Blaine's Lost (then found) Love
Wordcount - I have no freaking idea - lots!
Blaine can't believe this is happening.. "Come on, come onnnn!" he mutters under his breath. "Where the fuck are you, 'Bastian?" he curses in frustration, as he throws everything in his wake around the living-room of their apartment. He's already pretty much annihilated their bedroom and the kitchen, and... Bas is gonna kill me when he sees this mess, he thinks to himself, as sobs threaten to completely take over his already trembling body..
Back in High School, long before the débâcle that still haunts Sebastian to this day and that would forever now be known as Slushie-Gate, Sebastian took Blaine to the Allen County Fair over in Delphos, as a surprise after Kurt had bailed on Blaine to spend time choosing audition pieces for NYADA with Rachel. They had a fantastic time, and Blaine barely drew breath from laughing so hard he wheezed at Bas' hilariously sarcastic running commentary on the other fairgoers. In fact, in the days that followed their wonderful excusion, Blaine had felt more than a bit guilty at just how much he'd enjoyed spending time with Sebastian, who seemed to go out of his way to make Blaine smile, that day.
When, (after 6 attempts and more than his usual amount of swearing in ummm...colourful French peppering his vocabulary), Sebastian had finally succeeded in winning a tiny green plushie bear for Blaine and handed it over with a slightly bashful smile, Blaine's wide grin could have split the skies wide open. Blaine had immediately named the bear 'Bastian - a fact that made Sebastian throw his head back in laughter, and his own genuinely-fond, toothy grin at seeing Blaine so happy, would have seemed alien to those who knew him well, as it was without the slightest trace of his usual arrogant demeanour or smirk.
'Bastian Bear became very important to Blaine. So much so, that when Sebastian, fuelled by petty jealousy and immaturity, misguidedly threw the Slushie that was meant for Kurt, almost blinding Blaine in the process, Blaine spent hours cuddling up to 'Bastian and feeling soo dejected and sad and...used...and internally asking - why? Sebastian had been his friend...So...just why did it all go so wrong, so fast?
As an upset present-day Blaine suddenly finds it hard to breathe, and becomes so engulfed in memories of the past that he's scared they'll actually choke him, he recalls that that was in fact a question he replayed in his mind many times over the years. Why?? A question that had became especially poignant when Kurt pretty much forbade him from talking to Sebastian ever again, and definitely forced him to sever all ties with him...
Yeah...that was something that over the years had, more often than he would ever care to admit, irked Blaine, and had made him stop and think, Did I make the wrong choice back then? Could I have been happy with Sebastian? Obviously now that point is moot, as Blaine's now engaged to Sebastian, they're planning their Wedding and he knows that he is the happiest he's ever been. But he sometimes still feels sad that he wasted so much time on a relationship that ultimately turned utterly...toxic and oppressive in ways his idealistic (childish, immature, selfish, his unhelpful brain supplies) 18 year-old self could never even have imagined....and threw away a chance at real happiness.
He'll never stop thanking the stars for aligning and The Fates for intervening - or whatever miracle occurred all those years later in that out-of the-way bar in Manhattan - when he and Sebastian serendipitously reunited, giving them both a second chance at finding love together. But this time around, Blaine feels seen, and wanted, and listened to, and loved. And he knows without a shadow of a doubt that if it were within Sebastian’s powers to harness and hang the moon for him, he would do it in a heartbeat.
He knows Sebastian is all in for him, and loves him unconditionally - flaws and all. It's a two-way street, but feeling equal to his boyfriend, no, Blaine's brain corrects, to his Fiancé, is something Blaine still has trouble wrapping his head around at times, so alien was that concept to him not that long ago.
As he pulls himself from his rêverie and surveys the utter devastation that's surrounding him, with a grimace, Blaine thinks about how he never told Kurt that Sebastian had won 'Bastian Bear for Blaine, and that Kurt had somehow believed the plushie was simply called "Bear", and that Blaine had won it himself during one of his many trips to the West Lima Arcade with Sam. In retrospect, Blaine realised a while back that he probably should have stopped and taken pause at the lack of guilt that this lie, no...this...omission had given him at the time, and if he's honest, he knows he was very attracted to Sebastian - yes, even way back then...
