xiao × reader , tw ; none , slight angst (?)
unspoken feelings.
the moonlight illuminates your skin,
as I could feel the love that I have for you sinking in.
xiao was unable to say no to your requests , like usual , when you asked him if it was okay for him to accompany you watch the night sky together from the balcony of the Inn. the night sky was beautiful , the moon shining so brightly as the soft glimmers of the stars adores the lonely and dark sky. the only thing that you weren't aware of , was that instead of admiring the moon or stars , he was admiring you.
the feelings were so strong,
that sometimes I can't help but feel like it's wrong.
he never stopped staring at you as you made small talks and complimented on the magnificent view of the sky tonight. you were so perfect to him , so precious , so pretty. it felt too good to be true to even breathe the same air as you. his lips was now forming into a small but soft smile as he stared at you with so much love for you but it sooned faded when his mind started to think of something.
how is it possible for someone so lowly and disgusting as me,
to earn your affection and love just for free ?
his mind began to show slides of just how terrible he is. he was heartless and a ruthless killer. how could he even have the audacity to dream of having something so delicate and gentle as you ? his heart ached as his thoughts raced. he thought that it was impossible for him to even fall in love with someone. yet here he is , so deeply in love with you but he was reluctant about it. was he even worthy of your attention ?
there's nothing i can do but dream,
falling deeper and deeper that I felt like I wanted to scream.
he had never expect his feelings to be so intense that he felt like shouting and telling the whole world about how much he loved you. how much of a sweetheart you were. but of course , he could do nothing but merely daydream of it. it saddened him , but he knew that it was for the best.
perhaps I should end it all,
hide my feeling and stand all tall.
he tried to pushed the feelings away , but he couldn't. he oh so desperately tried , but failed miserably within a blink of an eye.
making sure no one knows,
and let none of my feelings show.
and just like usual , he put up the cold and tough facade. making sure that no one can see right through him , especially you. he was genuinely scared of your reaction if you were to find out about this. will you hate him ? will you leave him for good ?
now here I am again,
admiring you from afar like back then.
he was afraid of the possibility of losing you , so he kept his feelings to himself. even if it pained him so much. all he could do was imagine a few scenarios where you two were together. snuggling into each other's arms while sharing sweet kisses on a very lovely evening. oh how he longed to be with you.
how I hope you knew just how much I liked you,
maybe there's a chance for you to love me too ?
he silently stared at you , the calm and cold breeze of the night gently caressed your skin. when you noticed that he has gone quiet , you looked at him and realised that he was staring at you. you stared at him back , as his mind began to race yet again.
...
will she..
actually love me too ?
( I'm writing this at 2 am pls excuse any grammar / wording error plspls )













