I'LL SCREAM

indie and selective theresa cassidy/siryn. under construction.

[screamingsiryn]

"Ye smell like shite."

“that’s you again, doggy breath. stop blamin’ it on everybody else.”

[manmultiplex]

@screamingsiryn

     “Okay, but, not saving me from my death at the hand of mutant killing terragin disease? Not cool, Terr.” A beat. “Unless you sent that dupe to pull me out of the timestream. Did you do that? If so I’m sorry. Please don’t smite me where I stand, Layla would probably roll her eyes again and I can’t go home to that.”

[screamingsiryn]

❛  ok FIRST OF ALL, did you ‘pray to the morrigan’ as instructed in your time of need? no, so i didn’t know.  ❜ brows crease, a huff escaped her.  ❛  you’re a jerk jamie, you know that?  ❜ a swift punch to his arm, one she’s sure hurts at least a little. but she quickly pushes away all inclinations of bravado to give him a tight hug instead.  ❛  i should kill ye again for dyin’ on me like that. don’t do it again.  ❜

[screamingsiryn]

mutantmarlowe‌:

“But I’m not the only one who does am I?”

Does she know how he felt when he destroyed their future? Does she know how he mindlessly walked and walked until he came to the conclusion that he needed to die? If he was being honest with himself the only reason he was still alive was because he didn’t want to destroy anymore lives. It was a dumb excuse but it was all he had to keep on living. 

“I’ve made a lot of bad choices in my life, but you were never one of them. I don’t regret a single second of our time together.”

❛  honestly jamie, i think you are. ❜  dreams and reality are two vastly different things  --polar opposites to be exact. does a part of her still love him? yes. but she’ll silence that part with a chokehold because it was that part of her, the one that thought she could ever have anything nice, that got her here. reality tells her different than a few misplaced dreams. it tells her that she’s a fool for ever believing in ‘happily ever after.’ ❛  but i’m at fault really. because i thought for once that the universe might take pity on me and give me something nice. i thought i’d be capable of finally bein’ happy and that was my first mistake.  ❜

[screamingsiryn]

mutantmarlowe‌:

“I know.” He wanted to grab for her hands and he wanted to hold her. Instead he just balled up his hands into fist and he shook it off. He turned his back to her and he walked over to the nearest wall. It would be so easy to just smash his fist against it to feel some pain. He wanted to feel something other than the hundred voices screaming in his head. 

“You….you aren’t an idiot. I wanted…I still want things to work out. I think that makes me the idiot here.”

❛  yah. it does. ❜ heavy is the heart that bleeds and oh how hers is stained with blood. maybe on some level she wants it to work out too, but she’s too consumed with guilt and self loathing. it’s easier to ruin herself, to lash out until she feels anything but pain. there’s a strong desire to hate him for what he’s done -for what he’s made her feel- but at the end of the day? she hates herself more. 

❛  you’re an idiot if you think we could ever be the same after that.  ❜

[mutantmarlowe-blog]

@screamingsiryn 

“Look…I’m sorry.”

Sometimes it’s all you can say right? Sorry. It’s a word that gets so over used and is so overdone. Jamie’s fingers twitched and his eyes went to the floor as the words left his mouth. He shouldn’t have said that. He should have said something more. Sorry?

“I should have….I should have known.” 

[screamingsiryn]

SORRY. the word seems so pointless now. it can’t bring back sean and it can’t mend her broken heart. it’s so easy to take it out on the world -on him- but it’s harder to face the truth glaring at her in the face: if she hadn’t fallen for jamie madrox, none of this would have happened. monet got off scot free but terry? she’s in agony. the kind of pain that seems like it has no end. she wants to scream, she wants to punch him and cry but most of all? she just wants to stop stop hurting. 

❛  you never should have slept with me, jamie madrox. ❜  perhaps its a bit harsh. perhaps she blames herself even more, but an angry facade masks intense sadness.  ❛  and i’m the idiot who thought we could ever make anything work. ❜