Years later, and as soon as Blaine was able to call his plushie by his rightful name when he and Sebastian moved into their new apartment together, 'Bastian originally had pride of place on top of their bed during the day, after their bed was made. That is, until during a particularly athletic bout of post-breakfast-but-pre-work, spontaneous sex, Sebastian knocked him flying off the bed, smashing Blaine's favourite coffee mug to smithereens, in the process. So after they hit the shower and a (slightly) mollified and shamefaced (he was still basking in the afterglow of hot sex, after all) Sebastian promised to replace the precious mug as soon as he'd finished work for the day, a furious Blaine decided it was far safer for 'Bastian to live on his nightstand - permanently....
While some might find it slightly immature (although Blaine couldn't care less who felt that way - especially because he was well aware that anyone who even dared to voice that opinion in his presence, would soon find themselves on the sharp end of a Death Glare from Sebastian), Blaine has taken to popping 'Bastian in his suitcase every time he has to take an overnight or longer, business trip. It helps him feel close and more connected to Sebastian while he's away, and he's even spritzed 'Bastian Bear with Bas' favourite cologne, so that he can inhale the scent of Sebastian while he's away from him, too.
After his last trip away just over a month before, on arriving home, Blaine decided that 'Bastian was looking a bit grubby, so he'd headed to their Laundry room, taken him out of his suitcase, and was in the middle of popping him next to the washing machine, ready for their next washing day, when Sebastian had suddenly appeared behind him, engulfed him in a huge bear hug whilst suffusing his neck with kisses, and....before he knew it, 'Bastian was falling to the floor, momentarily forgotten as his Fiancé backed him into the bedroom then kicked the door shut behind them to show him just how much he'd been missed...
The next month was hectic for them both, so for whatever reason 'Bastian never made it back to Blaine's nightstand and now Blaine's turning their apartment upside-down trying to find him before he heads off to Chicago to attend a Musicology Symposium. Gnawing on his lower lip, Blaine desperately racks his brain, trying to remember if 'Bastian had been taken out of their Laundry room at any point, but he's drawing a blank. With a sudden flash of inspiration, he remembers that Bas' older sister Aurélie had given them a helping hand with tidying the apartment the other day, as they've both been far too busy lately to take care of it themselves - after she'd loudly tutted while pointedly drawing a finger through the accumulating dust on their window ledge...
Feeling happier than he has since he started his search, Blaine grabs his cell phone from his pocket and punches in Aurélie's number. She answers almost immediately;
"Hey, Blaine! Is everything okay?"
There's a hint of tension in her voice that makes Blaine guiltily realise he should maybe call her more often without having a reason to do so, as she's clearly worried.
"Yeah! Well, no...not really," Blaine says as he gathers his thoughts. "Did you..uhh.. Did you by any chance find 'Bastian while you were tidying up the other day, 'Réli?"
Blaine immediately realises his mistake when her instant response is,
However, Blaine can almost picture her with a sardonically-quirked eyebrow, soooo reminiscent of Sebastian, as she continues,
"Blaine...how exactly did you manage to mislay my brother? I mean..I know he's a giant in comparison to your more....compact stature, but still... enquiring minds want to know!"
Blaine rolls his eyes and not for the first time wonders how he puts up with the Smythe siblings, but truth be told, he loves them both to pieces.
"Ha. Haha. Hahaha," he intones mirthlessly. "You two are completely wasted in your current professions. You both belong on the stage as a comedy double act - NOT!"
The tinkling, almost musical tone of Aurélie's giggle makes Blaine smile, and with more confidence now he says,
"Not THAT 'Bastian, you silly goose. 'Bastian Bear - the plushie that Bas won for me back in High School!"
Blaine hears Aurélie's sharp intake of breath, and suddenly fears the worst...Then she starts speaking, and he can barely breathe...
"Ummm.. is that.. is that perhaps a little green plushie bear that was the worse for wear, Blaine?"
Caught between hope and (another) impending panic attack, Blaine says in a voice that's barely above a whisper,
"Yeah.. that's him - err...it. Do you know where he - it - is, Réli?"
With a sigh, Aurélie sadly confirms Blaine's worst fears.
