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Florida Native. Wine Drinker. Swell gal. Lover of beards. Incredibly sexy according to that one Buzzfeed quiz. Owner/Stylist

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Stylist friends! I’m looking for a new hairdresser at work. I have a private room and a semiprivate room available. One room is available now, the other will be available in about 2 weeks. Come be my work buddy! . . . . . . #upsideofflorida #pensacolahair #pensacolastylist #pensacolasalon #supportlocal #local #pensacola #pensacolafl #pensacolaflorida #cosmetology #hairstyles #haircut #pensacolahairstylist #loveFl #hairdresser #olaplex #colorist #upsideofpensacola #pensacolaspa #pensacolanails #pensagram #YesPcola #nowhiring #pensacolajobs #samvilla #hanzo #shears #bosslady (at Master Design, Inc.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMSvXztj-vL/?igshid=198v8o8yqjqva

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My new nephew was born this morning. But then the OG nephew stopped by the shop and I remembered it’s gonna be difficult to annoy the new kid this much for awhile. He wouldn’t let me cradle him though. Kinda rude tbh. . . . . . #family #nephew #aunt #auntratchet #worstauntever #noseriouslyimveryuninvolved #butilovehim #talktomegoose #amicoolyet #upsideofpensacola #upsideofflorida #salonlife #nephewsarethebest (at Master Design, Inc.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMQduodDPVe/?igshid=10iiathge5gho

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The bangs made me do it. . . . . #entertainme #boredbetweenclients #bangs #fringe #selfie #canilive #butfirstletmetakeaselfie #imnotevensorry #hairdresser #hairdresserlife #bangobsessed #cantstopwontstop #pensacolastylist #upsideofpensacola #upsideofflorida (at Master Design, Inc.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMAfv55DhoA/?igshid=8m0q6vqzbpnf

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It only took us (literally) 2 years to all be in the same place at the same time. Happy birthday, Em!!! ❤️ . . . . . . #upsideofflorida #upsideofpensacola #downtownpensacola #girlfriends #girlsday #cheers #sundayfunday (at Hub Stacey's Downtown) https://www.instagram.com/p/CL5OK64jC-o/?igshid=10yisi5lvei37

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I’m not saying I’m FIXED. But I am saying that this onesie that my long term friend bought and delivered to me certainly helped. 😂 Thoughtful + silly = a sure way to get me to laugh. Very grateful for friends who think to buy me bizarre gifts to lift my spirits. I have been laughing for an hour. . . . . . #upsideofflorida #upsideofpensacola #onesie #onesiepajamas #onesielife #pineapple #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #dowhatworks #allforasmile #littlethings #psych #cmonson #friendship #mentalhealthmatters #therapy (at North Hill Preservation District) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLpxHp1D7im/?igshid=aj0kuc8jiy9o

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Stephanie went to New Orleans for HER birthday and brought me presents back. And ... I mean. She nailed it. 💜 . . . . . #prince #princerogersnelson #thefound @thefound #gifts #purplerain #princehistory #royalty #paisleypark #princestagram #purplerain💜 #princeandthenewpowergeneration #princeandtherevolution #funk #lovesymbol #keychain #purplestuff #hairbesties #tchotchkes #littlethings #iloveprince #ilovegifts #lovelanguage #thegreatest #goat (at Master Design, Inc.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLpUWaCD79G/?igshid=174yzmd408jtc

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I’m on the struggle bus. I’ve been sitting here for awhile. It’s been a TOUGH 7 weeks. When I say tough, I mean it’s a nightmare. I’m either not eating at all or eating everything I see. I’m up all night or I’m sleeping for 10 hours and being unable to wake up. I’ve called so many (SO SO SO many) therapist offices trying to find a new one. It’s not easy. There’s either a referral required (my former therapist isn’t available to refer me right now) or they aren’t taking new patients, or they don’t accept my insurance, or...or..or. So many “and/or” reasons. My everything has suffered. My health. My patience. My friendships. My hygiene. My creativity. My job. My house. My ... everything. I’m not asking for help. I’m letting you know that if you’re in this, you’re not in it alone. I’m tired. I’m hurting. I’m restless. I’m irritable. I’m sad. I’m numb. I’m ... all of it. But. I showed up today. Granted, I showed up in actual pajamas and unwashed hair. But I showed up. And that’s enough. I have some trauma and PTSD that’s living deep in my soul right now that’s weighing on me heavily. I feel like an imposter much of the time recently. I feel unworthy. I feel unwanted and unloved and unnecessary. I also know NONE of that is true. I ALSO know that talking with a professional will help. I can’t seem to find that right now. But I know the steps. So I talk. And drink water. And force myself out of bed. And keep trying...CEASELESSLY trying. I hope you do, too. It’s been almost a year of a pandemic. We’ve all watched the world fall apart into something we’ve never seen. We’ve all struggled with our businesses, careers, families, partners, strangers, new rules, old hurts, and a new world. It’s exhausting for anyone. It’s particularly exhausting when you fight depression and anxiety on “normal” days. It’s frightening and soul crushing when you feel stuck in the abyss. The silver lining is that I’ve been here before and know how to navigate blindly. I know this darkness. And I know it stops. Now, back to the quest for a new therapist. Thank you for letting me vent. ❤️ . . . #mentalhealth #therapy #depression #anxiety #justkeepswimming #ptsd #healing #pandemic (at Master Design, Inc.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLcVuHcjcVv/?igshid=1sqwscaejhq6i

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My @panhandle_slim_ shirt featuring @amandascgorman came in! . . . . . #panhandleslim #amandagormanpoetry #amandagorman #thehillweclimb #youthpoetlaureate #blackhistorymonth #supportblackwomen #usa #american #bravery #localartist #supportart #supportsmallbusiness #supportlocalartists #poetry #blacklivesmatter #blm #strongwomen #hero #gorman (at North Hill Preservation District) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLR2yvQD-vQ/?igshid=1xn3dmjs1kyve

