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— ❛❛ ... ❜❜

Silently staring out into the open expanse of the empty storeroom Shuu had chosen to isolate himself within, he couldn’t help but feel as though something were off. Was it the temperature? Was it the fact that he had decided upon a storeroom instead of the confines of his music room this time? Or... irritation washed over him suddenly at his realization, and in an attempt to ignore it entirely, he decidedly shut his eyes.

...

Ignoring it didn’t work, nor did it appear to get the hint across. How frustrating.

— ❛❛ If you’re just going to linger around and be a nuisance you might as well make yourself known. ❜❜

He could only hope he wasn’t making a fool out of himself by assuming someone truly was lurking about to cause this feeling. It wasn’t often that he felt paranoid by the intrusion of another’s presence.

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Too Open:

— ❝ Oh please don’t Sakamaki-san! I’d hate to be bleating all over this nice hardwood floor… ! Thought seriously… these puns goat out of hand. ❞

Maiko giggled, her smile bright and shining. It wasn’t often that she showed such vulnerability and openness to an individual, the man has truly infected her with something to be able to get this much out of her. The girl couldn’t deny how he made her shoulders relax, pull the sighs of relief from her lips and ground her when she felt as though she was floating in zero gravity. She never thought much about it truthfully, it was easier to just think of each other as acquaintances. Deeper feelings made things complicated, and neither of them were ever really ready to confront those. 

It was just easier to keep pretending they didn’t want anything more.

Though one could easily say that it was the perfect chance for them now to fulfil any longings, right? It’d just be so simple. All she had to do was close the gap between them, all he had to do was exactly the same. Their choices were in synch as they played chicken with each other, both of them daring closer and closer to each other… taking in the other’s gaze and knowing exactly what it wanted; but neither of them would admit it. It was just so hard. How much can they walk the line before it’s too late and they’ve fallen?

Has she already lost her footing?

What was it about his eyes that mesmerized her? Surely it wasn’t just the colour, she’s seen plenty of foreign individuals thanks to her work. It’s also pretty easy to get used to someone’s eye colour, blue, green, grey… it didn’t really matter. They were just eyes! At least that’s what they were; until she met him. The gaze that seemed to know so much about her that she couldn’t even begin to read it, the gaze that seemed to hide so much but feel so open when she met it. Blue like the vast sky, blue like the the ocean under sunlight… she could only wonder if he saw anything in her.

— ❝ S-Sakamaki… Shuu-san…? ❞

Maiko wasn’t completely stupid, she knew that she was in fact the mouse within this situation. Her movements were careful and hesitant, but in a way a little daring. The way her hand twitched on the surface of the chair as if wanting to reach up and hold his hand within her own, she even dared to lift it just a hair off the wood before setting it back down. Was it selfish that she wanted something like right now? She hoped not, she was still a young lady. Maybe she gets one free pass at this sort of thing. 

Meeting his gaze only to look away she couldn’t help but soak in his gaze and feel joy bubbling quietly in her heart as she reminded herself that he was looking at her. Maybe one day she can hold that hand that so gently dragged its finger across her cheek. Though gentle, she couldn’t help but feel it burn into her skin as a memory she’d hold onto for the oncoming days.

— ❝ I-I’m happy to hear that… ❞

Clearing her throat she collected herself before moving to stand up from her seat.

— ❝ Well… I should.. get going, it’s well past the club hours… the morning isn’t coming any slower… ❞

Standing up from her seat was quickly met with a thunderous crash of lightning from the outside. The power flickered as the lightning lit up the room and shook her to the bone. Loud noises were never things she quite liked, and especially after everything… she couldn’t stand them anymore. Losing her footing she quickly sat back down again and covered her ears, looking back up at the man next to her and giggling softly… it was as fake as it could and she was about to say some more reassurances before another thunder clap boomed through the room.

