reborn

sebastian carlson - beta

[chris-woods]

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

“I think I can imagine how you feel right now" his tone low, as he smiles back at him.  They where exclusive? Had Sebastian just done that?  Was this real?  They had been nothing but friends to each other in the beginning, maybe friends with benefits, but along the way something had gone deeper for them. Or at least for Camden. Even if he had never felt this way about someone before, he knew something was different about him. There always had been.  He leans into the kiss, pressing his body into the other, enjoying not only the warmth his touch brought, but the comforting feeling it sent through him.  Seb had always had that affect on him, even if it was by the simplest of touches.  His hand, or the brush of his arms.  He sighs out quietly, nuzzling into his neck, “Together” he repeated, before meeting his gaze.  He couldn’t help as his cheeks flushed against his compliment, shaking his head, “You’re ridiculous” he muses out quietly, his hand coming up to brush against his cheek, “Ridiculously hot” he corrected, a smirk moving across his lips, before tugging Seb forward, and placing a kiss of his own upon his lips. One of his arms slid around his waist, as he leaned into him again. “So I’m stuck with forever huh?” he’s teasing now, his hand sliding down his neck, as he presses a kiss along his jawline, “Does this mean we get to have those cute sleep overs, and share shirts?”

“Oh really?” Sebastian asked with more of a quirky grin on his face now. He could stand like there all day, one moment ago he felt like everything could have fallen apart because of his jealousy and over reactions, but there he stood, admiring the sight of his boyfriend. The simple fact that he could think of that word when describing Camden made the kiss that much more enjoyable. That and the fact that he could compliment him whenever and get to see the flush already covering his cheeks. “Ridiculously hot? I like the sound of that.” he returned the kiss with just as much passion as he had just a moment before. “Honestly, you could use some new shirts. I know you only walk around with t-shirts with holes in them after all.” a little nudge to their run in at his clinic. He led both of his hands slide down once more, to get a good grip of Cams ass. “I do like the sound of sleep overs though.” He pressed his lips to his cheeks, just where the pinkness of his blush were the brightest. “If everything goes well, I’ll have my own place within the next couple of weeks. You know you’ll always be welcome.” his voice was almost a whisper next to Camden’s ear. “Do you want to go out? I’ve been cooped up in this whole all day, feeling sorry for myself. I think I’d like to get some ice cream or something.”

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[chriswoofs]

[pxintxfview-deactivated20180930]

“I do find it rather interesting—“ gaze falling up to one of the taller buildings he ran into since the day of his arrival. “This place, I mean. It’s not too big, and yet it’s got everything. And I’m so surprised the hospital here is so well equipped. I had encountered many with less in places with greater standards for living.“ his thick accent not allowing him to blend in as a native, Robert, smiled at the person next to him. “What else is there that you could show me?“

[sebscarlson-blog]

“I never really fitted in with the hospital to be fair.” Sebastian replied very simply. Back when the two of them had first met, he'd have trouble discerning Robert’s accent, but it was just like second nature to him now. “I’m glad you like it though. I’ve been happy to be here for the last while. I still can’t believe you’re actually here.” he let out an almost snicker-like laughter, but only for a moment. “You don’t wanna go near the north of the town. That’s where the crazy wolves hang out, but I can show you the clinic I’ve got? It’s not the hospital, but I’m pretty well stocked too.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

pxintxfview:

“You know you wouldn’t regret calling me if I did far worse than this.“ he chuckled, rolling his eyes playfully as he kept heading towards the place. “It’s really cute that you think you could actually put me to an E.R. babe.“ there was a brief pause in which he got the address and sped up a tiny bit. “Play, gocha, and see ya in a few.“ he hung up, putting the phone to his lap before speeding up a little more, in order to not let Sebastian wait for him. He approached the motel and parked in front of it just in time to see the other heading out and towards him. As soon as the door was closed, he started the engine once more and looked at his side. “Hey Aaron, you look so good, thanks for taking me out to grab some food.“ he laughed at himself before speaking again. “Where do you wanna go, Seb? I’ll even let you pick what kinda food we’re gonna eat.“

“I could put you in the E.R easily. Don’t tempt me ” Seb playfully punched Aaron’s shoulder. It was nice to be out for a little while and not cooped up in his room, fixating about his mistakes. God, he’d gotten so angsty lately. and it really didn’t suit him. Not according to himself at least. “Hey Aaron, you look hot, thanks for taking me out for some food.” he said, almost mockingly as he proceeded to caress the place he’d just hit to make sure that it wasn’t done too hard, even if Aaron was a sturdy man. “Let’s get mexican? Or chinese?” he thought about it for a while, then offering a light shrug. “We can get some noodles and then hang out in my hotel room for a while? Watch a movie or two? A real netflix and chill date?”

