Seihou's Inner Space

My actual journal entries, but ✨ online ✨ Had a wordpress for this, though tumblr is more aesthetic :)

[studies-in-the-art-of-deduction]

Deduction Exercise 3: "Passing by"

Objective: Deduce, or at least observe, as much as you can about strangers while having very limited time to gather information

Details: For this exercise you'll have to methodically choose your vantage point for observing. Find a place where you can sit and watch people walk by, not a park bench or a place where you can see them fade away into the distance, but something like the window of a bar or a cafe, where the stranger will pass by and you'll only have the time they take to be blocked by a wall or some other obstacle to observe. Now use this time constraint to deduce, or at least observe, as much as you can about each passerby, for bonus points bring a little notebook or paper with you, and note down how many clear deductions or observations you made in the time you had to look at them, try to make that number as high as possible.

The point of this exercise is very simple: To train your speed when it comes to reaching conclusions and making observations. The quicker you can get through the initial stages of deduction, the quicker you can get going on the deeper, more complex parts of it in the moment, and the more you can take advantage of your skills in real time

Now go have fun with it.

Happy Observing!

-DV

[incorrectbatfam]

Dick: The real reason Howl kept his castle moving was tax evasion.

Jason: This sounds like a joke but I read the book. This is the literal reason.

[writing-prompt-s]

Just when the judge was about to sentence Spider-Man to prison, J. Jonah Jameson barges into the court room, holding a couple photos and an USB drive above his head and shouted: “Your honor, I have the proof that Spider-Man is innocent!”

[gerard-lange-art-journals]

Travel journal from 1998 that I kept while enrolled in the Cortona, Italy program through the Lamar Dodd School of Art at University of Georgia along with collected ephemera and the cigar box that housed them with the clamshell book box constructed later to make Book 2 cohesive with the other journal bindings.

Gerard Lange art journals, Book 2: Italia MCMXCVIII, book box, 24.5 x 21 x 10.5 cm (9½ x 8⅜ x 41⁄8 in.); spread 35 (pp. 70–71), 16.5 x 23.5 x 5 cm (6½ x 9¼ x 2 in.), 1998.

[tokyogems]

visited the tanabata festival in asagaya, tokyo.

数年ぶりに阿佐ヶ谷の七夕祭りに行ってきた！

vlog

[230yen]

7月の特別おやつ紹介♪

[neil-gaiman]

Ok sure.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN HER FALAFEL?

Teaching her about art. And particularly graphic novels.

[ratt-teeth]

been super into crow journaling lately

[seihou-inner-space]

6.20

Woke up feeling like shit. No motivation, feeling like I won’t amount to anything. I didn’t want to get out of bed, so I spent the whole day sleeping. I think this is from Kate talking to me about not having a job, and me having a flashback the day before. If I had to put this mood into some sort of words, it’d be like… I guess the sentiment the song Wozwald portrays. Is that too wannabe edgy? Who knows, that’s just how I’ve been feeling these past few days.

Maybe doing some creative writing would help a bit. Angsty writing would be interesting I guess. I don’t know. This is just an off day for me…

[seihou-inner-space]

6.16

Today was unexpectedly eventful, but it was a nice surprise. Bubble (Miracle) hosted a party for Father’s Day, and to my surprise Mami decided we were going. That morning, I was just doing busy work with my to-do list. Been pretty productive, so it was definitely a change in pace. The problem is that I’ve been sleep deprived (that, or I really shouldn’t have had a coke >:/ ) so I started to get agitated and tired. It didn’t help that the older adults were drinking a bit, and I was progressively getting overwhelmed with too much noise (oof, Joseph and Bubble mainly, but Bubble didn’t mean to.) Speaking of, Bubble really is growing up so fast :,) It kinda hit me while I spoke and had plenty of time to get a good look at her. Kids are so great, and humans are wonderful. =)

Anyway, party was fun. We made a toast to the dads (literally only Juan and Joseph) and I think Miracle was the one who suggested we pop confetti balloons for them. It was fun! I need to suggest to Bubble about doing tea parties. I’ve always wanted to do that, and I think she’d like that. I definitely would love it too, lmao.

Another thing to mention: Kate called Mami to ask if she had any pictures of her and Jackrabbit. Unfortunately, Mami only had one, and Kate didn’t particularly like it because of how she looked (I think). Mami bluntly told her that this was her own doing because she didn’t really take pictures with him back then as a result of her grudge. I eventually tried to see if I could find any in my google drive, but I didn’t. I’ll have to hunt down all the pictures later, hopefully. Anyway, I’m tired so I’m taking a nap. May or may not write in here again later.

[seihou-inner-space]

6.14

I don’t know how, but I somehow got a nickel-sized bruise near my knee. How the hell did I get that?? I don’t bruise much too, it rarely happens. That’s super weird. At least it’s not too bad, I guess?

