dreaming into existence

c'est la vie

[scarlettesworld]

Height 165cm

Cw 132lbs

✔Gw 1 135lbs

Gw2 130 lbs

Gw3 125lbs

Gw4 120lbs

Gw5 115lbs

Gw6 110lbs

Gw7 105lbs

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Today was a weird day for me. Weird bad. I guess I just realised that I've been at home since March and I haven't done anything productive. People are starting businesses, building careers, learning skills and I'm just here stuck in time like a vampire except I'm growing older.

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Me: I'm so hungry

Also me: awwn you poor thing, here have some water

Me: *Drinks water* I'm still hungry

Also me: you just haven't had enough water here drink some more

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I got one of those two piece pyjamas we love so much the floral ones with the shorts 😹 maybe I'll do my first bc in them. But till then they're going in the till I'm skinny drawer. Knowing my track record I'm not opening that drawer anytime soon

[scarlettesworld]

What is that one outfit you aren't going to wear till you're skinny? That outfit that once you can fit in it, you feel like you've made it in life?

For me it's the pair of jeans I had when I was 11. They were originally too big so I kept them for when I'd finally fit in them but when I tried them on a year later it didn't go past my hips

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I really want a girls night we'd dress in silk pyjamas get drunk off God knows what and talk about boyfriends and girlfriends and just giggle all night

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Don't change. There's no one like you, and I can't love you if you stop being you ~Ryen

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I've figured out the perfect song for punk 57

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Currently reading punk 57 and misha has me laughing one minute and bawling my eyes out the next

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I just want to read a nice big fat romance novel like just get buried in it and I don't mean your run of the mill, ugly, poorly written in like 2 seconds type novel. I mean the suspenseful, romantic in a subtle way, I'm the main character type teen romance novel but sometimes it feels like those haven't been made yet

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It's a struggle not knowing what you look like. Seeing your body for what it once was and not what it is now.

I remember buying these really cute pants two sizes too big and I didn't realize how big they were till I got home and tried them on. I had to give them to a friend cause I was practically sweeping the foor with them

[scarlettesworld]

Delayed gratification shows self discipline

Now how do I get myself to take my own advice

[everforez]

Imagine looking in the mirror and being able to see a flat stomach like this :'(

[xouuina]

imagine looking that small whilst studying :')

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I sound like a total creep rn but I love placing my hand between my friends thigh gaps and just swishing it left and right just to get a feel of the amount of space they have there. That's my therapy. Like I'm sorry I am touching you inappropriately but I just think you're so perfect

My roommates think I'm a weirdo but to be fair everyone does

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She's all I wanna be so bad

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