"I do, Blaine. I thought he was just some old toy that had been brought over in one of the boxes we collected from your parents' house during the move, and because he looked so...tatty (with hindsight Aurélie realises the word she should have associated with the bear was 'loved''), "I-I... I threw him out," she stammers. "I'm so, so sorry. I honestly didn't know! He'll still be in the outside refuse bin, though.. So -"
Wordlessly, Blaine abruptly ends the call, throwing his phone right across the room, before sinking to the floor and collapsing in gulping sobs, with his arms wound tightly around himself.. Because.. No. No! He won't still be in the outside refuse bin, he thinks to himself. The refuse lorry came yesterday! He could be halfway across New York by now! Tears now flowing freely, Blaine crawls under a pile of the clothes he had thrown around in his earlier quest to find 'Bastian. After a few minutes he tries to pull himself together, knowing he needs to put the shambles into some semblance of order, before Sebastian gets home.
Not 15 minutes later, Sebastian arrives home and is instantly on guard as soon as he opens their front door, and is confronted by a lone shoe, a saucepan and a half-eaten Snickers bar strewn across the hall. Something is not...right, here, he thinks, as he tosses his keys in the bowl by the door, pausing to pick up the Baseball bat that Blaine keeps (just in case, Bas) by the door.
As he ventures further into their apartment and into the adjoining living-room, his eyebrows shoot up into his hairline at the sight before him. What. the. actual. fuck? he internally wonders. Have we been burgled? Oh, shit. Are the burglers still here? Is this a Home Invasion? I'm far too pretty to die. So is Blaine. Blaine! Oh my God! Where is Blaine??
Sebastian’s brain finally clicks into gear and fear of the potential would-be assailants is wiped clean from his mind, as desperate to save his Fiancé, he determinedly heads in to confront...whatever or whoever is lurking in their apartment.
Squaring his shoulders, Sebastian pulls himself up to his full 6'2" height and strides forward, bellowing, "Blaine! Are you okay, babe? Where are you?" at the top of his voice and sounding (he hopes) far less fearful than he's actually feeling..
A slight snuffling noise to his right makes his ears prick up and as he turns sharply on his heel he gingerly ventures towards a...massive pile of clothes and heaven knows what else. Baseball bat still in his hand he tentatively pokes the bundle of clothes only to hear an exasperated "Ouuuuch!!! as his bat hits home. Poking the pile of..actually - what the fuck is this a pile of? Sebastian wonders, as he prepares to square up to whatever miscreant awaits him. But, wait...that voice came from...their bedroom? Just as Sebastian reaches their room, he's startled to see the door lying open and his Fiancé, face flushed and eyes suspiciously rimmed in red, sitting on the floor before him, folding clothes, and absolutely surrounded by utter...chaos. Feeling slightly less stressed (but no less worried) Sebastian says (slightly) more forcefully than he intends,
"Babe....what the FUCK is going on here? Why does our apartment look like a bomb has hit it? Then without missing a beat he adds, "And..have you been crying, B?" What's got you so...devastated looking?"
Feeling slightly embarrassed about getting this upset and making a conscious effort to not outwardly appear so, whilst running through a warring internal dialogue, Blaine takes a somewhat shaky breath before answering Sebastian.
"Oh, no i'm not actually devastated, Bas." (I mean I am but please don't notice). 'It's nothing really." (I'm actually falling apart inside but don't want to be a bother because maybe then you'll find me too needy and make fun of me for it like Kurt did). I've not been crying (nope...just enough to fill the lake that runs through our favourite park - twice over!)
As Sebastian raises a cynical eyebrow, clearly seeing right through Blaine's fibs (and isn't that always the freaking case, thinks Blaine ruefully to himself) he scoffs,
"Yeah..no, B. How about you try that again, because that story has more holes in it than Swiss cheese!'
Sebastian's wearing his fond JustForBlaine smile (Blaine has one that's JustForBas, too!) as he listens to Blaine, who is still resolutely trying to protest that nothing is wrong, when a word jolts Sebastian, and suddenly it hits him like a Mach truck and he realises.... Oh. Oh! THAT'S what this is all about! 'Bastian Bear! He's still brandishing the Baseball bat with one hand like some kind of makeshift weapon, and his briefcase is gripped in the other, but without hesitation he drops both to the floor, and hunkers down next to Blaine, wrapping his arms tightly around his small frame, before pulling him into his lap...while silently kissing away the tears Blaine had so vehemently denied just moments before.
