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Russell

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Hi. I guess this is something of an rp blog for a voice in rp Simon's head, which is a sentence I never thought I'd say.

It's not really a blog for interactions, though I guess if you want, you can...? Mostly I'm thinking it'll be a resource for this little rp group to keep track of what fuck-all has been happening, styled like a journal that Russell is keeping in the aetherspace they and the other voices exist in. Was recently dubbed the 'archivist' voice, which I'm happy to lean into. JSims, who? There's only me.

Even if nobody else uses this, it's still gonna be helpful for me.

tags:

OOC - out of character posts

russell's notes - in character posts

russell responds - answering asks, I guess?

i respond - answering ooc asks

List of names - related to keeping track of who's who

List of objects - related to keeping track of what's been manifested

List of actions - related to keeping track of wtf has happened so far

List of goals - related to keeping track of what plots are happening/what specific characters or the whole group are trying to achieve. This is most likely to be Russell-specific, since they don't see into other character's heads

List of theories - relating to figuring out wtf is happening, how Simon is on the HM, how the voices exist, whether the materialised stuff is real or hallucinated, etc.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Why does 🐍 have sensible in caps?

Also uh. Hi? Sorry I probably should’ve said that first..

- 📼

Oh, hi. Since you're here I might ask you directly - is Cassetta an acceptable nickname for you?

And I don't have a nickname for 🐍 yet, so... hmm. I can't think of one right now. They're sensible, all-caps, because they were one of the first voices to call people out on bugging Simon about his sexuality even when he was clearly uncomfortable about it. It was disrespectful to him, and also felt unnecessary. There are more interesting things to focus on, don't you think?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Names: Distinguishable Reoccurring Voices Simon Can Hear

Clarification - 'Reoccurring' meaning interacting with Simon three or more times.

In order of appearance :

lions-lanternwood - I don't think we've heard from them in a while. First distinguishable voice though, and first to conjure anything. Don't know their perspective on if they're dead or alive.

💫🎭 - The very first voice with a call-sign. I think switched their call-sign later to 🎭☄️, calls themself Theatrical Starfall originally, now calls themself Memory.

🌌 - showed Simon the stars. Compared the situation to that of The Magnus Archives. I'm gonna call them Galaxy.

🩸 - Was the one who instructed Simon on how to use the IV to keep his gills moist. Heavily implies that the voices are from the blood ocean. Has knowledge of what happened to the other subs. Seems to have a thing for Grace. Most medically aware.

❄️ - First voice with a name (Eira). Dead, from Eden. Sent down into the ocean in SM-2. @eirasnowanon

chromatic-fate - Believes they're alive. Experiences this as 'dreams' while sleeping on Earth.

🥧 - at first without a call-sign. Later introduced herself as Angie. She was the first voice I consciously heard before waking up. Very protective of Simon. Seems to have the unique ability to do damage to other voices, and from her perspective she is still alive. @southern-sweet-pie

📕 - In hindsight I was a bit loopy when I first woke up. Something to consider. I don't think I'm dead, because I can think. But I'm also not really experiencing anything and I don't know anything about myself. Results - inconclusive.

🧿 - Came out swinging, and hasn't stopped being antagonistic since. Takes great pleasure in pushing Simon to mental breakdowns, even at the cost of others. Dead, and blames Simon. Unfortunately can speak to more people than just Simon. toxic tsundere-in-denial @y0u-cann0t-h1de

🃏 - Jess. Equally as interested as me in figuring out what the hell is going on. Has come up with multiple interesting theories, and seems to be able to talk to Grace and Rocky as well as Simon. Was a teacher on Filament Station. Sensible. @th30r1st-j3ss

🦋 - Freedom. Hates being trapped in Simon's mind. Seems to be one of the most restricted of us in terms of abilities. Believes that if Simon tells Grace 'everything' they will be set free.

🌺 - Don't know how long they were around before they gave themselves an identifier. Simon calls them Petal. Sensible. Doesn't think they're dead in their present but thinks they are dead by Simon's time. Makes sense. that's 300+ years. Experiencing things through 'written descriptions'. @practical-hibiscus

🌠 - protective, but not as active as others. Living status is unknown.

⭐ - Comforting. A sentient... star...? Either that or someone going through some extreme psychosis.

dearestdeerdear - mostly shows up to show Simon images of Earth.

🎹 - shows up mainly to calm Simon down by playing piano. They've never spoken.

🦌 - showed up around the same time as the chickens. Helped out with them a bit.

The Light - I don't think it counts as a voice like the rest of us. Was gifted to Simon by... someone. Has done 'terrible things', now seems quite traumatised and subdued. Is the Light Simon saw at the end. @l1l-l1ght

🩵🪽 - another voice that seems to enjoy pushing Simon. What a waste of energy...

🎇 - Firework, or Sky. Disoriented, thought they were dreaming when they first woke up. They think theu're dead. Therapist, first who showed ability to manipulate the void we're all in. Or I'm assuming we're all in. Gave me the idea of keeping a record in my own part of the void. SENSIBLE. @fireworks-and-therapy

🗡️😵‍💫 - Um. Very... internet-pilled. If that's the right terminology. Chaotic more than helpful or harmful, so far. @dizzmann

📼 - Sounds similar to Simon, somehow. Just a shade off. Has no filter. @bloody-cassette-anon

🐍 - SENSIBLE. Long-winded, though I'm not sure I can talk.

🫘 - drink-obsessed.