Also, I was supposed to go get my car back today, but I’m assuming Tia Vicky didn’t get the money from Dr. Pepper =/ This whole situation has been hella weird. I don’t really know what to think.

Anyway, I’m happy I’m doing a bit better today. The past 2 weeks I haven’t been really motivated to do anything. I’ve been more productive today. Cleared the fridge, drank coffee, fed and watered the cats. Finally swept up the room (visible parts of the floor, anyway). Helped Mami figure out bill stuff, I showered, and I’m doing laundry. Haven’t eaten yet though, which is bad. I honestly don’t feel like eating much lately, probably the depression. It’s so weird how that works. I always feel like I would always have a set number of symptoms, but then I find that yes, I DO lose my appetite, and I DO have days where I physically (+ mentally too I guess?) can’t get out of bed, whether it be from lack of motivation or lack of energy (or both!) I should probably talk about this in therapy. It’s hard to figure out how to put it into words. I’ve definitely tried to explain it to my therapist before. It hard :(

[seihou-inner-space]

5.30

This morning, I got really pissed off. I was supposed to go to a job interview, and I decided not to spend money on an Uber and called to reschedule. I was then informed that the position I was interviewing for got given to someone else. Dude, I called less than an hour before my interview time. Thank fucking god I didn’t spend money on an Uber. I think I might have to start calling these places ahead of time, just to make sure they haven’t hired anyone else. I hate it here. >:|

So I’ve been listening to a Miku lofi playlist, which is now leading me back into the vocaloid rabbit hole. It’s been a long time since I’ve done more than just skimming through a song I heard in passing. Wish I could talk to Uncle about this. Sad. But anyway.

I’ve noticed that I gravitate towards more screamy music or ones that are more rock-based I guess? It makes sense though, given that really screamy music has been my thing lately. Also makes sense why I also really enjoy the darker themed songs. Super cool though, I wish I could talk to friends about it. :(

[seihou-inner-space]

May 28, 2024

I woke up this morning with one of the worst headaches. It turned out to be really bad allergies. I had to take acetaminophen and allergy meds in order to feel normal again. Thank goodness for modern medicine. I literally felt nauseated during the commute to downtown. Speaking of, the commute got a bit weird once we were in downtown. The storm last week was definitely a lot more damaging than I originally thought.

Anyway. I don't want to go home. I just want to stay away for a while. Have more time to myself so I can feel better. Bleh. More reason to work on going to school/getting a job. I'm working on both, but damn is it difficult to do both. I'll figure it out somehow. I'll figure it out... eventually. I need to make like some sort of vision board or something. Just to give me more motivation. I need a lot of that, for sure. Spoke a lot about reasons to be motivated in therapy. Might help.

There's lots of things. Like wanting to travel more, wanting to visit Zoe in Korea. Going to Mexico, going to school, becoming more independent. Having a motorcycle, finally getting my own car that's MINE. Moving out, having my own place. All by myself. Helping Mami with bills, like a good child.

[2ds-pepperminttea]

Angst? Alright. How about... how do the band members deal with anxiety? What scares them to the point of panic, and what does it take to calm them down? Do the other members or an s/o ever have to step in?

You did not hesitate, damn. I like that, I like that. 👀

Tw // anxiety, panic attacks

2D:

Stuart meditates. At first, meditating didn't work but since he didn't give up, it became a good way to be more at synchrony with himself as well as keeping himself calm.

A lot of things cause him anxiety. Especially when it comes to releasing albums.

He is terrified of failing because he loves what he does and wishes for others to love his work just as much as he does.

It's not surprising to find him having panic attacks the day they release new albums.

Usually you, Noodle and Russ help out. You attempt a grounding exercise, a breathing exercise and talking about things that he likes.

‘How about we watch a zombie movie later? It's your turn to choose.’

It often works, other times you just have to be there for him and wait for the wave of panic to wash away.

Murdoc:

He tries to ignore it. Bury down that feeling along with other negative emotions ( or ones he considers bad ).

One would believe nothing scares him, yet that's wrong. Very wrong.

When things become overwhelming and the bottled up feelings find their way up, that's when Murdoc ends up panicking.

He doesn't know what to do with those emotions.

He tries to wait for the panic to go away and then smokes a cigarette to calm down.

He also makes sure he's not around the other members when it happens. He does not want to feel like a burden.

Plus, he doesn't want people to pity him or change their view about him.

Noodle:

She distracts herself, either by playing the guitar, gaming or even singing.

If it's before a concert she would focus on making sure she was prepared.

Having a plan makes it easier to calm herself down.

Something that would bring her to the point of panicking would be her nightmares.

What happened in El Mañana and Plastic Beach did leave a couple scars.

Russel usually shows up to try and help her.