Sebastian could kill Hummel at times like this. Well, truth be told Sebastian could quite cheerfully kill Hummel at any time with little to no remorse, but when Blaine feels like he has to put on this...this front and pretend that he's not internally falling apart, because his fucking parasitic, prancing Pixie of an ex-husband made him feel at times like...like last year's Hermès or Birkin handbag (yeah...trudging reluctantly around countless high-end Parisien boutiques behind Aurélie and his Maman over the years has given Sebastian an awareness and appreciation of the finer accessoires de mode, so sue him), Sebastian’s (internally visible ) rage knows no bounds..
Blaine warily pays close attention to Sebastian’s inscrutable face as he suddenly sets his jaw (never a good sign) clears his throat and starts to speak,
"Blaine...First of all, it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to be upset and to fall apart, and it's okay to show it. What is not so okay, is for you to hide being upset from me. I'm not Hu.. I'm not..Kurt," he reluctantly grits out. "I'm not ever going to make you feel that you can't express it to me when you feel sad, and that you have to put on some sort of... façade in front of me! - or anyone!" Getting slightly agitated, Sebastian continues,
"Look, babe. I love you. You're my fucking world and we're getting married soon! So you need to talk to me when you're hurting and upset. I'm not going to hurt you - well, not intentionally anyway. I'm bound to fuck up at some point, because I'm well - me! and we both know I can still be an arrogant, stubborn (jealous) dick at times. But we'll work through any ripples together, and you have to TELL me when you're upset - especially if it's down to me, because good communication is key to making relationships work. and giving them longevity...According to my Maman, anyway, and she and my Dad have an amazingly strong marriage, as you know."
As Blaine listens carefully to everything Sebastian is saying to him in his impassioned speech about how it's okay to not be okay, he visibly relaxes into his arms, thinking to himself I have a fucking awesome Fiancé, who makes me feel special and loved and safe - and who sees and hears me.
So Blaine starts again, this time telling Sebastian exactly how upset losing 'Bastian Bear, then finding out Aurelie accidentally threw him out, has made him feel.
When Blaine reaches the part about Aurélie throwing 'Bastian in the trash, Sebastian’s mouth drops open and he thinks to himself Oh, great. So now on top of killing Hummel I can add killing my freaking sister to the list! He's joking of course - well about Aurélie, anyway, but man.. These two are working his last nerve right now, and he can only take care of one of them in the foreseeable future.. On the other hand, he thinks with a smirk, there is the matter of him having to hand deliver that Restraining Order to Hummell very shortly, so that will suffice - for now..
Pulling Blaine closer and kissing him slowly and deeply, Sebastian reluctantly pulls away from him, then jumps up from the floor and says he's heading out to take care of something and will be back..soonish...
"Bas!" Blaine worriedly calls out as Sebastian reaches their front door. "Please promise me you won't do anything that will result in me having to get your Dad to bail you out..."
With a grin, Sebastian calls back, "I promise, Killer. No more blackmail, bullying or assault this year. I turned over a new leaf - remember?" Thinking about how that was in fact exactly what happened to Sebastian all those years ago, and that those exact words had been spoken as a result of the aftermath of "Slushie-Gate", makes both boys simultaneously shiver slightly, and as Sebastian closes the door behind him, he shakes his head to clear it of memories he definitely doesn't want to revisit right now. What on earth possessed me to fucking say that of all things as my parting shot to Blaine?" he wonders incredulously. "God..I really can be a dick at times."
His first port of call is his office in downtown Manhattan. He didn't want to call Aurélie from their apartment, because..well because he's gonna go fucking through her like a dose of salts, and he didn't want to upset Blaine even more today!
