S A Y U R I.BELLE.

Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts.

[sayuribelle]

And he said, "Because I have this cute, sexy, beautiful girl by my side."

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[sayuribelle]

😬😁😏// #tbt #transformationtuesday

[sayuribelle]

Now if I only had an autobiography 😂 // #dslr #nikon #portraitphotography #photography #blackandwhite #vsco #vscocam (at Golden Hill, San Diego)

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[sayuribelle]

The Truth

The truth of the matter is...

A big issue is well, perception. How you perceive, how one is being perceived. I guess in my case, I’m being perceived as “that” girl. The one who...was impossible to get. It feels like every time I talk to a friend, at some point in the conversation it goes something a matter like “I can’t wait till you have a boyfriend. I’d imagine he’ll be amazing for him to be with you.” or “Man he’ll be so lucky and we all can’t wait to find out who he is.” That girl who can get any guy. 

The real truth is...

A few years ago I used to play around as a joke, being nicknamed as “Destroy of all Men”. Well. Oops. But honestly, ok yes I’ve been on plenty of dates the past year, but nothing really cuts it. If anything it’s just a social experience. The truth is, I’m not a slut either. I’ve talked to guys, but I don’t sleep with them. I’m just not that kind of girl. I’m still that GOOD girl. I guess this all kind of hit me with my patient who was a veteran, a marine. Before I left he said “Lil, you’re a good girl. You can lead any man, and any man to follow you is a smart man. The one you choose is the luckiest man alive.” I drink, I go out with the girls, hang with the bros, hit up the bars, go to the beach clubs and dance the night away, and just have a good time. I’ve been single for almost 2.5 to 3 years now, but really, I’m just enjoying the adventure, the fun of seeing and exploring new places. No one is really stopping me other than myself. 

The real truth is...

I’m that good girl sitting at the coffee shop. Reading, painting, trying to be creative, learning to grow myself, enjoying an adventure, meeting new people, seeing the world.

The final truth is...

Damn I miss cooking for a man. 

[sayuribelle]

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[sayuribelle]

🎡// #california #sohip #vsco (at Santa Monica Pier)

[sayuribelle]

🍭// #santamonica #california #losangeles (at Santa Monica Pier)

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[sayuribelle]

Sometimes, I close my eyes, and my mind runs wild. It can get phasic with these thoughts but my mind is like on Jimmy Neutron blast. Putting all my thoughts together it gets my heart a little excited when I have an idea to create something innovative, and I think I'm getting close to a new "project".

[sayuribelle]

Is this how #caligirls #ootd #selfie #hashtaghashtag 💁🏻📸 Off to the farmers market! 🍎// #sandiego #littleitaly #farmersmarket #california #rei #farmersmarket (at Downtown San Diego)

[sayuribelle]

Whoops

[ndmedinaaa]

Harlock: Space Pirate CG Film Gets 3D Blu-Ray Release This December

California-based DVD and Blu-ray distributor Twilight Time has confirmed that the awesome CG movie Harlock: Space Pirate will be released in a 3D Blu-ray edition this December.

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DeathBecomesHer

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Just a little reminder of what’s to come this year. ;D

Happy New Year!