— ❝ GYyaRGH!! Well it looks like I can wait a bit it seems… haha… my bicycle is made of metal after all… I wouldn’t want to get injured ahaha.  stupid lightning and stupid storms… ❞

It really was just so difficult to be her sometimes.

It was far too easy to get lost in observation when it came to the one and only Minami Maiko. 

The girl was as full of complexities as himself and the more she dared to reveal to him in moments of vulnerability the more he found himself wanting to see. It almost came as a relief to him as he admitted that much to himself. There was just something about her that drew him in—a sense of familiarity? A scent of a time that has long past? He couldn’t put a finger on it, but it made him feel... human.

( Unacceptable ) .

Watching her laugh, taking this moment to truly be herself, and seeing how her shoulders fall with such an ease as though all the weight— all the tensity—she carries upon them for as long as he had watched her has melted away through to the atmosphere of their room. This room that has watched the two of them for some time now. This room that was once his alone. This room... when had he started considering it theirs?

( Not again ) . 

He wouldn’t allow this. He couldn’t.

If he had been just a little more open to his own thoughts, to who he was, Shuu would have wished to capture this feeling forever. ( You can’t ) . As long as he could replay this moment, to keep this moment amongst them for as long as he possibly could... if this were something he could truly allow himself... ( Impossible ) .

Perhaps, he wouldn’t feel such a visceral desire to both pull her towards himself and push her away all at once.

Shuu never could be honest with himself, could he? 

Had it not been for the similarities he was sensing, to how he would not allow himself such a hurt once more, maybe he could have captured such a thing. To replay this harmony they had created together, to hear that laughter evermore whenever he so chose. To see her smile and ease her own pain.

Despite it all, he could not bring himself to look away. Searching deeper, he considered that if he shall fall, if he shall lose himself to such a moment... then would this be the one?

No.

And so he left his amusement, he left it all aside and let her go. ( her with these tempting feelings, these thoughts she provoked within him that suffocated him so. Her, with her plain features, and ever plainer roles as she still dared to call out his name no matter how it would cause him to react. Her... Minami Maiko. )

— ❛❛ Ah... So you are going. ❜❜

Withdrawing back into himself, Shuu kept his voice even as though he hadn’t just coaxed such a reaction out of her watching as she rushed to gather her belongings and leave. Pretending, as he may, that neither had felt a connection between one another and that his thoughts weren’t still lingering upon her or how he could still feel the softness of her skin against the tips of his fingers. 

He was going to fall back into his usual laziness, let the cold take hold of him and close his eyes for just awhile longer. Maybe Scriabin would do well to lull him away from his thoughts and ease whatever remnants happened to remain of their atmosphere when she was gone. Needless to say, he was not ready to leave this room, or so... that was what he thought was going to happen until the deafening crash of thunder echoed only by the sound of Maiko slipping back into her place beside him.

Blinking, he watched as she put back on her facade, but allowed such nervous giggles to leave her as though this were the funniest thing to occur. That, mayhaps, the weather did not even want her to go either. He sighed anyways, but felt the corners of his mouth twitch upwards at her platitude of reassurances.

And then that noise came out of her and expression came out of her all at once and Shuu couldn’t help but to turn the other way and laugh.

— ❛❛ That was quite the noise. And so, you resign yourself to your fate and stay with the lesser of these two evils, I presume? How courageous of you. ❜❜

Had she known the conflict he was undergoing, had she known his true nature... he wonders. Would she have understood the position she was openly throwing herself into, or would she have faced the storm regardless of any harm she may have undergone? It was hard to say as she did not know these things, nor did she know of how such vulnerabilities presented to him consistently one after the other caused such a thirst to fester within. 

There was an irony behind him being the ‘lesser’ of any modern-day evil.

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📇🛌🎠

🛌- Does your muse prefer to sleep under many layers of blankets or only under a few?

Either works for him, truthfully. Whether he sleeps with one, none, or many, as long as he can actually sleep he’s fine. Hell, he’ll even sleep on the floor if it comes to it. Depression works in mystical ways.