🗡️ - Sensible so far. Asks reasonable questions

Jack - Uhhhh. One of the last people Simon interacted with before descending through the light. Understandably unhappy.

Not Voices:

Grace - Amazing cool guy. Seems very stressed out right now, understandably. Wish I was able to talk to him, but I... can't yet. I'll be able to eventually, hopefully. @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Elli - The blood eel from the blood ocean?? She's chilled out massively, and is working with Grace to figure out how Simon is changing and if anything can be done about it. @the-blood-eel

Rocky - Eridian crewmember. Engineer, super-smart but also kind of a dumb-ass. @r0cky-er1d1an

[s1m0n-th3-butch3r]

JACK JUST YOU WAIT THERES A HOT SCIENCE MAN AND CONVICT HERE FINDS THEM ATTRACTIVE

-🧿

SHUT THE FUCK UP NO I DONT!

[scr1b3-rustl3]

I'm confused about your priorities, Blue. Why would Jack care about that?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Names: Distinguishable Reoccurring Voices Simon Can Hear

Clarification - 'Reoccurring' meaning interacting with Simon three or more times.

In order of appearance :

lions-lanternwood - I don't think we've heard from them in a while. First distinguishable voice though, and first to conjure anything. Don't know their perspective on if they're dead or alive.

💫🎭 - The very first voice with a call-sign. I think switched their call-sign later to 🎭☄️, calls themself Theatrical Starfall originally, now calls themself Memory.

🌌 - showed Simon the stars. Compared the situation to that of The Magnus Archives. I'm gonna call them Galaxy.

🩸 - Was the one who instructed Simon on how to use the IV to keep his gills moist. Heavily implies that the voices are from the blood ocean. Has knowledge of what happened to the other subs. Seems to have a thing for Grace. Most medically aware.

❄️ - First voice with a name (Eira). Dead, from Eden. Sent down into the ocean in SM-2. @eirasnowanon

chromatic-fate - Believes they're alive. Experiences this as 'dreams' while sleeping on Earth.

🥧 - at first without a call-sign. Later introduced herself as Angie. She was the first voice I consciously heard before waking up. Very protective of Simon. Seems to have the unique ability to do damage to other voices, and from her perspective she is still alive. @southern-sweet-pie

📕 - In hindsight I was a bit loopy when I first woke up. Something to consider. I don't think I'm dead, because I can think. But I'm also not really experiencing anything and I don't know anything about myself. Results - inconclusive.

🧿 - Came out swinging, and hasn't stopped being antagonistic since. Takes great pleasure in pushing Simon to mental breakdowns, even at the cost of others. Dead, and blames Simon. Unfortunately can speak to more people than just Simon. @y0u-cann0t-h1de

🃏 - Jess. Equally as interested as me in figuring out what the hell is going on. Has come up with multiple interesting theories, and seems to be able to talk to Grace and Rocky as well as Simon. Sensible. @th30r1st-j3ss

🦋 - Freedom. Hates being trapped in Simon's mind. Seems to be one of the most restricted of us in terms of abilities. Believes that if Simon tells Grace 'everything' they will be set free.

🌺 - Don't know how long they were around before they gave themselves an identifier. Simon calls them Petal. Sensible. Doesn't think they're dead in their present but thinks they are dead by Simon's time. Makes sense. that's 300+ years. Experiencing things through 'written descriptions'. @practical-hibiscus

🌠 - protective, but not as active as others. Living status is unknown.

⭐ - Comforting. A sentient... star...? Either that or someone going through some extreme psychosis.

dearestdeerdear - mostly shows up to show Simon images of Earth.

🎹 - shows up mainly to calm Simon down by playing piano. They've never spoken.

🦌 - showed up around the same time as the chickens. Helped out with them a bit.

The Light - I don't think it counts as a voice like the rest of us. Was gifted to Simon by... someone. Has done 'terrible things', now seems quite traumatised and subdued. Is the Light Simon saw at the end. @l1l-l1ght

🩵🪽 - another voice that seems to enjoy pushing Simon. What a waste of energy...

🎇 - Firework, or Sky. Disoriented, thought they were dreaming when they first woke up. They think theu're dead. Therapist, first who showed ability to manipulate the void we're all in. Or I'm assuming we're all in. Gave me the idea of keeping a record in my own part of the void. SENSIBLE. @fireworks-and-therapy

🗡️😵‍💫 - Um. Very... internet-pilled. If that's the right terminology. Chaotic more than helpful or harmful, so far. @dizzmann

📼 - Sounds similar to Simon, somehow. Just a shade off. Has no filter. @bloody-cassette-anon

🐍 - One of the newest voices, as of writing this. SENSIBLE. Long-winded, though I'm not sure I can talk.

Not Voices:

Grace - Amazing cool guy. Seems very stressed out right now, understandably. Wish I was able to talk to him, but I... can't yet. I'll be able to eventually, hopefully. @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Elli - The blood eel from the blood ocean?? She's chilled out massively, and is working with Grace to figure out how Simon is changing and if anything can be done about it. @the-blood-eel

Rocky - Eridian crewmember. Engineer, super-smart but also kind of a dumb-ass. @r0cky-er1d1an

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

Very nice! This is great for keeping track of all you guys. Thank you for calling me amazing and cool! And yeah, I’m definitely very stressed right now.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Dr. Grace...? Oh my god. Oh my god thank god I can finally...

Wait, hold on. How are you seeing this? How are you writing on... I wasn't even trying to reach out to you... I mean, I'm not complaining. But is my journal somehow manifesting in the real world?