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

The stubborn part of himself wanted to argue back. That he was at fault just as much as he had been.  He shouldn’t of talked to Sebastian that way, he had no right.  He had let his anger get the best of him, and he hadn’t wanted to do that, not in front of him.  Not in front of the guy he trusted and cared about the most. The guilt dissipated though when he caught the beta’s smile, offering his own in return, “I know” quietly answering.  He had come here so they could talk, and be as it may, it was hard.  Because they seemed to share the incapable way of not being able to put their emotions into words.  Though Cam was kind of thankful for that, because it meant the other understood it more than anyone. His hand drifted down his cheek, before he shook his head wanting to clarify something before he addressed what he had just laid out for him, “You’re not horrible, far from it” he muses out, before stepping possibly closer to.  He felt the nervousness, it wasn’t hard to miss.  It literally radiated onto him, but Cam felt the same way.  He had never heard those words before, nor had he ever been placed in this situation before.  He had never felt the way he did for Sebastian for anyone else in his life.  "Yes" the word finally falls from his lips, as he smiles again, “I do, I want you, I mean, god Sebastian, I think I’ve been falling in love with you this entire time. And, how do you just tell someone that without sounding like a complete idiot” though as he said the last bit, he couldn’t help the small laugh. Made sense, he was his idiot after all. His hand in his hair, was so soothing.  In such a different kind of way, he leaned into him then before holding the side of his face to kiss his forehead, “Lets try this, together" 

That one word was the only thing he’d hoped came out of his mouth and it did. He said yes, and while this was far from a proposal, it was still great. Maybe even amazing. He felt amazing at least  “Yes.” he repeated, but quietly and his win only widening to an almost impossible extend. His hand slowly crept around Camden’s waist, just to close the remaining space between them. “You have no idea how happy it makes me to hear that.” he said rejoicing in the kiss he received on his forehead, but quickly readjusted so that he’d give him an actual kiss on the lips. He took his time, even if he just wanted to deepen the kiss immediately with all of the emotions he was feeling, he simply let his lips in against his for a good few seconds before pulling back again. He just looked at him for a little. Taking in every edge and shape he could find. It had been a while since he had been as infatuated with anyone the way he’d been with Camden, almost from the first day they started talking. He couldn’t keep his eyes off him, which had probably been a contributing factor to why he had gotten so upset in the first place. “Together.” he then finally said. “We’re going to do this together you and I.” they weren’t mates. Probably wouldn’t be for a long time, but he knew there was something. “God, Cam. I’ve never told you this, but you’re so beautiful.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

He looked at his hand on his, part of him wanted to pull away. Because he was being unreasonable, stubborn. But he didn’t, he couldn’t do that to him.  But he looked up when Seb told him that he wasn’t fucking Henrik, and in that instance snapped his arm back, “Like I can’t smell him on you.  I know he’s our alpha, so of course his smell is going to linger.  But his lingers very much on you and strong.  And then you have the audacity to get upset with me because I slept with someone. One time Sebastian” his hands where shaking now, though he noticed he wasn’t the only one.  He looked the other wolf over, before slowly meeting his gaze again.  He’s shaking his head, “ You didn’t do anything wrong” he’s sighing now, running a hand through his hair as he’s looking away from Sebastian again.  This was just so much at once.  He had hoped that that the whole Henrik and Seb thing hadn’t been true. Honestly he had just went with it, hoping it wasn’t.  But, it was to late the moment the words had come out of his mouth.  He was kind of disgusted with himself. “I shouldn’t of said that to you.  You weren’t mine. I didn’t have any right to speak that way to you.  You had every right to do whatever the hell you wanted”   he watches as the expressions change upon his face,  and it hurts Cam to see all the emotions all over his face like that.  Because it was partially his fault, and he knew it.  "Stop“ he says firmly, moving back to Sebastian now, their only inches apart. "I can’t either.  I’ve never felt this way about anyone.  But, if you don’t want it more than what it is between us, then fine. I can accept that, and if you don’t want me to be with anyone else. Then, I’d do that for you Sebastian” he pushes himself forward now, pressing his body into the others before cupping his face to kiss him. To show him that he meant it.