📇- Is your muse a gossiper?

Hmm, a bit. While he doesn’t enjoy to talk about himself he finds the misery  and complications of others entertaining. If you get to know him well enough he’s the type that will encourage petty conversations between the two of you should they ever come up. 

🎠- Does your muse like amusement parks/carnivals/festivals?

It depends! You’d really have to drag him out there and convince him to go or find things that he might enjoy specifically. If you can’t he might be pretty boring to spend this time with as he’s more of the type to let you run around than do much else himself. Depending on the person he’s with though he’ll act a multitude of different ways while there, so it’s hard to say whether or not he’ll even enjoy himself.

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🎟 🔖 🎐

🎟- Do they like “so bad it’s good” movies?

Yes, he does. Shuu’s the laidback type that enjoys sitcoms, so he absolutely enjoys terrible movies too. He’s the sort to also like certain documentaries as well, but B-rated Horror is always something to get a good laugh at.

🔖- Is your muse a daydreamer? What do they tend to think about? Have they ever caught themselves while lost in thought?

Definitely. Shuu is always lost within thought, sleeping, or daydreaming his entire life away. He actually tries not to think as his mind will linger on thoughts and feelings he’d like not to face, but he certainly gets caught up within his mind very frequently regardless. 

Whether it’s about his past, how he’s feeling, or anything that might’ve shown up to bother him that day. His thoughts are always on a different variety of things like you and I.

🎐- Does your muse like to collect/hoard anything?

He’s not the type to have much materialistic attachment to things beyond his very, very personal belongings such as his MP3 or phone. Just basic necessities to him like that, so maybe he only hoards music? Dunno.

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“HEY SHUU DO YOU WANNA PLAY SMASH WITH ME???” Ayato quickly typed on his phone. He recently got Super Smash Bros for his ds and really wanted to play with one of his brothers. Shuu was the first person to come to mind. Laito and Kanato were both probably off doing something else. Shuu usually doesn’t do anything from what Ayato noticed, so this would be the perfect thing to bond over.

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Despicable Me:

“Wh-! How dare you! Your’s truly really is kind!” Ayato exclaimed. He was not having this teasing game. Not today, Satan. Not today. As soon as Shuu picked his character, the game started.

“Okay, so. You click uh….A? to throw punches. B is for like, special moves and uh…I forgot the rest.” Ayato then proceeded to click the A button and threw an electric attack at Kirby. 

“You’re on your own, bro.” 

Rolling his eyes at Ayato’s false claim, Shuu listened in on his explanation up until the point where he ‘seemingly’ forgot the rest of the instructions. 

— ❛❛ You... ❜❜

He stated, trailing off as he watched Kirby get hit thanks to his poor dodging skills. Learning he’d have to do this the hard way as he typically had to do with the dog leaving him to fend for himself, Shuu did the only thing he could think of doing after realizing Kirby could fly: Moving him to the highest area of the map, landing, and then flying again. A coward’s tactic, sure, but strategy is strategy.

— ❛❛ Again you have forsaken me. Again your crimes grow, Ayato. ‘Ayato Wins’ returns as the menace rears his head and proves his own worth. ❜❜

Turning his head he squinted his eyes at the younger boy next to him with a judging gaze, losing himself to his own entertaining antics he called upon as much disgust within him as he could for his next statement.