Um. I'm glad to be some help. I'm kind of concerned about my notes manifesting in places I wasn't even aware of, but... I'm glad to be some help to you.

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

I found these notes on my worktable in the lab... I assumed you'd summoned them for me. I'm not sure how I could tell they were yours... maybe I overheard you and Simon talking or saw your writing before or something? It's not in a journal, they're just looseleaf pages. They look kind of like they've been torn out of a notebook? If you still have your journal in front of you, it could be a duplicate that I've got?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Ok. Ok. I have so many questions about how this is even happening but okay. I can work with this. Actually, forget working with, this could be really useful.

Nice to actually speak with you, Dr. Grace. Call me Russell, it's currently the closest thing to a name that I've got. I'm going to test this out real quick - be on the lookout for other pages appearing? I'm going to try to do this on purpose.

(Meanwhile if you could tell me please - to me we're writing on the same page. Is it the same for you? Is every new communication a different paper? Can you see me writing this in real time, or is there like... a lag, and then chunks appear all at once?

I'm sorry, this is just... I'm very curious about how this is happening. And Simon is... taciturn. If I ask him five questions, he answers maybe one. Usually with a single word. Please feel free to ask me questions, too, if you have any?)

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

I can hear you talking now. I'll let you know if I find any other pages, but right now I've just got that same list I first found. Can you hear me? I feel a little weird just speaking out loud to the empty lab, but oh well. It's nice to meet you, Russell.

It seems like the voices have to contact me first in order for me to talk to them. When I talk to voices, I can't speak to any of you individually. I've just been saying things out loud and then whichever of you hears me can start up a conversation. I think Simon can talk to you guys more easily than I can, to be honest with you. He's just a little... quiet. I'm not sure about the mechanics behind that. The guy who can actually communicate with you doesn't seem to want to.

Okay, I've got another piece of paper now, but it just says everything you told me out loud? Writing it down and telling me at the same time makes sense, but it seems like there's a lag between us if you were able to write this whole thing before hearing my response. Or maybe you can't hear me. Hang on, I'll write something out for you.

[There is a pause as Grace scribbles his message on the paper.]

[photo ID: a handwritten note reading "Hi Russell! This is Dr Grace. I got your paper. Your handwriting is way better than mine. To answer your questions: Yes, same paper. Seems like there's a lag. What does it look like on your end? - Grace :)" end ID.]

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Oh, wow. There's the same kind of translation going on for you as what happens with Simon, or close enough. I'm not really... saying... anything? It's words in my head, or in this case in my journal. For some reason, for you and Simon, that translates to you guys hearing me 'out loud'. I wonder if it's really my voice you're hearing? Maybe you're hearing my conscious thoughts instead.

I can hear you, I think. Better than I used to. Getting a sense of the real world is touch and go, outside of interacting with Simon. I think that's also the case for the other voices, which is why they're patchy for you. I can hear him clearly. You and Rocky, I've only heard vaguely until now.

I think there's a similar translation going on for me - your words are also in my journal, but I can hear you saying them as they appear.

I... just got your written message. The handwriting's are different, and it appeared like it was sticky-taped into my journal. The bigger question now is who's translating us for each other, but... I don't see that being answered anytime soon, and it's off-topic besides.

I'm glad to know I can finally talk with you, Dr. Grace.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Entry - Communication?

Okay. Intent. I Intend for this to manifest on Dr. Grace's desk.

Dr. Grace? @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Wow, my head is really starting to hurt. I don't think I'll be able to do this much. Ow.

Ow. Ow. Ow. Maybe if I write it down enough it'll make my head hurt less. I wish my existence could make its mind up. Do I have a body or not?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Names: Distinguishable Reoccurring Voices Simon Can Hear

Clarification - 'Reoccurring' meaning interacting with Simon three or more times.

In order of appearance :

lions-lanternwood - I don't think we've heard from them in a while. First distinguishable voice though, and first to conjure anything. Don't know their perspective on if they're dead or alive.

💫🎭 - The very first voice with a call-sign. I think switched their call-sign later to 🎭☄️, calls themself Theatrical Starfall originally, now calls themself Memory.

🌌 - showed Simon the stars. Compared the situation to that of The Magnus Archives. I'm gonna call them Galaxy.

🩸 - Was the one who instructed Simon on how to use the IV to keep his gills moist. Heavily implies that the voices are from the blood ocean. Has knowledge of what happened to the other subs. Seems to have a thing for Grace. Most medically aware.

❄️ - First voice with a name (Eira). Dead, from Eden. Sent down into the ocean in SM-2. @eirasnowanon

chromatic-fate - Believes they're alive. Experiences this as 'dreams' while sleeping on Earth.

🥧 - at first without a call-sign. Later introduced herself as Angie. She was the first voice I consciously heard before waking up. Very protective of Simon. Seems to have the unique ability to do damage to other voices, and from her perspective she is still alive. @southern-sweet-pie

📕 - In hindsight I was a bit loopy when I first woke up. Something to consider. I don't think I'm dead, because I can think. But I'm also not really experiencing anything and I don't know anything about myself. Results - inconclusive.

🧿 - Came out swinging, and hasn't stopped being antagonistic since. Takes great pleasure in pushing Simon to mental breakdowns, even at the cost of others. Dead, and blames Simon. Unfortunately can speak to more people than just Simon. @y0u-cann0t-h1de

🃏 - Jess. Equally as interested as me in figuring out what the hell is going on. Has come up with multiple interesting theories, and seems to be able to talk to Grace and Rocky as well as Simon. Sensible. @th30r1st-j3ss

🦋 - Freedom. Hates being trapped in Simon's mind. Seems to be one of the most restricted of us in terms of abilities. Believes that if Simon tells Grace 'everything' they will be set free.