Tapping his foot impatiently against he bar of his office chair while he waits for the call to connect, he resolves to stay calm and to listen to what his sister has to say for herself. Aurélie picks up after the 8th ring, and he hears a tentative
But that's as far as she gets, because the next second Sebastian is unleashing a very colourful string of French,
Putain de merdre! Réli! Qu'as-tu fait, idiote? (Well..that resolution has aged well, he ruefully thinks as he storms on) T'as sûrement réalisé que l'ourson vert en peluche de Blaine était super important pour lui?? Va te faire foutre! Je m'en fiche! J'en ai plus rien à foutre! J'en ai ral le cul!!"
[For fuck’s sake! Réli! You surely realised that Blaine's green plushie Teddy Bear was super important to him? Go fuck yourself! I don't care! I don't give a fuck any more! I'm so fucking fed-up/done!]
Reining in her temper which rivals Sebastian’s in every way, Aurélie decides contrition is the best option as her little brother rails at her in increasingly vulgar French.
"Euh..Ben...bof... Désolé, Bas! Ouais, t'as raison. C'était entièrement de ma faute! Que puis-je faire pour me faire pardonner?"
[Errr... Well..umm... Sorry, Bas. Yeah, you're right. It was entirely my fault (that Blaine's now upset) How can I make it up to you/him?"]
As Aurélie braces herself for an even greater onslaught from her little brother she's stunned to find herself talking to thin air for the second time that day when Sebastian abruptly cuts the call.
Sebastian hums to himself as he reflects on just how badly that call had gone, then fires up his computer to find contact details for the local refuse collection company, and the address of the largest high-end toy store in New York. Having spoken to someone about the former matter, he calls a cab to get him to the toy store, which turns out to be FAO Schwarz on 5th Avenue.
Arriving at the store, Sebastian wastes no time and accosts the first salesgirl he spots.
"Excuse me," he says with his most disarming grin, then rolls his eyes as he watches her own eyes light up as she practically purrs, "How can I help you today - sir, all while lasciviously licking her scarlet painted lips. With an involuntary shudder, Sebastian holds up his left hand pointing to his ring and says,
"First of all - engaged! Second of all - not on your team! Third of all - if you don't find me EXACTLY what I'm looking for as a gift for my FIANCÉ I will go directly upstairs to the Director of this store and have your ass fired for sexually harassing his customers! This last Sebastian punctuated by stabbing her arm with his business card so that she could read the very prominently (and in gorgeous script) written, Sebastian Smythe, Specialist Lawyer to the LGBTQ+ Community of New York City
Smirking as she visibly paled, and said, "I'm so sorry, sir. That was very unprofessional of me." Sebastian was floored when she continued, "But you are very attractive, so surely I can't be blamed for wanting to flirt a bit?"
Jabbing her with his business card again as a reminder, Sebastian raises an eyebrow and says,
"Yes, I'm gorgeous, that's a given! I'm also very, VERY taken and very, very GAY! But may I just state for the record (Christ..why am I suddenly resorting to using legalese? he wonders). My Fiancé is not only absolutely beautiful, he also boxes in his spare time!
Then suddenly realising that doesn't exactly have the same impact when it's a woman that's hitting on him, Sebastian hurriedly resorts to throwing his phone in her face and showing her his wallpaper of a smiling Blaine holding Harry.
"So," he begins somewhat ominously, baring his very white teeth possessively as he notices the flash of interest in her eyes when she sees Blaine's photo.
"Shall we try this again..Melanie? He says, having noticed her name tag. Take me to the largest green plushie bear you have in this store - now!
Mouth agape, Melanie leads him to the elevator and punches the button for the 69th floor. At any other time this would have tickled Sebastian immeasurably, but right now all he can think about is how after buying the replacement plushie for Blaine, he is still gonna head to the top floor to pay a visit to the Director of the store, who just so happens to be one of his Dad's golfing buddies - and demand her ass be fired for sexually harassing his customers. What? He's turned over a new leaf. That doesn't mean he's a fucking Saint, nor that he's lost his.. edge.. He just now uses it for the 'Greater Good" - or in other words, fucking trouncing the opposition.
But for now - focus, Sebastian tells himself. Operation Secure "Bastian Bear Mark II is his number one priority. They arrive at the 69th floor, and step out of the elevator straight into what looks to Sebastian like a freaking sea of plushie creatures! Tilting his head to the side impatiently, in a "Well?" gesture, Sebastian again rolls his eyes as Melanie gives him a very obvious once-over, mentally adding another black mark to the list of misdemeanours he's gonna hit her boss with...just as soon as he has bought this dammed bear!
