it’s hard to tell what ivan’s true intentions were, but above all else i believe that he did what he did during r6 because he was SURE that till wouldn’t care.
that’s why it’s so heartbreaking to me that the memory of ivan is clearly a TRIGGER for till in r7
remember? ivan criticized sua because her eventual death would only traumatize mizi. that’s why he kept himself at arms length from till — because he never wanted to become a source of trauma for him. as much as he craved till’s affection, he didn’t want to hold till back.
but ivan didn’t account for till’s real feelings. till — while it was not in a romantic sense — cared for ivan more than ivan was lead to believe.
and just like sua was for mizi, he’s nothing but a source of trauma for till. he became something luka used to exploit.
and it’s genuinely so heartbreaking because that was the last thing that ivan wanted.