🌺 - Don't know how long they were around before they gave themselves an identifier. Simon calls them Petal. Sensible. Doesn't think they're dead in their present but thinks they are dead by Simon's time. Makes sense. that's 300+ years. Experiencing things through 'written descriptions'. @practical-hibiscus

🌠 - protective, but not as active as others. Living status is unknown.

⭐ - Comforting. A sentient... star...? Either that or someone going through some extreme psychosis.

dearestdeerdear - mostly shows up to show Simon images of Earth.

🎹 - shows up mainly to calm Simon down by playing piano. They've never spoken.

🦌 - showed up around the same time as the chickens. Helped out with them a bit.

The Light - I don't think it counts as a voice like the rest of us. Was gifted to Simon by... someone. Has done 'terrible things', now seems quite traumatised and subdued. Is the Light Simon saw at the end. @l1l-l1ght

🩵🪽 - another voice that seems to enjoy pushing Simon. What a waste of energy...

🎇 - Firework, or Sky. Disoriented, thought they were dreaming when they first woke up. They think theu're dead. Therapist, first who showed ability to manipulate the void we're all in. Or I'm assuming we're all in. Gave me the idea of keeping a record in my own part of the void. SENSIBLE. @fireworks-and-therapy

🗡️😵‍💫 - Um. Very... internet-pilled. If that's the right terminology. Chaotic more than helpful or harmful, so far. @dizzmann

📼 - Sounds similar to Simon, somehow. Just a shade off. Has no filter. @bloody-cassette-anon

🐍 - One of the newest voices, as of writing this. SENSIBLE. Long-winded, though I'm not sure I can talk.

Not Voices:

Grace - Amazing cool guy. Seems very stressed out right now, understandably. Wish I was able to talk to him, but I... can't yet. I'll be able to eventually, hopefully. @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Elli - The blood eel from the blood ocean?? She's chilled out massively, and is working with Grace to figure out how Simon is changing and if anything can be done about it. @the-blood-eel

Rocky - Eridian crewmember. Engineer, super-smart but also kind of a dumb-ass. @r0cky-er1d1an

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

Very nice! This is great for keeping track of all you guys. Thank you for calling me amazing and cool! And yeah, I’m definitely very stressed right now.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Dr. Grace...? Oh my god. Oh my god thank god I can finally...

Wait, hold on. How are you seeing this? How are you writing on... I wasn't even trying to reach out to you... I mean, I'm not complaining. But is my journal somehow manifesting in the real world?

Um. I'm glad to be some help. I'm kind of concerned about my notes manifesting in places I wasn't even aware of, but... I'm glad to be some help to you.

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

I found these notes on my worktable in the lab... I assumed you'd summoned them for me. I'm not sure how I could tell they were yours... maybe I overheard you and Simon talking or saw your writing before or something? It's not in a journal, they're just looseleaf pages. They look kind of like they've been torn out of a notebook? If you still have your journal in front of you, it could be a duplicate that I've got?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Ok. Ok. I have so many questions about how this is even happening but okay. I can work with this. Actually, forget working with, this could be really useful.

Nice to actually speak with you, Dr. Grace. Call me Russell, it's currently the closest thing to a name that I've got. I'm going to test this out real quick - be on the lookout for other pages appearing? I'm going to try to do this on purpose.

(Meanwhile if you could tell me please - to me we're writing on the same page. Is it the same for you? Is every new communication a different paper? Can you see me writing this in real time, or is there like... a lag, and then chunks appear all at once?

I'm sorry, this is just... I'm very curious about how this is happening. And Simon is... taciturn. If I ask him five questions, he answers maybe one. Usually with a single word. Please feel free to ask me questions, too, if you have any?)

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Entry - Sorting my head out

Frankly there's so much in the air that I don't even know where to start with theories. So I guess the next best thing to do is figure out what the questions are that I want answered, and then sort them in order of priority. Some of the questions I have genuinely cannot be answered with enough certainty for me, so those will also have to be set aside.

Who am I? How did I become a disembodied voice in someone's head? Am I a disembodied voice in someone's head?

It's only logical to consider the possibility that we're hallucinations that Simon made up, but practically speaking it doesn't get us anywhere. There's sufficient evidence to me that we're real on some level, and separate from Simon. That'll have to do for now. And while I am curious about who I am, that's really not important when considering the bigger problems.

Why can some of us do more than others? What is the stuff we materialise made out of? Where does the mass come from? Does our ability to materialise things prove the existence of parallel planes of existence? In that case, are we- are the Voices also on a parallel plane of existence? Does that contradict the idea that we're tied to Simon?

In a way it's a very good thing that we're not physically present - they're already stressed as it is about how they'll get to Erid with an extra body. Imagine if we were all physically present. Grace and Simon would be out of food in months. And I don't like the idea of them relying on us for sustenance when we don't know how... this- happened. We don't know if someday we'll disappear. I'm very glad Rocky has his own store of food.

Is there an upper limit to how many 'voices' there are? When we became tied to Simon, was it a single event? Or is it ongoing? What does that say about Simon's connections to the blood ocean - if that is where we came from?