Melanie leads Sebastian over to a small green plushie bear and waits for his reaction. Gaping at her incredulously, Sebastian hisses,
"So, MELANIE! Just what was it about "Take me to the largest green plushie bear this store has - now!" that was so hard for you to understand? How can this..thing..even be REMOTELY described as the largest green plushie...anything that this store has?!
As his voice starts to rise in anger, a slightly older saleswoman notices Sebastian looking well...very pissed off, and quickly walks over to him, hurriedly dismissing Melanie with a slight nod.
Smiling brightly, she says to Sebastian,
"So, I understand you're looking to purchase a very large green plushie bear - would that be correct, Sir?'
As his scowl turns to a smile for practically the first time since he arrived at this godawful store, Sebastian nods, and says pleasantly,
"Yes, that's right. As a gift for my very MALE Fiancé. Actually I want to buy the largest green plushie bear that you have in the store."
Noting with interest that Moira, he reads, squinting at her nametag, appears to be unphazed by him emphasising the gender of his Fiancé, Sebastian wonders if there's a story there, and if Melanie has in fact been guilty of hitting on all the male customers... He files the question away in his Memory Palace for when he has his talk with the Director.
Moira leads Sebastian to the opposite end of the (very) long floor and stops in front of a fairly impressive green plushie bear, about 2 feet in height. It's fluffy and cuddly but it's not...huge, and today Bas is looking for HUGE. Another innuendo that would normally have Sebastian giggling childishly, but today...nope.
He scrunches his nose while looking the bear over and says with a defeated sigh,
'He's very cute, but he's just not...big enough. I need him to be REALLY big. Surely there's a bear that's larger than this one? he says with a slightly pleading tone.
Moira hesitantly begins to speak, telling Sebastian.
'Well, there is, Sir - but he's $4750."
Sebastian's eyes light up and he demands,
"Take me to him!" Then, feeling slightly ashamed of his lack of manners, he mutters, "Please."
Sebastian couldn't care less what the plushie bear costs. Everything he buys is expensive (he's a Trust Fund Baby, after all) - and when it comes to Blaine, money is no freaking object. He'd hang the fucking moon for him if it were possible..
Moira takes him to a locked office on one side of the floor and after letting Sebastian in, walks over to a glass cabinet with a small silver key. She opens the cabinet, then flicks a switch and suddenly a plinth rises up, and there in all its full resplendent green plushiness, sits the largest plushie bear that Sebastian has ever seen - and he looooooves it. More to the point, he knows Blaine is gonna love it, too!
"I'll take him," Sebastian happily says, and before Moira can even say Cash or Charge, Sir? he's slapped his Amex Black card onto the desk. Moira swipes it and asks Sebastian if he wants the (enormous) bear delivered, but he declines the offer, as he's now off to pick up the car he's rented for the next part of his mission. Thanking Moira profusely for all her help, Sebastian leaves the floor. After a quick glance at his watch he realises that his visit to the Director will have to wait for another day, because he's now on a time crunch to get across the city, and fulfill his next task. But he will be back, because women like Melanie need to be made aware that they cannot just hit on men with no regard for how uncomfortable it might make them feel.
Struggling to carry the huge bear and walk at the same time, Sebastian pointedly ignores the multitude of 'cooing' sounds and "Awwws" coming from just about every female he passes, and finally finds a cab large enough to accommodate 'Bastian Bear Mark II - and himself, then sets off.
At the car rental company he's lead over to the 7 seater he's hired (he knew he wanted to buy a very large plushie bear for Blaine, so he was being practical), and starts driving to the outskirts of the city. On the way, he spots a Florist and after checking the time, dives in and asks for a huge bouquet of all of Blaine's favourite flowers - yellow and red Roses, some large Michaelmas Daisies, a few yellow Sunflowers, and a couple of sprigs of "that kind of lacey looking Wedding-y stuff" (which he's helpfully informed is called Gypsophila) and has it all tied up with a huge green satin bow.
