The maid did not even hesitate to place her head on her friend’s shoulder, her mind is clouded and she cannot think properly. Her thoughts are too clouded by overwhelming emotions to the point where she no longer wishes to think nor to feel. Just to forget that hole that has been carved into her heart, into her very being, but also her future. A hole that cannot ever be fixed again. She will have to live with that empty space but she does not feel like she is ready to do so.
The weak ‘mhm’ escapes her lips upon “ She did ” she tries to smile, but it is weak and forced. “ I-It’s really beautiful isn’t it...? ” Felicia tries to answer however the stuttering gives her away as she is on the brink of breaking down again. The maid has tried to avoid speaking with anyone as much as possible knowing that she would break down again, her voice has been shaking ever since she had to watch in terror how her sister burned herself to death and she was unable to put it to a stop. Once again the maid was unable to complete a task. ( What are you even good for Felicia ? You couldn’t even prevent your own sister’s death. It is all your fault ) Depressing thoughts would constantly plague her mind and it was driving her sick because she knew it was the truth. It was her fault Flora killed herself.
Her lips part once more as she trembles, her voice shaking, “ She should have been here to see this with me.” Felicia is certain she would have loved this few, it was so full of hope before Felicia’s powers went on a rampage due to the sorrow buried inside her heart. “ I-I’m sure she would have loved it ” she still manages to say but she is not able to endure much longer, “ why? ” her voice finally cracked, “ Why did she do that? Why did she need to kill herself? Why ” tears start running down her face again, rolling past her cheeks “ It’s so unfair! ” by now the maid finds her forehead pressed against the other’s shoulder, one hand on clenched while the other finds itself in the fabric of Kamui’s cape. “ I want her back! I want my sister back...! ” she almost chokes in her own tears “ Why did she leave me?! ”
Without her sister at her side she was nothing, nor will she ever be. They’re one and the same, two sides of the same coin. They are twins, inseparable. It all ended too quickly.
So she cried and cried, finding comfort in her master and friend’s company, Felicia needed a good cry for she had tried to stay strong for far too long. Once her breathing finally became stable again she slowly pulled away. “ Thank you... ”
“ Sorry about your cape... ” she meekly eyes Kamui’s cape that now has now been stained by her tears. With the amount that she cried, she thought it must be soaked by now. Felicia should be taking care of Kamui not the other way around. Though she is grateful for the other’s presence more than she ever will be able to put the words. Perhaps someday she will find the word.
Finally, now that she has calmed down Felicia begins to speak what has been on her mind, plaguing it till she wished for the voices just to stop. “ Even though I’ve been by her side all the time I never noticed her sorrows. I’m her twin, but yet. I feel like I failed her ” though did she? “ Father told me there is a lot that I didn’t know, they kept secrets from me so that’s why ” she had been kept in the dark, but they should have never done so. She is strong, and talking helps greatly. They are not alone, Kamui has shown them, they’re family after all. “ I don’t regret my decision following you, I would do so again without hesitation but... I abandoned her when she needed me the most, I should have taken her with me instead maybe then... maybe then she would have still been alive ” just maybe.
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