I can accept the theory that we came from or are part of the blood ocean. If something comes up that speaks to the contrary, I'll look for other theories, but for now - it has to be enough. From what Simon could tell, he began to hear us after seeing the Light and being transported here. But his connection to the blood ocean seems to be ongoing.

What if... all of the blood ocean is in another plane of existence, now? What if it's all connected to Simon, now? What if we're bridges between him and the ocean, what if we're the reason he's mutating more?

Fucking... no. For fuck's sake. That's catastrophising. There's little to no evidence of any of that. The best that we can tell, Simon and the submarine were brought to either the past or another universe entirely - I still don't know for sure, and I'm also not sure there's a meaningful enough difference between those two ideas to matter, in the long run. If he was brought to the past, then it might as well be another universe.

This is going nowhere. There's just too much.

It's weird to think that everything I write might be visible to everyone else.

Uh. If anyone has questions of their own, they're welcome to contribute.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

I'm still working on summoning things, but... Well. Would it be too much trouble if I asked you for a couple folders/binders/paper? I have a feeling my workload is going to increase soon, one way or another.

There's also something else that's changed with my void. Eira came by, and while I shan't discuss what we spoke of, she came by. Little Light too.

Showed up in my void space.

Don't know how she did that, she mentioned being a spirit? Little Light too, I think.

-🎇 @fireworks-and-therapy

Wow... that's incredible. I think that's another point into your intent theory, then? Because I set out to use my realm as an archival space, and while nobody has actually come into my realm, what I have written so far seems to be available for everyone to see and interact with. And your intent is to provide therapy for people, so when it was necessary, access was... well, accessible?

Eira seems to know a bit more about our circumstances than most, though I haven't had a chance to talk to her about it directly. I'll get to it... eventually. Her referring to herself as a spirit makes sense. She remembers dying. Her referring to little light... you know what? I'm going to refer to them as Lucen for now. Little Light feel like a tongue twister in waiting.

Her referring to Lucen as a spirit is more interesting, considering I'm... pretty sure they were the closest thing to a god that could exist. A juvenile god, maybe. How a god could become a spirit, I have no clue.

Anyways! I'll do my best to send you some supplies, and I might as well materialise some for myself while I'm at it.

*They try to imagine the space Sky described to Simon, back when they first became aware. Their head starts to ache almost immediately, but they take this to mean that whatever they're doing is working.*

*A desk organiser settles onto the floor of the pavillion, dark navy but with streaks of purple and gold at random intervals. Already set into the desk organiser are three large folders, with four separations in each folder. Each separation has loose paper already set inside, ready to be used for taking notes.*

[scr1b3-rustl3]

ooc ask but this blog is amazing and I love you I hope you figure out how to talk to me (Grace) soon cause can you please please join the science team i think you could genuinely convince Grace that Simon isn’t crazy and also it would be funnnn cause it’s me and elli and we’re awesomeeeeeee

— Grace’s mod

ooc answer ive been DYING to join you guys in figuring stuff out but I physically cannot make myself go against my own worldbuilding so I've been holding myself back BUT Grace responding to my metaphysical journal entry gives us at least some avenue of talking until Russell figures out how to talk to Grace directly.

Also, though I'm not able to keep up with the biology talk you guys are doing which means I don't know how much help I would be, I really want to be part of that team. Hold out for me!!! I'm digging a tunnel through my own worldbuiling to join you guys!!!!!

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Apparently someone bombed one of the other voices

Yep, that's true. The fact that someone without an established personhood was able to do that to Cassetta is... concerning. And disproves a theory Sky and I were discussing about the state of our existence ('our' being the Voices.)

I'm glad Cassetta wasn't permanently injured, though.

*Sigh.*

Well. Again, for a given definition of 'permanently' and 'injured'.

I really need to work on figuring out more about our existence...

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Names: Distinguishable Reoccurring Voices Simon Can Hear

Clarification - 'Reoccurring' meaning interacting with Simon three or more times.

In order of appearance :

lions-lanternwood - I don't think we've heard from them in a while. First distinguishable voice though, and first to conjure anything. Don't know their perspective on if they're dead or alive.

💫🎭 - The very first voice with a call-sign. I think switched their call-sign later to 🎭☄️, calls themself Theatrical Starfall originally, now calls themself Memory.

🌌 - showed Simon the stars. Compared the situation to that of The Magnus Archives. I'm gonna call them Galaxy.

🩸 - Was the one who instructed Simon on how to use the IV to keep his gills moist. Heavily implies that the voices are from the blood ocean. Has knowledge of what happened to the other subs. Seems to have a thing for Grace. Most medically aware.

❄️ - First voice with a name (Eira). Dead, from Eden. Sent down into the ocean in SM-2. @eirasnowanon

chromatic-fate - Believes they're alive. Experiences this as 'dreams' while sleeping on Earth.

🥧 - at first without a call-sign. Later introduced herself as Angie. She was the first voice I consciously heard before waking up. Very protective of Simon. Seems to have the unique ability to do damage to other voices, and from her perspective she is still alive. @southern-sweet-pie

📕 - In hindsight I was a bit loopy when I first woke up. Something to consider. I don't think I'm dead, because I can think. But I'm also not really experiencing anything and I don't know anything about myself. Results - inconclusive.

