I'm okay

Not really. No, really not.

[savemeimnotfine]

I dont wanna live anymore.

[savemeimnotfine]

But that's enivatble. Probably, a part of me knew and just waited

[savemeimnotfine]

And now I know for sure he's fallen out of love.

[savemeimnotfine]

When lotsa realization hit u and u just wanna drop dead

[savemeimnotfine]

Ive never cried this much in such a long time. And I just wanna disappear.

[savemeimnotfine]

There's nothing left for me to do but wait for my death. So please, death, come a little sooner. Maybe rn

[savemeimnotfine]

My boyfriend is prolly in love with somebody else and I cant blame him and I try hard not to fail cos I dont wanna disappoint him but he wont care anymore so

[savemeimnotfine]

No ones ever gonna marry me so

[savemeimnotfine]

I wanna escape my family buuuut Im a useless piece of shit so

[savemeimnotfine]

I WISH SOMEBODY WOULD RUN ME OVER WITH STH THAT WOULD KILL ME

[savemeimnotfine]

I am soooooo tired to be the epitome of a failure and rotting person

[savemeimnotfine]

But really, when I plan it all out in my head, I imagine stabbing myself or drinking sth poisonous.

[savemeimnotfine]

If only I had the guts to slit my throat

[savemeimnotfine]

I really dont wanna live anymore. Im not doing anything significant and Im a big ass failure. I dont inspire nor motivate even just a single person. Nobody's happy abt my existence so it wouldnt really matter whether Im around or not

[savemeimnotfine]

Im gonna get tired of convincing you that Im honest with you.

[savemeimnotfine]

7th Day after our break up.01.20.16

I still want you. I still crave for you. I’m still missing you so bad. You would reply to my messages but you would suddenly stop. Why do you do that? I miss you so much, yk. I wonder how you’re doing, what you’re doing at this moment. I wonder if you’re thinking about me, too. 

[savemeimnotfine]

7th day after our beak up. 01.19.20

I’ve been sending you messages the whole day even if you kept on ignoring them. “Stop making this hard. Just move on, please,” finally you replied. And we texted each other for a while. I told that if you really wanted me to move on then just stop telling me to. And your reply gave me more hope that there could still be a chance. “I don’t know. I still love you, you know.”