To say it didn’t hurt to be called out like that would be a gross understatement, but at the same time, he couldn’t let himself wallow in pity. The main thing about even meeting Camden like this was to apologize for his hypocrisy and mistakes. He couldn’t just stand up and defend himself like what he had done was okay. It wasn’t. He’d made Camden feel bad and for that, he felt bad. It was an evil spiral that he couldn’t let continue. He wasn’t good with his words, but he’d do what he could. Camden pulled his hand away and once again rejected his intimacy. He was this upset about Henrik? He was this upset about the same thing Sebastian had been? Could he be feeling the same as him? God, this wasn’t easy. “Don’t... Don’t do that. Don’t apologize.” he said, shaking his head just a few times while talking. it felt horrible. “I shouldn’t have called you out like that if I did the exact same thing, it wasn’t fair. I was horrible.” he explained, but instead of being beat up about it he flashed a short smile. “It’s.. that doesn’t matter anymore. It matters that we’re here and we’re talking about this.” he managed to say before Camden was within his arms again. It was a complete turn-around, but he didn’t mind one bit. In fact, it made him actually make his mind up as he felt Camden’s lips on his once more. “Alright. I know what I want.” he then stated while letting one of his hands go up and into Camden’s hair. “I want you. and no one else, so.. Do you want to.. I don’t know, Do you think maybe..” fuck, he was rambling again and at the worst time. He took a deep breath and looked directly into the Omega’s eyes with a determined look. “Do you want to see where this might go? Do you think we could make this work as an uh.. a couple? Exclusive? I know I’d like to try.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

It made sense to him, he got it. He wasn’t confused anymore. No that was a lie, but Seb had been right about one thing.  It was new to him, as it was to Camden.  Camden had never dealt with this before, feelings, going beyond friendship.  And when it came to physical stuff, it wasn’t ever with someone he cared about, unless it had been Sebastian.  He watched as he looked away from, and in return, Camden brought his hands back placing them on his knees.  He rubbed them against the fabric, noticing just how sweaty they where, “O kay..” this was so difficult, and he didn’t know how to form the words racing in his mind.  But he knew he couldn’t sit there anyone.  So he stood, but didn’t move to far away, “You’ll try to? To not act jealous, if I don’t know let someone else fuck me besides you?” he can’t help the bitter laugh, as he staring at Seb again, “So  I’ll just try and pretend that you and Henrik fucking doesn’t bother me then” he didn’t mean for his words to sound harsh, but Seb was putting a lot of pressure on him, when in reality, he wasn’t the only one being with other people that way. “So it’s okay for you to do it, but not me?” he asks now, jaw tight.  His emotions where getting the best of him, and he really needed to gain control, or his temper was going to end up getting the best of him..  And he really didn’t want to let that happen. Not here, and not at Seb. 

The laugh is what really got to him. It seemed almost mockingly bitter and it was a side to Camden that he’d never seen before. He’d stood up out of nowhere and turned the plate completely. He was right though. Sebastian stood up as well, letting one of his hands slowly reach out to Camden’s. He felt so rejected there, he could practically feel the aggression in Camden’s voice. Henrik, really? He was almost shaking with nervousness. He was a hypocrite. He’d gotten so upset about Gio, and then done the exact same thing with his alpha. “I’m not fucking Henrik.” he denied, despite that only being partially true. He hadn’t done so since the hunter attacks, but he understood. Of course he did, especially since Cam was in the same pack as well. “I’m not saying I didn’t, but I’m not anymore.” he then stood firm for once in this conversation. He had eyes only for Camden, why couldn’t he see that? What did he do wrong for it to end up like this? He could feel it like a knife going through his chest, but instead he just stood there for a good moment, taking a closer look at the clearly agitated omega. “I’m sorry. Henrik isn’t the one I want. You are.” he said in a silent tone, but still determined to actually make it clear when he meant. There could be no more misunderstandings between them. “I know I’m a fucking hypocrite, but I was a mess after what happened with the hunter attacks and he was there for me.” he sighed and let his hand go to his head, rubbing the side of his forehead in pure disappointment of himself. “I.. I can’t see myself be happy with anyone other than you by my side.”