After he's got those safely in hand, he continues to drive out to the Dumpster that he was given the address for. Sebastian, of course, is still wearing his work suit, but earlier that day he'd paid the car rental company to have someone nip out and buy him a pair of jeans (what? This suit is Armani Privé, and was personally tailored expressly for him, for fuck’s sake, and he is NOT ruining it by going...Dumpster diving). So he parks as close to the Dumpster as he can humanly get, then slips out of his suit jacket, and strips out of his pants, easing the new jeans up his (endless) legs.
Rolling up his shirtsleeves and popping the (very expensive) Platinum cufflinks that Blaine had given him for his Birthday into his suit jacket pocket for safekeeping, he's finally ready. Bracing his feet on the edge of his rental car to project himself towards the Dumpster, he finds to his delight that his considerable height allows him to rummage and rifle through the contents, without having to actually dive into the Dumpster.
After an hour of fruitless (and absolutely filthy - and not in a positive and fun way, either!) searching, he's almost given up hope, when a flash of green that he instantly recognises catches his eye. With a sigh, Sebastian realises that he will have to dive right in now, as it appears all his rummaging has in fact pushed 'Bastian Bear further down the Dumpster. Great. Just great...
He takes a deep breath, propels himself through the air and.... promptly lands on top of something cold and icky and just euuuegggh! After just a few minutes, he finds 'Bastian Bear looking very forlorn indeed, tucks the tiny plushie under his arm and prepares to jump back out of the Dumpster. Only...now his height is most definitely NOT an advantage, as this arduous task proves extremely difficult!
After a solid 30 more minutes (fuck, Blaine will be sending out a search party any second now..), he finally manages to climb ungainfully out of the Dumpster, and crawls back into the rental car, breathing heavily and feeling very grateful for all his years of Lacrosse training that have maintained his stamina at an optimum level. Blaine's also very glad of it in the bedroom, he thinks with a cocky smirk...
Peering at 'Bastian Bear he says,
"Come on, buddy, time to get you home to your Dad. He's really been missing you."
Cleaning him up as best he can before realising that he has actually just had a conversation with a fucking inanimate green plushie bear, and that that is NOT even the weirdest part of the day he's just had - by far! Sebastian chuckles low in his throat, then puts the rental car into reverse, and guns out of the refuse tip, triumphantly heading home to Blaine.
On arriving back at their apartment, Sebastian’s mischievous (devilish...) side resurfaces and he decides to tease his Fiancé - just a bit. He knows if he pushes that too far when Blaine's had a wobble, he risks really pissing him off so he'll be gentle..ish.. He's only just put his key in the lock when he's startled by the door fliying open and Blaine barrelling into his chest, hitting him with angry fists.
"WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN, BAS?" Blaine roars. I'VE BEEN CALLING EVERYWHERE - EVEN THE FREAKING HOSPITALS! YOU LEFT HERE MORE THAN 5 HOURS AGO SAYING YOU WOULD BE BACK SOON!"
For a fraction of a second Sebastian debates the wisdom of arguing that he actually said he would be back soonISH, but a quick glance at his (again) upset Fiancé stops that thought dead in its tracks and he even wonders if teasing him a bit is the wrong move, but nah.. He knows that what he has planned will make Blaine smile...eventually.
Blaine suddenly seems to become aware of the fact that his Fiancé isn't batting his fists away..because he is physically unable to do so, as his arms are full of wtf is that? Blaine looks more closely and with a soft "Ohhhhhhh," he finally stops hitting Sebastian and asks,
"Is he.. is he for...me???
Sebastian glares slightly balefully at Blaine then drawls,
'Well, I don't know, B. I mean, he was - but that was before you decided to use me as a human punching bag!"
Blaine looks even more crestfallen as he also spots the beautiful bouquet his (annoyed? Pissed-off? Amused?) Fiancé is brandishing aloft, safely out of the way of Blaine's flying fists.
"M'sorry, Bas" he says, biting his lower lip.
"I was just...scared.. what you said as you left..."
Not wanting to reopen that particular can of worms any time soon, Sebastian leans down with difficulty and plants a kiss on Blaine’s forehead.
"Ssshhh, B," he softly says, gently dropping another kiss on top of the the curls he loves so much.. "It's okay. I know you worry.. I'm home now, so how about you help me get 'Bastian Bear Mark II into his new home - hmm?'