🧿 - Came out swinging, and hasn't stopped being antagonistic since. Takes great pleasure in pushing Simon to mental breakdowns, even at the cost of others. Dead, and blames Simon. Unfortunately can speak to more people than just Simon. @y0u-cann0t-h1de

🃏 - Jess. Equally as interested as me in figuring out what the hell is going on. Has come up with multiple interesting theories, and seems to be able to talk to Grace and Rocky as well as Simon. Sensible. @th30r1st-j3ss

🦋 - Freedom. Hates being trapped in Simon's mind. Seems to be one of the most restricted of us in terms of abilities. Believes that if Simon tells Grace 'everything' they will be set free.

🌺 - Don't know how long they were around before they gave themselves an identifier. Simon calls them Petal. Sensible. Doesn't think they're dead in their present but thinks they are dead by Simon's time. Makes sense. that's 300+ years. Experiencing things through 'written descriptions'. @practical-hibiscus

🌠 - protective, but not as active as others. Living status is unknown.

⭐ - Comforting. A sentient... star...? Either that or someone going through some extreme psychosis.

dearestdeerdear - mostly shows up to show Simon images of Earth.

🎹 - shows up mainly to calm Simon down by playing piano. They've never spoken.

🦌 - showed up around the same time as the chickens. Helped out with them a bit.

The Light - I don't think it counts as a voice like the rest of us. Was gifted to Simon by... someone. Has done 'terrible things', now seems quite traumatised and subdued. Is the Light Simon saw at the end. @l1l-l1ght

🩵🪽 - another voice that seems to enjoy pushing Simon. What a waste of energy...

🎇 - Firework, or Sky. Disoriented, thought they were dreaming when they first woke up. They think theu're dead. Therapist, first who showed ability to manipulate the void we're all in. Or I'm assuming we're all in. Gave me the idea of keeping a record in my own part of the void. SENSIBLE. @fireworks-and-therapy

🗡️😵‍💫 - Um. Very... internet-pilled. If that's the right terminology. Chaotic more than helpful or harmful, so far. @dizzmann

📼 - Sounds similar to Simon, somehow. Just a shade off. Has no filter. @bloody-cassette-anon

🐍 - One of the newest voices, as of writing this. SENSIBLE. Long-winded, though I'm not sure I can talk.

Not Voices:

Grace - Amazing cool guy. Seems very stressed out right now, understandably. Wish I was able to talk to him, but I... can't yet. I'll be able to eventually, hopefully. @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Elli - The blood eel from the blood ocean?? She's chilled out massively, and is working with Grace to figure out how Simon is changing and if anything can be done about it. @the-blood-eel

Rocky - Eridian crewmember. Engineer, super-smart but also kind of a dumb-ass. @r0cky-er1d1an

[ryl4nd-gr4c3]

Very nice! This is great for keeping track of all you guys. Thank you for calling me amazing and cool! And yeah, I’m definitely very stressed right now.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Dr. Grace...? Oh my god. Oh my god thank god I can finally...

Wait, hold on. How are you seeing this? How are you writing on... I wasn't even trying to reach out to you... I mean, I'm not complaining. But is my journal somehow manifesting in the real world?

Um. I'm glad to be some help. I'm kind of concerned about my notes manifesting in places I wasn't even aware of, but... I'm glad to be some help to you.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Goals:

For me:

Figure out how to visit other people's realms

Figure out how to talk to Grace

Manifest things in my own realm, possibly including a 'physical' avatar for myself. I don't like not being attached to a body (side note - figure out if I HAVE a body somewhere that I'm just unaware of...)

Figure out a way to ask Rocky to make me a robot I can manipulate, to do things in the 'real' world

For the voices:

To become a more cohesive group

For us to cause less stress to Simon, because that's an impractical use of energy

Figure out how we exist, what the common denominator is between us, if we can detangle ourselves from Simon without harming him or us

For Simon and Grace:

Therapy. So much therapy. Please

Figure out a way for them to make it to Erid without starving (Grace doesn't believe in the food we make and I kind of agree with him. I don't know that it would be good for him to eat what we make. Simon... he's already contaminated, for better or worse.)

For Rocky:

Figure out a way maybe that hearing voices won't be so eery to him?

[th30r1st-j3ss]

I can ask Rocky about that robot body, I think I can talk to him through the computer he uses

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Yes please... if it's not too much trouble. Can you ask if he can make it in the shape of an Eridian? That would be kinda cool... Just a small plate sized Eridian Robot. With very sensitive controls, so I don't have to expend much energy to move it around.

Wait, I'm getting ahead of myself. He hasn't even said yes yet.

Thanks, Jess. I appreciate it.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Goals:

For me:

Figure out how to visit other people's realms

Figure out how to talk to Grace

Manifest things in my own realm, possibly including a 'physical' avatar for myself. I don't like not being attached to a body (side note - figure out if I HAVE a body somewhere that I'm just unaware of...)

Figure out a way to ask Rocky to make me a robot I can manipulate, to do things in the 'real' world

For the voices as a whole:

To become a more cohesive group

For us to cause less stress to Simon, because that's an impractical use of energy

Figure out how we exist, what the common denominator is between us, if we can detangle ourselves from Simon without harming him or us

For specific voices:

Eira - Figure out a way to stop another Quiet Rapture from occurring

For Simon and Grace:

Therapy. So much therapy. Please

Figure out a way for them to make it to Erid without starving (Grace doesn't believe in the food we make and I kind of agree with him. I don't know that it would be good for him to eat what we make. Simon... he's already contaminated, for better or worse.)

For Rocky:

Figure out a way maybe that hearing voices won't be so eery to him?