[prettymysticfalls]

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

“Okay” he says slowly, just staring at him for a moment. He honestly didn’t know what to say. His mind was silenced by the kiss, for maybe a moment. Before he was placing both hands on his cheeks and pulling Seb from the kiss, “You’re apologizing for walking out on me, I realize that. And I forgive you, that’s not even in question.  You didn’t hurt me, or you did. I don’t even know right now.  I guess I’m just really confused.  You where obviously upset because you smelled Gio on me, someone else that wasn’t you. Because you wish I was yours?” he wanted to make sure he got this right, before he spoke again, “So you’re fine with me being with someone else and not just you, that’s what you’re saying?” when did they get here? How did this playful banter, and teasing go to this. He lets his hands drop, “So I can fuck whoever I want and you can too, and we’ll just pretend that whatever we feel for each other is what? Not actually something you want to feel, but a wish of yours?” he didn’t mean to sound harsh, or hurt.  It was fine, Seb wasn’t good at this, and neither was he. But he just wanted to try to at least understand, so he could actually get why he had been upset with him about the whole Gio thing.

He owed that sort of explanation. He’d acted irrationally and he couldn’t blame Camden from feeling confused or downright demanding about wanting answers. He’d give them to him. Of course he would. He took another deep breath. God, he was insecure out of nowhere and he didn’t know what to about it. “I- yeah. that’s basically i meant.” he said with just a little nod before being struck with the latter part of his question. it stung, of course it did. his own confusion had translated so poorly. “I’m not saying that I-.. I really like you Camden. I catch myself imagining you as a part of my life in the future and that’s not something I do often, so I just.. I got jealous.” he sighed and broke eye contact again. He just couldn’t look directly at him when saying what he was going to say. “If.. If that’s what you then yeah. I can be fine with you fucking whoever it is you want to fuck. I’ll try to at least.” he said his hands started fidgeting and even shaking just a little. “Give me a moment to figure out what it is I want, Cam. This is just as new for you as it is for me. There are times where I wish I could just..have you all to myself, but again, if you don’t want that, then it’s fine. I’ll just.. step back.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

He sighs quietly, “I should of known” he comments now, bringing his hand back slowly.  Partially he had, but he hadn’t thought so much on because his time with Gio hadn’t meant more than what it had been.  He looks back at him now, listening to him speak. Watching as he sorted through his words, putting them together. He offered him a half smile, “I understand what you mean..” he was going to to continue, but Seb hadn’t finished talking. Which he was glad he hadn’t.  And even if his words where all jumbled together, Camden understood him perfectly well. Because honestly, he felt the same way around Sebastian more than half the time they where around each other.  And it confused the hell out of him, but honestly he didn’t mind.   He waited till he had finished, before turning in his spot.  He slid his hand to his chin so that he would have to look at him now, “And sometimes I was I was yours”

I understand what you mean. How he needed to hear those words exactly. He felt like he was out in the deep end and slowly drowning his own words. It just felt so weird to talk like that. He wasn’t the most verbal dude in general, so talking about feelings didn’t exactly go well with him. He looked up as Camden touched his face, slightly surprised by the statement coming from him, but it did make his heart that much lighter. “I’m so glad to hear that.” he said, having just prepared for Cam to blatantly reject him, but it was almost like this was the opposite. His feelings were validated. “I uh.. We don’t.. I’m not saying we have to go exclusive or anything. I just wanted to let you know how I felt. I feel like that’s what I’m not good at most of the time.” he was rambling, but he cut himself off and instead of talking, he simply leaned in a closer and placed a tender kiss on the lips of Camden. “I’m.. sorry if I hurt you, confused you.. made you feel bad.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

wolfitscamden:

He allowed him to tug him within his room, before shaking his head, “You’re not a dick” he looks at him, “Far from it Sebastian” he followed him, sitting right next to him on the bed.  he looked at him, ot looking away from anything, “It’s okay, it was a lot –” though he wasn’t sure exactly what had set off that reaction.  He moved his hand to Seb’s knee though, giving it a light squeeze, “Losing something?” he met his gaze, trying to understand exactly what he meant by that, “What you feel matters to me, so if I did something. I need you tell me” 

