Forever and On

Oregon to Arizona and all the places in between.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“You deserve to be okay. You deserve to know that a day in which you can just barely get out of bed because you are sad, or sick, or simply not ready to see the outside is not the end of the world. You deserve to know that moments of weakness do not make you fundamentally weak, only fundamentally human, and that sometimes we’re not going to be effusively happy, and that is okay.”

— Chelsea Fagan

[alexboisset]

[cruvcio]

[secretlyy]

@coltontaylor

[secretlyy]

|| Lazy

[alexboisset]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“You can be a good person with a kind heart, and still say no.”

— d.k.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“It takes a strong person to remain single in a world that is accustomed to settling just to say they have something.”

— Unknown

[love-personal]

[secretlyy]

This silence is excruciatingly loud.

[secretlyy]

Life is beautiful, and doesn’t have to be more complicated than it already seems. In truth, it’s really simple. What’s most important is to be a good person, and love along the way. What does it mean to be a good person? I’ll leave that up to you. But for me, the theme of my life lately has been to learn to love myself. You can do all the right things, be there for all those in need, love the ones around you dearly.. but what does all of this really mean if you are pouring from an empty cup?

Until recently, I was living my life according to everyone else’s terms. By choice. Conforming to those around me, and because of that, I lost what it really meant to love who I am. I’m getting there. It’s a process.

What makes this journey easier is the people that God has strategically placed in my path along the way. I am so undeservingly loved by the people that I chose and by those who choose me every day. How lucky am I?! I can’t imagine going through the motions of my life without these people along side me, cheering me on, slapping my wrist when I mess up, crying with me, laughing at the mistakes, and loving with a selfless kind of spirit. When people say that you are who you spend most of your time with, it’s so true. I am better because of the people surrounding me. I am better because I have a standard to uphold, and when I fail they pick me up and get me going again.

I have been blessed, and through this journey of self love and finding myself, and all those other clichés... the characters in my story will be my heroes in the end.

[secretlyy]

Love has no form. It has no sound, you can’t touch it, and it’s not in front of you waving its arms saying “here I am!!”. Love is a feeling that comes from a place that is so special, and in some cases we don’t always understand it for what it is. Love is love. In all of its forms. Since I came out 5 years ago, telling my world that I was gay, I have freely been able to be just me.

What I think that I forgot in the process is that even though I was able to love who I wanted to love, I never truly have spent time loving myself. From moving states, to making new friends, falling in and out of love a few times, and becoming the Colton that I am today, I have made so much time for loving others and for letting others love me, but in the meantime I have forgotten about myself.

I don’t have to have a label, nor do any of us, and that is something that my subconscious mind forgot for way too long. I recently discovered that I had a lot of work to do. I didn’t really know what that meant, and I know that it is still a long time coming. But for the first time I know for certain that it is time to make loving who I am right now a priority of mine. I am proud of who I am, excited for who I am going to be, and happy with where the journey is taking me.

I have been blessed with this beautiful world of mine, and right now is the time to embrace it all with every bit of energy that I have.

[secretlyy]

So I’ll lay in this bed and I’ll think of you. I’ll let myself sink into it as if I were sinking into your arms. I’ll close my eyes and pretend that in the morning when I wake up, I won’t have to get up without you.

[scandiumsky]

What’s your motivation to workout?

To look good naked!

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“But I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.”

— Olivia Wilde

[aestheticmf]

[nakedly]

You are drowning yourself by overthinking everything. The next time you find yourself overthinking or beating yourself over something, picture something simple and put no thought into it. Look at the trees moving in the wind or take a moment to look at how beautiful this world is. This world is too beautiful for you to waste your time in unecessary thoughts that are just drowning you.