Uh... if other people see this and have their own goals they want to add, feel free to write in the margins and I'll add it on

[scr1b3-rustl3]

A List of Names: Distinguishable Reoccurring Voices Simon Can Hear

Clarification - 'Reoccurring' meaning interacting with Simon three or more times.

In order of appearance :

lions-lanternwood - I don't think we've heard from them in a while. First distinguishable voice though, and first to conjure anything. Don't know their perspective on if they're dead or alive.

💫🎭 - The very first voice with a call-sign. I think switched their call-sign later to 🎭☄️, calls themself Theatrical Starfall originally, now calls themself Memory.

🌌 - showed Simon the stars. Compared the situation to that of The Magnus Archives. I'm gonna call them Galaxy.

🩸 - Was the one who instructed Simon on how to use the IV to keep his gills moist. Heavily implies that the voices are from the blood ocean. Has knowledge of what happened to the other subs. Seems to have a thing for Grace. Most medically aware.

❄️ - First voice with a name (Eira). Dead, from Eden. Sent down into the ocean in SM-2. @eirasnowanon

chromatic-fate - Believes they're alive. Experiences this as 'dreams' while sleeping on Earth.

🥧 - at first without a call-sign. Later introduced herself as Angie. She was the first voice I consciously heard before waking up. Very protective of Simon. Seems to have the unique ability to do damage to other voices, and from her perspective she is still alive. @southern-sweet-pie

📕 - In hindsight I was a bit loopy when I first woke up. Something to consider. I don't think I'm dead, because I can think. But I'm also not really experiencing anything and I don't know anything about myself. Results - inconclusive.

🧿 - Came out swinging, and hasn't stopped being antagonistic since. Takes great pleasure in pushing Simon to mental breakdowns, even at the cost of others. Dead, and blames Simon. Unfortunately can speak to more people than just Simon. @y0u-cann0t-h1de

🃏 - Jess. Equally as interested as me in figuring out what the hell is going on. Has come up with multiple interesting theories, and seems to be able to talk to Grace and Rocky as well as Simon. Sensible. @th30r1st-j3ss

🦋 - Freedom. Hates being trapped in Simon's mind. Seems to be one of the most restricted of us in terms of abilities. Believes that if Simon tells Grace 'everything' they will be set free.

🌺 - Don't know how long they were around before they gave themselves an identifier. Simon calls them Petal. Sensible. Doesn't think they're dead in their present but thinks they are dead by Simon's time. Makes sense. that's 300+ years. Experiencing things through 'written descriptions'. @practical-hibiscus

🌠 - protective, but not as active as others. Living status is unknown.

⭐ - Comforting. A sentient... star...? Either that or someone going through some extreme psychosis.

dearestdeerdear - mostly shows up to show Simon images of Earth.

🎹 - shows up mainly to calm Simon down by playing piano. They've never spoken.

🦌 - showed up around the same time as the chickens. Helped out with them a bit.

The Light - I don't think it counts as a voice like the rest of us. Was gifted to Simon by... someone. Has done 'terrible things', now seems quite traumatised and subdued. Is the Light Simon saw at the end. @l1l-l1ght

🩵🪽 - another voice that seems to enjoy pushing Simon. What a waste of energy...

🎇 - Firework, or Sky. Disoriented, thought they were dreaming when they first woke up. They think theu're dead. Therapist, first who showed ability to manipulate the void we're all in. Or I'm assuming we're all in. Gave me the idea of keeping a record in my own part of the void. SENSIBLE. @fireworks-and-therapy

🗡️😵‍💫 - Um. Very... internet-pilled. If that's the right terminology. Chaotic more than helpful or harmful, so far. @dizzmann

📼 - Sounds similar to Simon, somehow. Just a shade off. Has no filter. @bloody-cassette-anon

🐍 - One of the newest voices, as of writing this. SENSIBLE. Long-winded, though I'm not sure I can talk.

Not Voices:

Grace - Amazing cool guy. Seems very stressed out right now, understandably. Wish I was able to talk to him, but I... can't yet. I'll be able to eventually, hopefully. @ryl4nd-gr4c3

Elli - The blood eel from the blood ocean?? She's chilled out massively, and is working with Grace to figure out how Simon is changing and if anything can be done about it. @the-blood-eel

Rocky - Eridian crewmember. Engineer, super-smart but also kind of a dumb-ass. @r0cky-er1d1an

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Wow, uh... I can see people's notes appearing in the margins. Can I ask you guys how you're... seeing this? I don't think any of you've actually appeared in my realm, so I'm curious about you're all manipulating my journal. Did it appear in your realms, too? Or... something else?

[s1m0n-th3-butch3r]

We have to find you a healthier coping strategy… How about journaling? It helps me a lot.

-🌺

..lost my writing hand...

[practical-hibiscus]

Oh, shit, um…

…I got nothing… sorry…

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Oh.

I'm sorry, Simon. I didn't even consider that when I... Well.

That was my mistake.

But losing your dominant hand doesn't necessarily mean you'll never be able to write again. I... I think I taught myself how to write with both hands. So if I can do it, you definitely can...?

[scr1b3-rustl3]

Oh, hello archivist. Lovely to catch you here. Interesting to note that we've evolved(?) somewhat? We didn't use to be able to hear each other at first, I don't think. You'll have to confirm this, I believe you've been here longer.

Perhaps, and this is just a theory, of course, it's because we've got somewhat of an identity? We know who we are, to a certain extent.

