Please read and help me. I am 18, pregnant, disabled and trapped with my abuser.
I had made another post but today (July 17) my account was randomly TERMINATED with no explanation or warning. I was able to get my account back but my post with over 2000 notes has been completed deleted so I have to go through explaining my trauma AGAIN and lost all of the notes Id had.
TLDR: Im Emma, Im 18, pregnant, mentally ill and disabled, lgbt, and stuck living with my increasingly abusive (physically, sexually, emotionally) boyfriend and am unable to recieve medical help or help from the law. I need to leave AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. This isnt my first post but past posts have not recieved enough attention or were deleted.
I dont want to go over this again but I started living with my bf when I was 17 because I was also being abused severely at home. I thought he could understand me bevause we both had mental problems and he seemed very sweet. After awhile he started getting very strange, manipulative, paranoid, checking my phone and taking it, locking the door and refusing to let me leave. He has threatened to let me sleep on the street because of his paranoia that I am cheating on him/trying to hurt him/ect. He has stopped taking his medication and I can no longer handle the abuse at this point. He has put his hands on me, forced and threatened me into sex. He belittles me for being disabled, calls me stupid, calls me a slut, he is homophobic because he realizes I am bisexual and thinks girls are only for men. It would take too long to list everything I've been through because of him.
I will be homeless if I dont leave because I cant just handle only putting my own life at risk. I know if he realizes I am pregnant he will react very badly. I have tried calling the police on him (which he holds over me now) but they did not have enough evidence of crime. He has a long record of violence but because he is mentally ill he goes to a hospital and then gets out when he becomes violent or threatening and then it happens again when he is off of his meds.
My parents have cut me off for leaving and refuse to support me despite begging for help. I am trying to reach out to all services suggested without raising attention but have found no help. If anyone has anything to spare, I can afford an apartment on my own with my disability income but I need help affording the application fees, deposit/move in costs and I need medical attention soon. I can pay my own rent from there on and be okay.
Im so so sorry. I didnt want to remake this post but my account and the previous post were deleted after getting so much traction. I am frustrated, terrified, having a lot of physical and emotional symptoms and have no way to get help until I can get out. He is only getting worse and I'm afraid I might die here. Anything helps, even boosting even if you already have before.
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