it. But I hope for the best. I mean I was learning and practicing for it. But still my head was full of other stuff. Now I remember almost everything I should have known on exam. But when I get question card only thing that I could think about was what I should have done last time when I played “Roll for the Galaxy” with friends to win. I am good at not thinking about what I need to think about... I have my priorities :D

And with that positivity I will finish for today. Take care!

SaurusLex out ;)

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Song of the Sea (2014)

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I love this animation ♡

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Shower thougts

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Hello and welcome. This note will be just my thoughts about stuff. Nothing special happened – just work and more work. Seriously that many mail I’ve got at work this week (and its only Wednesday) I didn’t get my whole life (and let’s say that I can legally drink alcohol whole world wide for quite few years now). Okay but that’s not the subject. I was recalling my last year trip to London today. And some reflections came to me. In England… like on the streets people just came to me and started chatting if they saw something from their fandom on me (like Doctor Who/Super Mario Bros t-shirts or Star Wars badges), and it was perfectly normal, and I felt good with it. Then we just went our own ways having nice memories. It never happened to me in my country. Only on conventions but I do not attend them for some time right now. Like I mentioned earlier I hate when in one place too many people gather. I’m getting scared of that. I was thinking – I like to meet new people. That’s also why I started this blog (if you want to talk here I am :D), because being just silly, little me I prefer to meet people on the Internet. It’s really difficult to meet somebody in “real life” nowadays. Humans are strangest beings on this planet I think. They desire attention and company but they do not know how to speak to other member of their own species. And I am the same. I never just went up to somebody and started talking. Even if I saw that he or she could be interested in the same things that I am. Why? I think that in my country it would be just weird. We are not speaking to strangers, only exception is when you need to ask how to get somewhere or what time is it. Only small talks that I ever get into with somebody I didn’t know was in the bar – bartenders are just nicest people :) I don’t want to demonise my nation too but still…

Also I have no idea why I prefer to speak in English. Maybe it’s because I spend few years abroad when I was little? So that would be really awkward if I just went to someone here and just started talking English. I can imagine other person face and I can’t do nothing but laugh.

So that’s it for today I think. Just my little thought that I had in the shower :) Second was… it doesn’t matter if you like movies, tv shows, games or creepy pastas – you are just beautiful because you are you. Let’s talk!

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There are things that just change your life in so many ways

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Hi guys!

I will tell you that working whole week and having school on weekends is strange experience. And the exams time came. Release the Kraken and let’s go! Yesterday I had one exam and few hours of lectures about pedagogy – that was fascinating - just... I prefer practice than theory. I woldn’t write about it that much today. But I just don’t get some people. I heard the conversation between girl and dude. They were amused that they have to... oh holy tentacles of Cthulhu... study! I mean... I don’t like to learn... I know the pain of being too lazy to open scripts and study but come on...

Okay but that is not the subject I wanted to write about. Yesterday was the day that very important part of my life ended. I am huge music fan and I really love shanties (sea songs that once was sung during work on board of ships). And yesterday was a goodbye concert of my favourite group from my country. My first experience with shanties concert was with them. They split up after seventeen years. And I feel a little bit hollow right now. Because of them I found myself in group of people that understood me, with them I was feeling comfortable and good about myself. Their concerts were almost the only I was attending (I am a little bit claustrophobic so I don’t often go to that kind of events because of lack of space and fact that there are too many people for me). It was very emotional evening. I had enormous amount of fun, I was happy, sad, moved and little bit scared at the same time. I was dancing with strangers in big group (I don’t do it, I am not antisocial too – well not that much), singing (okay howling but come on... nobody’s perfect) but somewhere in back of my head I remembered that it’s over… like they wouldn’t say at the end of the evening “see you soon”. We hugged it out. Every single one of them will go separated ways – some of them will continue with solo or duo carriers but still it is just weird. Knowing that they are not together anymore. And today, the day after I feel a little bit orphaned.

Now I am waiting for next exam and I can’t give single freak about it. I will pass or I won’t – I can deal with it on the next term if I wouldn’t be able to do it now. I am only thinking about yesterday and every single evening I spend on concerts.

And I know maybe it’s not right place to say it. But I want to thank The Band for few amazing years in my life when I felt accepted and good. Thank you for amazing music and time I spend with all of you.

And that would be all for today. Have a great day or night you beautiful people.

SaurusLex out! Edit: I actually passed my exam so I am feeling proud :D

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Kind of love I desire

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So… okay it was an impulse. Today’s day was so awesome that I had that itchy feeling that I need to share it with the world. Than here it is a blog on tumblr – that’s strange but let’s deal with it. Today being a geek really hit me. Let’s say I’ve got this work – let’s say I work for “Turtle Company” (It’s not its real name obviously – I wouldn’t tell you the real name of it :D) so I work for Turtle Company and most of my colleagues are female. We had break together (me and three other girls) . They were talking about some hairdresser and hair stylist… I had no idea what they were talking about… I was just watching some Resident Evil 7 gameplay in my Star Wars t-shirt and i didn’t bothered anyone. And that made me think… Can I Even Female? And that was the thought that pushed me to write this blog… I don’t know how to be girly girl… I am just myself – geek in adult world. They asked me about my opinion of the hair stylist work… and I didn’t know what to say. I mean it’s good… I think? Come on gals… I’ve got green ombre on my hair… green ombre that one of my best friends did for me… I didn’t visit hairdresser for years – how am I supposed to know? It doesn’t mean I do not look after myself, I just prefer different ways to express myself. I love video games, TV series, movies and theatre I don’t know anything about hairstyles, about what a is fashionable or “cool”. My brain is stuck on lightsabers and The Tardis . That was the thing that pushed me to share my experience with you. Despite of that? Today i spend eight hours at Turtle Company… my brain was… let’s say I loose few IQ points. It’s just a simple work as a member of return and complaints section in Turtle Company. I have a lot of work, and I am always fighting with costumers (no I do not appreciate it that much as somebody may think). What’s more I need to fight my coworkers as well because they just do not think, and when they think… they over think everything. I mean I really like my job, it’s simple, it’s fun (especially when customers are funny) and it’s so far away to what I want to do with myself in the future that’s overwhelming. But at the same time – my life would be so much easier if I were allowed to just sit on my ass and play games. Okey we should stop daydreaming- I am adult (so I heard). But hey! Today I also went with friends to bar to grab some beers. There were a lot of new people. I hope I didn’t scared them off. I can be so weird on first sight. We were in pub where you can play games on Play Station and other consoles – we didn’t play but that’s okay, I had loads of fun anyway. Those are people that I feel comfy with. Now I am going back home – it’s almost midnight and I don’t know what to do with myself. I have some more work to do when I get back. My mum wants me to dye her hair, and I have a lot of college stuff to do for tomorrow. Because I am studying too. I want to be Educator for deaf children. University is strange place. I mean it’s great but people are just more weird then I am… and I don’t know if that’s good. Let’s say it’s some experience and for today’s note let’s be quiet about it. The main point is to just show you that I am person too. Geek is a person, we are fangirling or fanboying strange things, we get overexcited , we love strange things and we are just passionate about what we love. Stick with me and I will tell you about my feelings. What is strange to me (and believe me… there are a lot of things that I find strange and you will find perfectly normal), what’s normal and what’s just not acceptable. And maybe next time if you want to call someone strange you will think two times. Maybe he is strange but for him this little strangeness is perfectly normal?

(P.S. sorry for mistakes – English is not my first language. I think I can get to more people writing in English plus my bosses would not know I am writing about them :D ) SaurusLex out, take care!