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#SAVIOURROT . selective & private & extremely low-active && mutually exclusive JOEL MILLER of naughty dog's and hbo's TLOU ! written with hbo series , game and personal headcanons .

est. jan 2023. , using beta editor , infected by mariah ( she/her && 25+ ) CAARD .

#pinned #do not reblog

lum1natriiix

"Ellie is thinking about Riley, and she's thinking about the fact that Riley didn't quit on her. Riley didn't walk away…And Ellie's not walking away from Joel. She walks right back down there and she says, "I am going to keep this moment for as long as I can. For as long as I have you, I'm with you."' - Craig Mazin

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#╰.° — . sparklers too can be firecrackers . — ellie .#╰.° — . i'll be your friend in the daylight again like the salt and the sea . — joel & ellie .#joel crying as ellie 'leaves'#and then holding hands when she's back #that broke me #they mean sm to me

@roseguided : " she . . she could be happy here. she would be safe here with everything she could ever need, joel. we can stay here, we can say fuck the fireflies and whatever cure they think they can make. ellie can be safe here. " safe with us. / kari bc crying

the strumming in his veins plea in the same way kari does . somewhere deep he wants exactly that ────────── and it angers and saddens him all in the same breath . he wants what tommy has ───── tommy , the kid who he had to bail out of whatever chaotic situation he always put himself in . emotions bubble up and form as a tight grip clutching at his very heart , yelling at the old man that even his brother had done better than he had . even he had moved on . ❝ . . . we could ───── ❞

staying here in jackson meant a kind of safety they hadn't known in many years ( if ever ) . it meant being able to open your door without worrying what lurked on the other side . ;; so as far as they knew , a select few held the information of ellie's immunity and with all the practice the couple had , they could evade the fireflies for years to come ────────── but time would find them eventually . ❝ but she doesn't belong with us . ❞ the wording is off but joel's never been one able to piece together sentences in a time of rising feelings . ❝ she's not ours t ' keep , kari . and she's never spoken of doing things differently . ❞ he'd like to think that he'd still allow ellie to give herself over for the greater good of humanity ───── but he knew ───── the same way kari did , that he ─── they ─── wouldn't be capable of letting go .

#roseguided #╰.° — . beneath the stains of time . — answered .#╰.° — . all the demons still come around . — v : i .

a7estrellas

PEDRO PASCAL as JOEL MILLER ⌙ THE LAST OF US | 1.06 KIN

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#is smile is the best thing

pedrohub

It’s the last thing I’ll ever ask of you. I swear.

Pedro Pascal as JOEL MILLER The Last of Us (2023) — 1.06 “Kin”

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#when he started crying #i had to pause #cause i started crying too lmao #joel experiencing anxiety/panic attacks as a result of his fear #of failing and losing another child just hurts

loveyazy

JOEL & TOMMY

THE LAST OF US (2023 - ?) — 1.06 | Kin

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#tommy tag tbt #joel & tommy tag tbt #joel's teary eyes #his relieved face #i'm in pain #their hug looks so nice and warm ):

percyfraser

PEDRO PASCAL as JOEL MILLER in THE LAST OF US | 1x05: Endure and Survive

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .

russianblush

Everyone—fucking except for you.

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#╰.° — . sparklers too can be firecrackers . — ellie .#╰.° — . i'll be your friend in the daylight again like the salt and the sea . — joel & ellie .

mattrnurdock

⁠— Richard Siken, “War of the Foxes”

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#tess tag tbt #tess & joel tag tbt #they make me so emotional

azertyrobaz

Let’s call this a win-win and move on.

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#╰.° — . sparklers too can be firecrackers . — ellie .#╰.° — . i'll be your friend in the daylight again like the salt and the sea . — joel & ellie .

tommyknards-archive

THE LAST OF US | 1.05

#╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .

@roseguided : something about seeing him like that , about seeing the expression on ellie’s face , had caused some poorly lended crack in her heart to bleed fresh blood. it was upsetting on any level , but for kari . . for someone who used to be a mother , who still considers herself a mother despite not having her child , it hits you right in the chest. like bricks. tears are already budding in her eyes when she feels a hand on her shoulder , yet when kari turns & sees joel she doesn’t even stop to speak but rather wrap her arms around him & nearly knock him over with the way her cheek is pressed to his chest. eyes closed , though tears flow almost freely , and kari holds on tight. she stands there , clutching , sobbing some part of her for Sam . . for Sarah. “ I’m sorry , “ she gasps , “ I’m-i’m sorry. “ / kari

there's only been a handful of times where he's been in a panicked situation ──── twice now it had directly involved ellie . a person he swore was only extra baggage he'd drop off as soon they got the chance ─────────── he swore . yet . when ellie and kari were in the midst of the hoard and when ellie was faced with an infected sam [ . . . . ] his chest ached the same way it did all those years ago . he had panicked in that moment . just another time he had again been caught off guard . he was their protector and he had wanted to reach out and embrace them collectively . ❝ hey ─── hey ──── ❞ the clutching of his clothes and her buried face was a warrant for his worry . in their joint time they hadn't run across having to witness the deaths of children or have the same experience of caring for a said child in the way it was their own ──── and even if they did ──── it wouldn't feel like this .

he holds her in his arms , the embrace is tight enough to secure her warmly in their reassurance ( and partially for his own selfish excuse to calm down ) . ❝ ──────── it's not your fault . ❞ joel knows what she's apologizing for , it's the same thing that he mentally curses himself for . their daughter's blood was on the both of their hands ( each for varying reasons ) and neither of them were capable of letting it go . they were left alone now , ellie seeking the bathroom to wash off the blood [ . . . . ] he pressed his hand to the back of her head , keeping kari turned away from the bodies whilst giving her whatever she needed in this moment . [ . . . ] ❝ we . . . should to talk about ellie . ❞

#roseguided #╰.° — . beneath the stains of time . — answered .#╰.° — . all the demons still come around . — v : i .#tlou spoilers #death cw #i've been hurt yet again

attackoneyebrows

i was never afraid, before you showed up.

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#╰.° — . sparklers too can be firecrackers . — ellie .#╰.° — . i'll be your friend in the daylight again like the salt and the sea . — joel & ellie .#sure i'm fine skjhdf

pedrropascal

PEDRO PASCAL as JOEL MILLER The Last of Us | 1.05 “Endure and Survive”

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . full of broken thoughts . — countenance .#he's so ksdjfhk #not to be a whore #but i am

orangechickenpillow

Joel protecting Ellie on the ground while he's up in the building. Him seeing the truck at the same time she did, following her as she ran to it for shelter. Him being so zoned in on her and only her. Him seeing that she's going to make a run to save Henry and Sam, and her looking to him for cover, and him knowing what it means and nodding, "go for it, I've got you."

Holy fucking shit.

#tlou spoilers #╰.° — . gremlin vibes . — ooc .#literally so good #i love them sm god