On hearing the name, Blaine lights up like a Christmas tree, and helps Sebastian to carry the massive plushie bear into their living-room.
As Blaine inhales the flowers with a happy smile, and looks 'Bastian over from head to toe in wonder, breathing, "He's..he's so beautiful! Bas. Thank you! It's sad that I can't take him with me when I travel, but I know he'll be looking after you while I'm away." Sebastian bites the inside of his cheek at his Fiancé's adorable and childlike (not childish!)! statement, then can't help bursting into laughter as it occurs to him that 'Bastian Bear Mark II is pretty much just one inch shorter than his gorgeous Fiancé!
Pointing this out to Blaine, he receives a playful glare in return and knows for certain that this is the right moment to put his plan into action.
Sebastian quietly walks back out of the living-room, then holds (original) 'Bastian Bear at the edge of the doorframe, while he hides, making 'Bastian 'wave' to Blaine, while he whistles to attract his Killer B(ee)'s attention.
The sight of Blaine crumbling in front of him in an even greater flood of tears than earlier, makes Sebastian falter momentarily, but when seconds later he finds himself with an armful of Blaine, he knows he's forgiven for teasing him.
'You...y-you went Dumpster diving just to get 'B-Bastian back for me," Blaine gulps. 'You hate dirt and g-garbage, but you.. you're... "
Clearly overcome, Blaine pushes himself up onto tiptoe, and pulls Sebastian’s head down so that he can capture his lips with his own..Smiling against his lips, Sebastian slips his tongue into Blaine’s mouth, letting it run across his trembling bottom lip before deepening the kiss..
Groaning softly, Blaine backs his Fiancé towards their bedroom, kicking the door shut behind them and fully intending showing Bas just how much he loves him..
As they start to hurriedly discard their clothing still locked together at the lips, Blaine suddenly squeals when out of the corner of his eye he sees Bas swiftly popping 'Bastian Bear back onto Blaine's nightstand. He squirms out of Sebastian’s grip, much to his Fiancé's irritation.
"C'mere you," Sebastian says softly, trying to snake an arm back around Blaine's tiny waist. "Iwannabeinside-" then...
"Blaine? What the fuck are you doing, babe?" Sebastian asks, as he watches Blaine race over to his nightstand.
Blaine with a blush that covers his entire face (and..beyond, as Sebastian well knows), chews on his lower lip as he turns to Bas with owlish whisky-honey coloured eyes and says,
'Turning Bastian Bear to the wall, so that he doesn't get traumatised by our monkey sex, Sebastian, Blaine patiently explains.
Opening and closing his mouth several times like a goldfish out of water, Sebastian repeats dumbfoundedly,
"So that he doesn't get traumatised by our..." With a fond roll of his eyes, Sebastian giggles,
Oh, Killer. I love you so, so fucking much. Now get over here so that I can show you just how much!"
...and so Sebastian does...
Yes, I do still have the previous two ficlets for this series to post, that will happen this coming week, but this one literally took arms and legs....
Yes, this is from the same 'verse, but can be read without any knowledge of my previous ficlets.
The section where Blaine tries to tell Sebastian that he's fine and there's nothing wrong thanks to his ingrained and learned mechanisms, but of course Sebastian sees right through him, and shows him that it's okay to show his emotions, was suggested as a change to my original plot line, by my wonderful friend (and patient sounding-board) @imogenlefay , so she gets full credit for the wonderful alteration to my story.
I've been made fully aware that this goes well past the realms of being a ficlet..So, I guess - welcome to my first (and probably only) Seblaine fic.
Thanks go to my amazing friends (who are both absolutely incredible "proper" Seblaine writers) Imogen @imogenlefay and Lisa @nightbirdssidekick for their patience while I bombarded them both with endless versions of this bloody graphic that drove me up the wall, then valiantly listened to (read?) my stream of consciousness when ideas pretty much bombarded my mind. I love you both very much.
I'll very soon be posting a ficlet in which there is a scene that some Seblainers who also like Kurt may find upsetting, as it will not show Kurt in a positive light at all, so I'll be sure to tag it appropriately.