renchilli

[zegalba]

Peter Garfield: Mobile Homes (1996)

[modernbaseball]

[reginasphalanges]

BROOKLYN NINE-NINE 6.04 Four Movements

[positivewlwvibes]

the years really do start coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming a̶n̴d̴ ̸t̶h̴e̶y̴ ḋ̶̪̯̆o̴͔͠n̶͈̽̍t̷̟̭͝ ̷̻͙͊̎s̶͇͘ͅṱ̸̫̈́̒o̵̬̹͊p̷̬̰̂ ̵̗̬͛̀c̸̞̐̂ŏ̴͍̫͘m̶̢̐͊i̸̼̽ṉ̷̦̀g̵͉̒ ą̸̞͉̘͍̖̝̿̌n̸̛̼̤̝͛͊̓̊͜d̸̢͈̬͍̅̈́̽̓͊ͅ ̷̭̼̼̮̗͒ẗ̸̰̎̑̾͒͠ḧ̶͙͖͈̻̘͉͙́̓̉́̒̓͘ȩ̵̧̧̳̤͒̄̂̏̉̃̚ŷ̷̢͈̮̕͘ ̶̡̲̒̆̕͜d̷͚͔̟͉̳͉͛̈̇̂̈̈́͠o̵̧̻͕̝̖̣͋͂͗͑͐͝͝n̵̡̪͖̦͉͙̈́̉̅͠t̶̨̠̱̝̦̜͉̋̑̈́̚ ̶̬̘̏̀̃͂̃͜͝ͅş̶̺̰͕̺̙͋̎̎t̶̛͇͙̀̽̑̚͠ȏ̶̫͂p̴̠̫̳͂̀̉́̃ ̸̦̏̽c̷̛ͅo̴̹̩̺͌m̷̖̗̾̓͊̀î̷̥̔̔̂̚̕n̴̨̬̩͉̝̱̤̆͂͛̒̄g̴̡̩̝̠̯̻̞̈́͑͂

[heavensghost]

Accidentally put my whole fucking heart into something that wasnt fucking meant for me again fucking hell

[junglejim4322]

My delusion that im always right really isn’t helped by the fact I almost always do end up being right

[teathattast]

[dreamstars]

[depsidase]

[sigynpenniman]

girl.

[orpheuslament]

if i had a dick i would love to have a disappointing orgasm in the shower while thinking of something or someone that i felt i should not be thinking about & then stand under the water with my forehead against a wall watching the proof of my guilt & shame go down the drain

[thoughtcascades]

every time i get close to someone i feel like a stray dog trying to live in a house. like i don’t know where to put my body or how loud i’m allowed to be.

[toskarin]

not to be overly political and dry, and also not to imply my stances on things have been exactly obscure by diaclaiming that, but recent events have revealed to a startling extent how much the average american's understanding of west asia is about on par with what one could absorb by having the intellectual curiosity of a human sea anemone

[toskarin]

the sheer number of opinions that can only be understood by tacking on "the person writing this believes iran is the same as iraq, both of which they cannot distinguish from afghanistan because they sleepwalked through the US War On Terror, and they also believe every Muslim Country is two cities in the middle of an enormous empty wasteland that exists only to be crossed by bandits, governed only by a single head of state who exerts power on his full lonesome" is actually madness inducing

[crabussy]

small tips for Enjoying Being Alive from someone who went from wanting to die to genuinely loving life. these won't fix your life but they'll make it a lot easier to want to live day by day. I promise.

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

diet deficiencies can make you properly miserable. your physical health impacts your mental health more than you'd think. get some vitamins, some omega-3s and so on. whether from food or supplements. they can make quite a difference! your brain is responsible for a LOT of the way you feel, and giving it the fatty acids it needs to function at its best can go a long way.

[crabussy]

I know these all sound like stupid junk people who have never wanted to die tell you. I know they sound like dumb "self-help" tips written by people who have suffered mild anxiety at worst.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.

you truly don't have to follow any of this advice. but just read through. store it in the back of your mind. come back to it when you want. best of luck. [:

[nedzira]

These are genuinely great! If I can add a small comment it would be to try to change scenery every now and then, take a different route home and go for walks. And make appointments to meet your friends!

[crabussy]

ABSOLUTELY. anytime I feel myself descending into a slump where everything feels wrong and bad and gross and hard, I go on a Weird Walk. I choose a familiar destination (the dairy, the beach, a specific hill) and intentionally choose a route I've never tried before. it's crazy but it makes me feel better almost instantly, even if the new walk is worse than my usual route. your brain CRAVES new stimulation! you are a member of a species with one of the most active brains in the animal kingdom. please try not to live like a hamster.

[angelicdewdrop]

[deathdefyinggarlic]

my superpower? getting so anxious about having a migraine that i give myself one through sheer force of will.

[angelicdewdrop]