He felt bad. Obviously he did, judging from the texting correspondence, Cam hadn’t been particularly happy with how he’d marched out. The hand on his knee made his guilt almost even worse. “I- Us.” he gestured to himself for a moment, once more taking a moment to adequately getting his words out. “I really like you, Camden. And when I caught his scent, saw the texts he sent you I.. I panicked. I thought that maybe someone would swoop in and take you away from me.” he sighed. It didn’t come out the way he wanted it. “You’re not mine, I know that. I just.. Sometimes I.. I wish you were.”

[sebscarlson-blog]

pxintxfview:

“You did?“ a faint laughter escaped his lips as he continued walking down the road, turning to his right. The day was bright and sunny and it felt good feeling the sun rays on his skin. “I thought you gave me the number out of courtesy only. Like don’t ever call me but here kinda deal.“ Aaron smiled widely to his own words. “You’ll punch me? Isn’t that what you’re healing people from… Doc?“ the playfulness in his voice indicated that he was merely joking, and he would stop if it really annoyed Sebastian. “Not at all. Where are you now?“ he looked around, making a note in his head to route to his place or a place to meet him at. It wasn’t more than a five minute walk to reach him either way. “i can pick you up in like five minutes. Works?“

“Don’t make me regret calling you Aaron.” Sebastian said with just a short laugh. It was nice to smile. He’d had a somber face for most of the day, so hearing someone joke around was just what he needed. “I’ll put you in the hospital. Emergency injuries is for the E.R, not for my clinic sorry.” he shook his head, despite it not being visible to the other. “Mmm, I’m at that hotel downtown. Five minutes works just fine. I’ll see you then.” he grinned as he hung up, shoving both his wallet and phone in his pockets so he could head downstairs. It’d be nice to get out of there for a little. A car pulled up outside and Sebastian made his way to it, immediately getting in at the sigh of Aaron. “You’re a minute late, I think we’re going to have to cancel this.” he joked.

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wolfitscamden:

He stared at him for a few moments, before finally speaking, “Hey” he stepped forward, his hand coming up to touch his cheek, “You’re such an idiot, you know that right?” he meets his gaze, “How would that have solved anything if you had tossed it out the window?” he felt bad, and the half smile, he recognized almost immediately didn’t help. Probably a little guilt in there, even though he wasn’t even sure why. He copied his sigh, before letting his hand drop slowly, “A little confused, but, I’m here so lets talk?” he offers, giving him a small smile in return, looking back to him.  

The hand on his cheek gave him all the affection he had craved the entire day. God had he been over reacting. It’s not like there was anything he could do about his actions though, nothing but apologize at least. He let one of his hands reach out and grab onto Cam’s hand, while gently tugging him inside the room. “The biggest idiot.” He answered with a small nod, as a hand went through his hair while he thought of ways to put his thoughts into words. “So uh, fuck. I mostly just wanted to say that I’m sorry for this morning? I don’t know what got into me.” he sighed once more, this time as he took a seat on the bed. “I got this urgent feeling that I was.. I don’t know.. losing something and I guess I panicked. It uh.. won’t happen again.”

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[wolfitscamden-blog]

@sebscarlson

Slipping his phone into his back pocket, he walked across the lawn, till he was walking up the steps to the house. He pulled the door open, before slipping inside and then taking the stairs up again to Seb’s room.  Without hesitation, he knocked on the door and waited for the other.  A little unsure about this, because in the back of his mind. He felt as if this was going to end in the result of last time, and he wasn’t sure he’d could handle Sebastian, walking away again. Though he would give him the benefit of the doubt, and remind himself it was for good reason. 

[sebscarlson-blog]

He’d really fucked up, and even he could see it now. Their whole promise to be there for each other had gone down the drain, as you didn’t just walk out on someone you promised to protect. He let out a sigh. Taking a moment before opening the door to his room. “Hey.” he said with a weak smile, taking a better look at his face. God it was beautiful. Camden had been his rock throughout the hunter attacks, so realizing he wasn’t his took some time. “You should see my phone, I swear I almost threw it out of the window a few times this morning.. How are you?”