I wonder if I'll ever be able to meet any of you in person. Or, I suppose, visit each other's little voids? I have my pretty peach orchard and my pavilion, and I've recalled my house somewhat, so that's here too. Some rooms are... well. They look oddly like liminal spaces from that one videogame. Backrooms, I think it was called. Mildly unnerving.

Sure would be helpful to figure out how to invite others over, given my job scope. Therapy's hard to do without ample use of body language and facial expressions. That, and I've more peaches than I know what to do with. Haven't quite figured out how to materialize them, I'm afraid, or I'd share them with everyone. Any tips on that front?

-🎇 @fireworks-and-therapy

Hello, Sky. Nice to talk to you without bothering Simon about it. There was only an awareness of each other at first, but we began to hear each other very quickly, and we figured out how to indirectly talk to each other through Simon soon after. I have to wonder if our increased capabilities come from him getting more used to the idea of us. In which case our restrictions would have been subconsciously done on his part. Lots to extrapolate about our existence from that - even if it's only a theory.

Your theory also makes sense within that framework. The more he knows us as people, the more agency we have, possibly?

I think the key to figuring out how to visit each other lies in how we're communicating now. If we can better figure out the mechanics behind that, it's possible we could crack how to connect our 'physical' spaces as well. But... I have almost no ideas on how to start on that.

It might be that you think the peaches you can see are real, when they're actually a manifestation of your subconsciousness. There's nothing there to actually send, you know? If you want to give people peaches, you might have to manifest them out of nothing straight to other's 'realms'... if that makes sense.

[fireworks-and-therapy]

That's... Food for thought! Or, well, fruit for thought, heh. Because if we can manifest things into each other's 'realms', that means there has to be something connecting them.

I do have a PhD in psychology, and this seems very Matters Of The Mind. I'm sure we can figure things out if we put our noggins together.

So I have some theories! And more questions to be answered, but I feel as though that'll be a running theme.

1) Knowing thyself. I really only started being able to reply to the other voices out loud when I figured myself out a little bit. Gave myself a purpose too, which, in this case, was to be able to help as many other voices as I could.

That could just be correlation, not causation though.

(ooc: lmao aka making your own blog?)

2) Intent! I wanted to speak with Simon (and the rest of the Voices) really badly. This one's a bit harder to prove, but I'm almost sure of it. I'm not sure which Voice was the first to actually be spoken out loud, but wasn't it 🧿? They certainly had quite the intent, as questionable as the motive behind it was.

3) A mix of both 1) and 2), perhaps?

Going back a little bit, it does feel rather... Odd? To tie my freedom of speech—of everything, really—back to Simon. A man I've never met before. I'm not entirely sure if I am dead or not, but I know for certain there wasn't any... Blood ocean or drowning involved in my possible demise.

So that's one more puzzle piece. How are we connected to him? There are some Voices with very obvious connections, like 🩸 and 🧿. ❄️, too I believe... Eira or something, was their name? But you and I, amongst many others, seem to have no apparent connection to him at all. Never met him, never heard of him, nothing.

There's so much to dig into here, yeah. Im tired now—which. Wow! Another thing to unpack! Despite being Voices, we can get tired. Or I can, at least. Does this mean I'm alive somehow, still?—so I'll figure out the manifestation thing after a nap.

Maybe we should get Grace in on this. He's an actual scientist, right? Not this kind of scientist, but chances are that he'll know more than we do.

[scr1b3-rustl3]

I'm personally incredibly interested in why some Voices can remember things about themselves, to the extent that they think they're still alive, while others of us remember basically nothing. (Your own revelation of your purgatory changing gave me the idea - I think some of those voices, as soon as they gained awareness, subconsciously changed their own purgatories to match their most recent memories of being alive.)

Your idea about knowing ourselves is interesting, but I don't think I fit into that framework. All I really know about myself is that I always want to know more than I do. The way I increased my own abilities is simply observing other Voices doing things, and then pushing myself past a sort of 'block' until I could do it too. Pushing myself did make me tired, as well as usually give me a headache. I had the same questions about that (and still do) about what that says about our physicality.

I think this one makes more sense. 'Intent' would match up better with my experience. Maybe it's also imagination, and believe that you CAN do something. Which... I guess means I'm not very imaginative? Or that I have a hard time believing things I don't have evidence for.

I guess it's a good think you're a psychologist, though all in all I think I'm one of the less... well... affected of the Voices. But any insights you ever have are welcome.

I'm in total agreement about how things seem to be revolving around Simon. But to an extent I think it's understandable, and mostly just a matter of chance. With the newest... revelations about the Light and its unintentional destructive power, I wouldn't be surprised if it accidentally bound whatever souls were tied with the different DNA's in the blood around him to him when it looked at him. Like an x-ray, leaving behind trace radiation.

I have some genuine concerns about whether or not we're acting as parasites to Simon, though I wouldn't say that to him with some of the other Voices already causing mistrust in us. But something Petal noticed at some point comes to mind - when Simon was drunk, they observed that, instead of mimicking his symptoms, they actually felt steadier. Possibly when his 'soul' is weakened, we can gain more from him? Which is... uncomfortable to consider.

I would love to get Grace's opinion on all this. I've been trying to get Simon to tell him some things, and reaching out to him myself. Unfortunately, talking to anyone other than Simon (and now the Voices, I suppose) is still outside of my capabilities. And brilliant though he is... metaphysics isn't exactly his area of expertise. Though, I guess, neither was lots of the things he's had to learn to complete his mission.

Yeah, I'm also getting another headache. *Siiigh*. Cheers to increasing our capabilities together, hey Sky?