a/n: mmmmkay guys here it isā¦ hope you love the beginning just as much as i do..
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I pace back and forth as I wait for her to wake up. I know this is wrong letting her stay here, but Iām drawn to her. Itās always been my job to protect her and lately, Iāve been letting her down. No, she doesnāt know I exist, and no, she wasnāt supposed to, but I literally canāt help it. Iām infatuated with her. Iām breaking every rule in the books and I might even lose everything, but itāll be worth it. Most definitely. I find myself standing in front of the entrance of the pool house, and itās really difficult to walk in. I canāt just walk in. Sheāll think Iām crazy. How exactly do I do this? I push my thoughts away and gently push the door open and see that sheās already awake. She looks up at me in shock and awe, and it takes every part of my being to not run over to her and just hold her in my arms, and apologize for all the stuff Iāve been letting her go through lately. I sit down on the bed next to her, never breaking eye contact with her. Now her eyes are clouded with questions. She opens her mouth to speak, but I place my finger over her full lips. Why did I do that? Now sheās gonna think Iām creepy and perverted.
āYou might have many questions, and Iām going to answer them for you. But I just want to to know that my name is Shawn Mendes and I saved your life.ā She gives me a once over and she clears her throat, āSaved me from what?ā I contemplate on whether or not I should tell her. What he attempted to do was despicable, and I was glad I got involved before things got worse. I donāt think I could live with myself, knowing that it happened.
āFrom the man that tried to rape you.ā Her brown eyes start to brim with tears and I immediately regret telling her. She deserved to know and I know that if she were anyone else, I would definitely do it. āListen, if you-ā Her petite frame jumps and hugs me. I hear her mumble thank you into the crook of my neck. I start to feel her pull away, but I only hold her to me tighter. I will never let you. Ever. Iāll never let anything bad happen to you ever again.
āI want you to stay here. With me. Iāll never let anything like that happen to you again. I promise.ā I say firmly. I finally allow her to wriggle out of my tight hold, and she looks at me, āBut you donāt even know who I am. I donāt know anything about you.ā
She holds up her hand, cutting me off, āHold on, how the hell do you know my name?ā
āI saved your life yesterday,ā I say matter-of-factly.
Rolling her eyes, she says, āAnd?ā
āWhen that jerk tried to take you, you had a lot to drink and you dropped your bag, and I picked it up. Thatās how I ended up saving youā¦ I ran out of the bar to give you back your bag and you were so defenseless as you lay limp in his freaking arms, I knew something was wrong. I ruined that guyās face for you, and I took you home with me to make sure you were okay, and this is the thanks I get!ā I say, feeling myself get riled up because I broke every freaking rule for her, and I still am, especially with her here now.
āWell, first of all, I couldnāt remember all thatā¦ I was a rag doll yesterday, remember?! You canāt get mad at me! I didnāt even know what happened to me! So donāt imply that Iām some ungrateful bitch. No one told you to do all that!ā
āI never implied that, Nia. Iām just saying instead of getting an attitude, a thank you would be nice.ā
āA thank you?! A thank you. Are you kidding me? You know what, you can screw yourself. Whereās my stuff? Because I know I literally just thanked you, asshole.ā
āNia, calm down. I donāt want you going all the way to the city by yourself. If youāre gonna decline my offer and leave, at least let me take you.
"Honestly, Shawn, I donāt need you to do shit for me. I can do it myself.ā
āNo, you listen to me okay? I donāt need you. Thanks for saving my life, but how ābout you just give my shit so I can get out of your fucking house.ā
āIāll drive you.ā Iām trying to get her to stall her from leaving and to calm her down because I honestly donāt want her to leave me.
āNo! Donāt you get it?! Iām trying to get away from you! I just want to go home.ā And then, I see the tears start to well up in her eyes, and she starts to fall to the floor. I catch her before she hits and honestly, it pains me to see her like this. Sheās been through a lot in the last 24 hours, and honestly, I canāt take seeing her like this.
āI canāt go back there. I left for a reason. I- Iā, She sobs, choking on her tears. I rub the small of her back, trying to calm her down.
āNia, calm downā¦ If you donāt want to go back, my offer still stands. You can stand here if you want. Only if you want toā¦I wonāt force you to.ā
āPlease.ā Finallyā¦ the answer Iāve been waiting for.
āAlrightā¦ Do you want to go back home? Ya know, to get your stuff.ā I say, taking in her sweet smell of vanilla and lavender.
āCan you take me? Please?ā Her big brown eyes pleaded with me, and I feel my heart swell at how adorable she looks.
āOf course I will. We can get your car too.ā
She shrugs, āItās not mine, anyhow. So I couldnāt care less about it.ā
āAlright. Well, you probably want to get dressed, so Iāll get out of your hair.ā
āOkay.ā She opens her mouth as if she wants to say something more, but clamps her lips tightly, looking away from me out the large window, that overlooks the pool.
I stare at her wondering what sheās thinking. I know I can read her thoughts, but I donāt want to invade her privacy. āIāll be backā¦ I have to go get your clothesā¦ The bathroom is that door right there. If you wanna shower, you can. But.. um. Iāll be right back. There are towels and washcloths in the wicker bucket. Thereās soap already in thereā¦ Okayā¦ Iām going.ā
I walk out, standing outside the door, trying not to break down myself from what just happened. I canāt believe that sheās here. I really know Iām breaking all the rules by having her in my physical presenceā¦ I mean what would happen if someone found out that I had her here, all my powers would be stripped. Completely. And itās horrifyingly exciting. All I want is everything I canāt have and I wonāt stop until sheās mine.
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