— ❛❛ Scum. ❜❜

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Unusual questions for your muse

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rp-meme-glaceon :

🛌- Does your muse prefer to sleep under many layers of blankets or only under a few? 🎀- Does your muse like to accessorize? What are their favorite pieces of accessories? 🎐- Does your muse like to collect/hoard anything? 🛋- Does your muse like to have company over? 📱- Is your muse the “oversharing” type? 🐰- Does your muse prefer soft, plush textures or smooth and glossy textures? 💎- Is your muse drawn to things that sparkle? 🔖- Is your muse a daydreamer? What do they tend to think about? Have they ever caught themselves while lost in thought? 📰- Does your muse like to read the news? 📇- Is your muse a gossiper? 🕹- What does your muse do to occupy themselves when bored? 🏚- Does your muse like to explore dangerous places? 🌋- Has your muse done something stupid and not regret it? ⛪️- Does your muse enjoy attending churches they don’t belong to? 🛣- Is your muse considered a wanderer? 🐺- Would your muse consider themselves a lone wolf or a social butterfly? 🤝- Does your muse forgive others easily? 🖖- What “Fandoms” would your muse belong to? 🎖- Does your muse enjoy praise? 🎟- Do they like “so bad it’s good” movies? 🎠- Does your muse like amusement parks/carnivals/festivals? 🏝- Could your muse survive on an uninhabited island all by themselves?

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Silly silly Maiko‌:

— ❝ Ehhhh a family feud? Sakamaki-san you say this so casually as though it’s a normal family practice… ❞

Chicken feet.. family feud… fried chicken. Oh man watching some sort of gameshow while eating fried chicken would be so good, when was that last time she had one of those days where she could just lounge around with her greasy food and her laptop playing some laugh-track, gag sound effects filled program. Too long. Maybe skipping the festival to just stay home like that would do her some good… but her perfect attendance record isn’t something she’s very willing to give up… but hey, if you suddenly start projectile vomiting… what can you do!

She sank her face deeper into the table, what’s gotten into her? Did the man infect her or something? Skipping class to laze around? That’s not Minami Maiko, that sounds like Sakamaki Shuu. Disgusting.

Hearing the other’s laughter and reply got another wave of muffled laughter out of her. Maybe it’s a good thing that these brothers seem to detest each other so much. There wouldn’t be any repercussion to her spilling all her woes about them to the man beside her, she could just go off on her own little tangent for every petty little thing she didn’t like about them. The fedora was the beginning, the teddy bear wielding one was the future. Life was just so full of wonderful things sometimes.

— ❝ I’m sure it will, I’ll be nice enough to do it by a nice salt covered one. He can get that mineral then. Though… if he heard any of this I’m sure he’d ask me if I goat any last words.– I’ll walk myself out thank you very much. ❞

Oh Maiko, that one was terrible.

To think he hadn’t backed out of his agreement even after that horrible pun was incredible, but she was overjoyed so what did it really matter? Her little high from relief was quick to die out though with her realization of personal bubbles popping, and then remembering what kind of devil this man was. She really let her guard down on this one.

It was strange how quickly her heartbeat changed its rhythm in response to the man in front of her, how the temperature of his fingers on her chin just felt so cold as if they were just forcing her to pay attention to him. Did he always use such a low voice or was it just her imagination? Though there was a lot that she was confused about in the moment; were his eyes always that pretty blue? Did he always have this comforting smell to him, or did she just get so familiar with it that she just couldn’t help but feel relief from it?

Why did this feel right to her?

Maiko took in a breath as she felt her face heat up, a soft pink colour taking hold on her cheeks as she breathed out softly as if trying to collect her thoughts enough to speak. She didn’t always feel this way, has she gotten enough sleep recently? Is she on edge? Maiko didn’t know, but the gap between the two of them just didn’t seem right to her… though she’d never admit it.

— ❝ I… I’m sorry I just, I got so overjoyed with your agreement that I completely overstepped my boundaries. I’m sorry, Sakamaki-san. ❞

As if having summoned just a bit of her bravery she tilted her head away a bit, moving away from the other’s hand.

— ❛❛ Family feud, huh... ❜❜

Certain that Maiko held good intentions, he let the topic drop entirely. As great as gameshows and the like were which he’s certain she was trying to get at, he couldn’t help but feel stung anyways. She certainly had no idea what sort of truth rang clear in her sentence, did she? Talk about stepping on a landmine.