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In late 2019, I nominated Nancy for a Red Cross Lifesaving Award. For those who don’t remember, she’s the Southwest employee who got Dennis medical care and went above and beyond in checking in on the family through the whole ordeal. Due to COVID, the process was repeatedly delayed. However we finally have a date to recognize Nancy. ❤️ On Friday, Feb 19th at 11am, The American Red Cross will honor Nancy Ridder with their Lifesaving Award. I’ll share the link to the ceremony in the comments as well as a link to the Caring Bridge entry I posted back in November 2019 talking about her heroic selflessness. We would love for you to virtually join us in honoring her. She provided an opportunity for our family to be with Dennis in his last days that we otherwise would not have had. Grateful doesn’t begin to cover it. I hope this small token is an honor to her and a reminder to all of us to take care of each other. . . . . . . #americanredcross #redcross #lifesavingaward #hero #southwest #southwestairlines #flypns #flypensacola #pensacola #upsideofflorida #upsideofpensacola @flypensacola @southwestair @americanredcross @nancylu32 @ssdw08 @dmw1135 @dcook122 @elysemichael @_bai_watch_ @dawn__gates @life_with_queenie @abeautifulmind57 #angels #angelsamongus #pensacolaflorida @cityofpensacola (at Pensacola, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLMt10hDzC-/?igshid=jyf12toxri73

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My best friend took me out for drinks simply to learn about my other best friend I just lost. ❤️ Best showing of friendship possible. Being able to tell my favorite person about my other favorite person soothed my heart. Cheers, Sgt B. . . . . . . #bff #friendship #ac130gunship #ac130 #gunnar #challengecoin #usaf #spectre #spectrelife #gunney #gunner #usa #hurlburtfield #hurlburt #airforce #itsatier #military #friendship #myheart #coins #coin #upsideflorida #upsideofpensacola #upsideofflorida #cradleofaviation #rip #sargent #sarge #love #family https://www.instagram.com/p/CLGEhE3DEIx/?igshid=1cyf0ppntfnht

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I decided to be a brunette for a minute. . . . . . #newhair #brunette #rusk #olaplex #butfirstletmetakeaselfie #upsideofflorida #downtownpensacola #brownhair #ifeelweird #gulfcoastgirl (at North Hill Preservation District) https://www.instagram.com/p/CK9TY2lD6_R/?igshid=v0w34wqsat1b

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After a long day, I decided to treat myself to some quality time with my cast iron and a NY strip. First steak of 2021 and I haven’t lost the touch. 🥩 . . . . . #steak #steaknight #nystrip #meatandpotatoes #upsideofflorida #downtownpensacola #castiron #cooking #cookingforone #cookingtherapy #foodporn #ilovesteak #getinmybelly (at North Hill Preservation District) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKuvVg8Dl-G/?igshid=18vll4svicqmv

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This is my favorite show of all time. And I have never seen this clip until last week. I have watched it easily 60 times. I just can’t. 💀😂 . . . . . #whitleygilbert #adifferentworld #differentworld #denzel #denzelwashington #icant #bloopers #outtakes #jasmineguy #bestshowever #goat #bestofalltime #whitleyanddwayne #dying https://www.instagram.com/p/CKpkBBkjRG5/?igshid=h14f01pzono0

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Celebrating @thebusybeemercantile opening! . . . . #bbpensacola #busybeepensacola #blackowned #womenowned #upsideofpensacola #pensacolafl #pensacolalocal #blackpensacola #supportblackbusiness (at Pensacola, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKo5NAZj32y/?igshid=1u9bmm1bikpde

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My cousin is DEEPLY committed mailing me weird gifts. And I appreciate it more than I can express. (His address game is on point too). . . . . . #wienersmakemehappy #catgunsafety #stickers #coloringbook #winetime #socialdistancing #ilovepresents #cousin #family #weirdgifts #upsideofflorida #mailcall #myfave @authenticanglephotography https://www.instagram.com/p/CKhThbEjQr7/?igshid=1fgutpjg0y1ep

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Pretty certain we didn’t know how bizarre life would be when we were listening to Cher & Chuck Mangione playing Nintendo as kids in the 80s. But we made it. Happy happy birthday to my first friend in this crazy world. I love watching him achieve even more than he ever wanted. Brothers are, quite simply, the best. He’s built me up and kept me humble. He’s BEAT me up then beat up someone who was mean to me. He’s laughed at me and with me. And has also cried with me and for me. Many things polarize us at times but the bond is unbreakable. Happy birthday, Bunkie. I’m so excited to see what 41 brings you! I love you. . . . . #fbf #happybirthday #bigbrother #littlesister #sibings #throwback #41 #birthday #upsideofpensacola #upsideofflorida #family #love #friendship #80sbabies https://www.instagram.com/p/CKWhznLDK6c/?igshid=1r8gx1xx7xhl0

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The self control. I often leave snacks on my chair when I leave. I realized today I have no idea if the dogs mess with them or not. Apparently my junk food is safe. (Also, they both definitely got treats after this). . . . . #BoudinandBasco #pawsomedachshunds #ilove_dachshunds #dachshund #dachshunds #dachshundsofinstagram #doxie #doxiemom #dachshundsunited #dachshundworld #dogsofflorida #mydog #dogsofinstagram #dogstagram #bboys #mustlovedogs #dogsofpensacola #upsideofflorida #downtownpensacola #upsideofpensacola #wienerfever #cheezits #goodboy #whosagoodboy #selfcontrol (at North Hill Preservation District) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKUy44_DknJ/?igshid=1jiym2ev0uj40