it was a challenge for calvin to push his phone away from him whenever he had the thought of calling landon or texting him. it was weird for him to keep landon in his mind but not in his arms. even though it had been two months and he knew landon had a new boyfriend (ryan, or something like that), cal just couldn’t get over the fact that they were over. he was a n g r y about it too; angry that he thought he had more time and angry that he didn’t take advantage of the time that he did have. he was angry that already, landon had replaced him while calvin couldn’t do so much as smile at somebody seated near him at a bar. last time he went out to a bar, somebody called him dimps-- he drinks alone now. he did everything alone now. calvin hadn’t even gotten drunk that night but something told him to text landon and so he did.
to landon: hey.. how are you?