Not that he’d let it show.

Brushing off how he truly felt Shuu easily sunk back into Maiko’s welcoming charm. He found that he really didn’t mind her presence alongside his anymore. That should unnerve him, or even cause him to lash out, and while he had felt those begin to bubble up alongside the other feelings he had just thrown aside he eased more into the atmosphere they had created together. Hearing her muffled laughter reverberate off of the wood, he observed how easily her body shook with the motion. 

Perhaps, they were both more comfortable with one another than either of them thought?

While Shuu considered consulting his best friend, the window, with that thought fresh in his mind, it was almost immediately put to rest by the next few words that came out of her mouth. Maiko was clearly having pun. Egads... that was just as bad.

— ❛❛ Christ... ❜❜  

With a shake of his head, Shuu berated his own internal joke, but let a wry smile show nonetheless. She was getting to him too much. 

— ❛❛ That was downright criminal. Should I yell at you to get off stage now? Maybe we should call him in here so you could finally pay for your crimes, or... would you rather become another mysterious, goat story for the sake of our school? ❜❜

It was funny, truly. How easy it was to play off of what she said,  and to completely go along with her own banter. It felt natural, and yet... He wouldn’t allow himself to fall into it any longer.

Pushing closer, Shuu made no room for escape as he stepped foot across her own personal boundaries as she had just done to him moments ago albeit accidentally (though that made no difference to him). Quietly, he began to take in her features as his eyes found their way to her lips. How easily she had quieted for him when mere moments ago she was full of such boisterous emotion. Had things lead up to this differently, he might’ve considered swiping his thumb across these pretty, pink lips, but alas. Another time then.

Moving on, his eyes trailed across her cheeks, taking note of how flushed they were and how heated her skin felt against his own. 

And then he found her eyes.

Certainly, he could’ve drank in this sight just a little longer, watch her long lashes flutter against her reddened cheeks, but he supposes it’s all something he’ll just muse over later. Letting her pull away, Shuu smiled ever so playfully as he dragged his fingers lightly across her cheek while letting go entirely.

— ❛❛ Apology accepted. ❜❜

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M‌aiko-Is-Teased, The Sequel:

— ❝ Chicken head…. I’d prefer the feet… ha ha.. ❞

Maiko giggled, laughing at her own joke as though it was a stroke of genius. Her shoulders shook softly as the wood underneath her muffled her laughter, the ridiculous nature of this whole situation was just making her head spin plus she felt her hunger biting at her stomach. Fried chicken feet sounded good right about now.

— ❝ Ne ne… Sakamaki-san, that’s a little harsh to say towards your own brother don’t you think? But… yeah he’s a total jerk… You know he said something like… ‘Oya, you sound just like a bleating goat! Such an unrefined voice’ and I almost slapped him. ❞

For all her talk of respect she was very quick to spill her woes about the hat-wearing Sakamaki brother. Then again, who can blame her? Getting called a goat everytime you pass by an individual in the hallway wasn’t exactly all that fun. Maybe she’ll actually slap him next time, that should teach him a lesson (though unknowingly to her, that might just result in her untimely death).

Just as she was about to let out yet another dejected groan the devil next to her decided on sparing her. Maybe she was too excited by the results of this but her head shot up from the desk at a speed that sent her flying slightly back in her seat.

— ❝ R-really? You’ll take it? Sakamaki-san? ❞

Without even thinking much of it, she leaned over to the man and got maybe a bit too close for comfort. Her gaze bright and her toothy and playful, spilling out her gratitude she went on to tell him how much humiliation he spared her and that she owes him her life and that he can count on her… or something.

The girl was about to explode, okay?

— ❝ Oh, thank you so so much. I know I keep saying this but thank you, oh thank god– Oh god, oh sorry, I’m… ❞

There’s the lean out, she just realized his face seemed a little closer than before.

