lacking in depth

in my design...

[onthevergeofbreaking]

I want to be perfect. I want to be perfect. I want to be perfect. I want to be perfect.

[thisxisbananas]

Please reblog if you‘re over 20 and have an ed. I need people to follow ❤️

[mscherrycola]

let myself go a little and now im walking fatspo

[mscherrycola]

the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards

[understands]

[roguetraders]

Frank, June 1999

[unpoly-deactivated20210920]

[strawberrigag-deactivated202203]

i feel so invalid

[golden-years-s]

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

[konoko]

[confessionalists]

sometimes it’s just u and ur oversized jacket against the world

[seabonesfuture]

absolutely loving how anytime i think my boyfriend is upset at me at all my brains first response is to b like // well maybe if you were skinny this wouldnt b happening // lmao. has he ever done or said anything at all for me to think that? nope. not at all. he’s so sweet and he compliments me so much and he says he loves my body but. i hate it enough for both of us i guess.

[eatersneverprosper]

“Your brain alone needs 500 calories...” yeah well my brain should have thought about that before it gave me all these disorders

[ke-ray92-deactivated20201217]

Before January ends, I’m going to magically and extremely be blessed by the universe.

[introvertbard]

not gonna risk scrolling past this

[aidashakur]

dating someone who can stay kind even during fights is very important

[uh-fuckidunno]

some reminders if you’re going through an ED

-you’re supposed to eat 500cals a meal, not a day

-1200cals is considered the bare minimum you should be eating every day, it shouldnt be a scary number

-youre not gonna gain a bunch of weight if you just eat normally one day

-your teeth could rot out

-liquid calories are fuel, not the plague

-your body needs carbs to function well

-if the world finds you attractive malnourished, the world is fucked, you are not doing a good job. you are hurting yourself and seeking others approval to do so.

-if you can recover, even if you feel like you dont deserve to, or youre not bad enough to, recover. dont let it take up years and years of your life.

-you deserve recovery if youre male, trans, poc, fat, or think youre a bad person.

-you deserve recovery even if you dont think its “that bad”

-nobody deserves this. get help.

[seabonesfuture]

lol when my ed got super bad and i was actually like. skinnier and really good at my rules was when i was in my stupid traumatic little ✨entanglement✨ w that creepy cheating old loser and it was like a distraction and stuff and also just. wanting him to like me even tho my body was never the issue lmaooo but it pisses me off bc i let myself go super bad when everything broke and he cut me off and i got so fat and it’s been all down hill and the fucking cherry on top is that when i had that body i still hated myself bc part of this is that it never feels like enough right. so now my boyfriend gets a mediocre whale of a girl and i didnt enjoy that body back then either but you know who did?? you know who fucking loveddd that body based on his absolutely sickening little comments?? the fucking cheating ass loser who used me. and it’s so fucked. and my boyfriend has never said anything bad about my body, he’s so sweet and he compliments me so much but i just. can’t get this gross feeling out of my head bc through a fucking decade of trauma i’ve made myself feel like my body is all my worth and i feel like he deserves so much better and i fucking hate this body. but its not just for him. i need to be thin because if anything goes wrong in any aspect of my life, i can handle it if i am thin. but if i am fat at rock bottom i really don’t think i’ll make it through again. because when the creep cut me off, that was my absolute lowest point ever and i made it through because even if it wasnt enough, i was okay with my body and i wasn’t as worried about that. but i dont look like that anymore and i need to go back. i feel disgusting at all hours of the day. i just dont know how to make myself better.