The most complicated year i’ve ever been! 2018 is awfully awesome!
I’ve learned sooo many things this year. Another level of adulting.
2018 i’m in love with someone and hurted by someone at the same time. Being in love with someone is not a crime but why i feel that i’m being a criminal? Satu hal yang paling gak gue suka di dunia ini adalah punya masalah sama orang lain cuma karena cowo. Please, this is definitely trash but guess what? It happened in my life this time. Maybe this is karma or maybe i should walk through this thing to reach the next level of my life.
Early 2018 i started to write again (thanks to him). Singkatnya gue punya temen (cowo) curhat. Gue sama dia udah kenal sejak sekitar 4,5 tahun yang lalu, gue udah sering curcol sama dia sejak itu. Cuma emang selewat aja, nah di akhir taun 2017 gue jadi deket banget sama dia karena emang keadaan yang bikin gue sama dia jadi bareng terus. I got so many problems because of him and learned so many things with him too. We have same interest in write and read a book. So he encouraged me to write again. Buku yang pertama gue tulis adalah buku cerita tentang gue dan dia. And 2018 is mostly all about him. (i will talk about it later. I have a book that contain all my stories about us and i will post some of it next time).
I learned how to make a relationship with a man,honestly i’ve never been in a relationship but this friend of mine always talk about his experience, so yeah... kinda understand about it from boy perspective. Disamping itu hubungan gue dengan temen gue ini abu-abu. Terlalu banyak bumbu jadi mungkin gue belajar memahami hubungan dengan lawan jenis disini juga.
I learned how to protect other people secrets. Belajar buat ga nge-judge orang lain karena pasti tiap orang punya cerita dibalik cover mereka ya kaya buku aja. Gue belajar untuk ga menceritakan hal2 yang bersifat pribadi sama orang lain sih kecuali kalo emang urgent dan itupun cerita cuma orang2 yang bener-bener gue percaya. Ini berarti gue juga ga boleh gampang percaya sama orang lain.
I learned about how to not giving a fuck. Because honestly i’m bad at this thing really. I care too much. Sama hal yang ga penting pun sering gue pikirin dalem-dalem which is it wasted my precious times.
I learned to be humble and wise. Gue sadar selama ini ternyata gue merasa lebih baik dari orang lain, dengan gue ngomongin keburukan orang lain ya berarti gue ngerasa lebih baik, padahal ya belum tentu. Tapi, gue beneran gaada niatan buat ngejelek2in orang lain, i just talk about it with my best friend sebagai curhat aja. Nah tapi ternyata hal ini banyak menimbulkan masalah jadi bener deh ghibah tuh ngga boleh, ga penting, mending waktunya dipake buat hal lain aja yang lebih berfaedah daripada ngurusin hidup orang lain.
I learned how to do things in detail like man always do. Jadi karena gue adalah mahasiswa sisa di angkatan yang belum lulus, dan temen-temen cewe udah pada lulus, membuat gue akhirnya main sama temen cowo dan ngerjain tugas-tugas sama para lelaki. Ternyata cara kerja cowo sama cewe beda banget deh. Mereka emang lebih detail, ga kaya cewe yang sering ngerjain asal-asalan. Ini salah satu hal yang sangat gue syukuri sih, hikmah dibalik lulus telat. Gue jadi sedikit paham dengan pemikiran2 para lelaki. Walapun gue sering dibully pas main sama mereka. But i’m happy tho.
I learned that we can’t make everyone like us and we can’t make everyone to be happy. Just focus on your self instead busy to make people happy or like you. AND NOT EVERYBODY IS KIND.(karena baik dan buruk itu relatif) Gue punya cerita tentang ini yang cukup menjadi boomerang buat gue. Say Hi to all my haters out there (berasa artis).
I learned how to stand by my own principle. Gue terlalu jauh main ke dunia orang lain sehingga gue lupa sama prinsip hidup gue. Gue belajar bahwa gue harus konsisten sama komitmen yang gue pegang selama ini
I learned photography. I learned how to take a good picture. (thanks to him again, honestly he taught me so many good things beside his rude act towards me)
I learned how to respect others. Belajar bagaimana menghormati orang lain yang memiliki pandangan yang berbeda dengan gue. Menghormati perbedaan tanpa harus melepas prinsip diri.
I learned how to appreciate others and especially my friends and family that always been there for me eventho i blinded by love back then lol. (okay, now i admit it) Thanks for y’all! I love y’all sooo much.
I learned so many things but i can’t write all of em here. It’s too much. Banyak hal-hal kecil juga yang gue pelajari gamungkin gue tulisin satu2 jadi gue rangkum aja hal-hal besar yang mengubah hidup gue.
I feel so blessed for learned so many things in 2018. I know in front of me the hurdle is getting harder but i believe that i became stronger because things happened in the past. I KNOW I’M A STRONG WOMAN (walau bukan do bong soon). I hope 2019 is getting better. IT’S A WRAP! THANKS 2018!