— ❛❛ The... feet. ❜❜

Shuu hoped he sounded as exasperated as he felt in just two mere words. A food joke at this hour... does this girl really know what she’s saying? Shaking his head he carried on in watching her antics and listening to her woes of his one and only fedora-doning brother. The school uniform here was truly too freeing for their family. It both held its own pros and cons. Pros, he gets to lay back in what he likes. Cons, his brothers walk around looking like that. A little more and he might just feel embarrassed for them.

— ❛❛ I’m sure another one of them’s said worse. ❜❜

Shuu suddenly let out an abrupt laugh at her proclamation of how she had been close to slapping him. He just couldn’t help it. The imagery of a small, petite girl like Maiko standing on the tips of her toes just to slap Laito across the face was too good. Would she stand on a box or a classroom chair just to reach him? Too good. 

Attempting to quiet himself, Shuu moved his hand to cover his mouth once again, but it simply left him chuckling into the palm of his hand instead. Carrying on with a voice full of amusement, he tried hard to fight away the smile that was beginning to tug at the corners of his mouth.

— ❛❛ I’d have loved to see that one had you decided to go through with it. Make sure to call me if you actually slap him one of these days, I’ll film it. Oh, oh- add on a little quip of your own too like, ‘who’s the goat now?’ or something. That’ll drive him up a wall. ❜❜

Or, should he say... he’ll climb up that wall? Oh, that was a terrible thought. Add that one in the pile with chicken feet. He’s definitely having way too much fun with this despite the fact that Maiko was still wallowing into the fine wooden table. Maybe her face will leave a permanent mark in it if she stays that way long enough?

Though, of course, his joking demeanor died quickly enough as Shuu quietly collected himself and returned to his usual calm. It was way too easy to get caught up in the moment once he got himself going, or... that was what he was going to think as he settled himself into gazing at her once more, but it seemed his agreement was met with even more excitement than he expected. 

Shuu blinked as that was pretty much all he could do as Maiko flung herself towards him, effectively popping his personal bubble as she portrayed her thanks in such an extravagant manner that he couldn’t help but glance down at the rest of her and then back up. Realizing her mistaken move made in excitement, he continued to watch as she began to back out and away from him, but it seemed Shuu had other plans in mind.

Leaning forward as she backed away he gently took up her chin in hand, leaning ever further to examine her up close with a smirk worming its way onto his face as he kept his voice low.

— ❛❛ Ah? Sorry? Who goes straight into apologizing after thanking someone so profusely, Miss Rep? Where did that excitement of yours go? ❜❜

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“HEY SHUU DO YOU WANNA PLAY SMASH WITH ME???” Ayato quickly typed on his phone. He recently got Super Smash Bros for his ds and really wanted to play with one of his brothers. Shuu was the first person to come to mind. Laito and Kanato were both probably off doing something else. Shuu usually doesn’t do anything from what Ayato noticed, so this would be the perfect thing to bond over.

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Criminal Scum:

“What? No!” Ayato gasped. How could his own brother even accuse him of something like that? It’s not like he’s ever done that before. Nah, he totally has. But this time was different. 

“I really am just gonna show you the controls!” You can practically see the dog ears on him droop. After Shuu was connected and in game, Ayato selected Pikachu and waited for his brother. 

“And I’m no where near a criminal! I’m always this kind…” He frowned.

Grk. The ears-drooping sad dog look... does Ayato know it has an effect on him? He’s certain he doesn’t, but with how much he’s been sensing the kicked dog vibe wafting off of him lately he’s beginning to question himself. Maybe he does know. Shuu waved him off tiredly regardless, following along his motions and picking the round pink blob that is Kirby.

— ❛❛ Alright, alright... I get it. ❜❜  

Though, to be fair, he couldn’t keep the teasing out of his voice with this next bit.

— ❛❛ Always? This Ayato-sama? I think the term criminal fits you quite well. ❜❜  

It was just too easy to pick on Ayato.