He reminds her that she is safe, she's no longer alone and has him by her side, as well as the rest of the band.

Russel:

He likes to get busy. Do something that will make him feel better.

Clean his room, work on his chili recipes as he likes to perfect them, play drums and so on.

Something that would make him panic is seeing either his s/o and band members getting injured.

Not just any kind of injured, something serious that could potentially become a threat to their lives.

He has lot so much already, he does not want to lose any more people.

You or the other band members try to reassure him that everything will be okay.

However, he never truly calms down until there are guarantees that they're safe.

[settingplasticsuns]

Gorillaz headcanons

Some Gorillaz headcanons that i spend too much time thinking about

When 2D started seeing a therapist after phase 3, Russel bought him a calendar and a red marker to make sure he wouldnt forget his appointments. Sometimes he even calls an uber without telling him because he knows that he is very forgetful and usually arrives late everywhere.

Noodle is a horrible cook, and Russ and 2D let her know every time she tries to force them to eat the new recipes she finds online. She once tried to make them eat salt and pepper cookies. They still dont know where she got the idea from.

Murdoc has never bought a gift that wasnt for himself or for Noodle. But everytime he buys something for himself he makes sure to bring something home for her, it doesnt matter how small or how big. He just leaves whatever it is on her bedroom door without even knocking. He has been doing this ever since she arrived at kong studios as an eight year old. She never says ‘thank you’.

Russel really likes going to concerts to listen to live music, but he doesnt like going alone because when people jump around and scream and push him he gets very nervous and breathless. So, he always buys Noodle a ticket too. She never says no, and talks and dances with him through the entire thing. Once, she got into a fight with a girl that laughed at them for their clothes and punched her so hard a tooth fell out. They keep it as a memory.

2D is very bad at rembering things, but he never forgets Murdocs and Russels favorite ice cream flavors. (Noodle changes it every week so he doesnt bother.) So when he is mad and wants to let them know, he buys them the wrong flavors and waits until the ice cream melts to share.

Noodle still keeps a diary 2D bought her for her eleventh birthday. She uses it to write all the things she feels deeply but cant talk about with anyone. She writes about how angry she is at Murdoc for almost killing her, and how she hates that she feels sorry for him for how bad her “death” messed him up. She writes how sad she feels for the life Russel is forced to have because of the demons that hunt him and his strong need to be in the band to protect her after plastic beach, even if he doesnt say anything about it. She hates herself for never being able to tell him to let them go, for being selfish enough to keep him tied to them so she can feel safe. Writes about how she can never understand what goes on in 2Ds mind, what makes him keep standing Murdocs abuse, even if it isnt as physical as it used to be. She cries everytime he comes home lost in his own thoughts after his therapy sessions and locks himself in the bathroom because they wont allow him to have a door in his room. She always rips the pages off and throws them in the trash.

[inthezoyne]

got any headcanons? do tell

For Gorillaz or for something else? my head is kinda empty right now I’m gonna start with basic ones I tend to include.

- Noodle is something of an occultist not a Satanist like Murdoc and not possessed like Russ.

I like to think Out Of Body is her holding a sermon of some kind. I don’t think she’s very religious as she is spiritual.

- The band 100% has movie nights. Russ suggests documentaries or a think piece, 2-D suggests zombie movies, Noodle is fine with Russ’ choices or an animated film, Murdoc is not allowed to talk during movie night.

- Murdoc is actually really well suited to the pharmaceutical and forensics sciences

(I remember he said if he had to be a doctor he’d be a forsenic doctor in an interview) what he does with those skills is probably what you’d expect.

- 2-D had a knife collection but had them taken away when he was shipped to Plastic Beach. Murdoc sold them on eBay.

Ace gets 2-D back into the knife collecting and Russ has to put a stop to 2-D trying out a throwing knife “in all fun” at Ace.

- if left alone, Russ and 2-D could enter a philosophical conversation that no one could understand besides the two of them.

- Noodle and Paula are mutuals on instagram but they don’t have any context on who the other is. They just share science fun facts and like each other’s posts.

- The only band member besides Russ who can cook is Noodle. Murdoc is either too drunk or tired to cook and 2-D mixes up the measurements.

This excludes Ace who can actually cook and somehow is a somewhat functional adult.

[smelly-cassettes]

plastic beach headcanons in general? like, phase 3 headcanons?

Just a little disclaimer – I might get confused on what’s actually canon and what’s fanon so I’m sorry if somethings actually canon in this list. Either I didn’t know it was canon or the line was just blurred for me on what I remember from where

The reason it took so long to make the album is because both 2D and Murdoc were torn over the loss of Noodle

Yeah Russ and Noodle were both gone but Gorillaz always has a way of separating and coming back. At this point they thought Noodle was dead and neither of them knew how to deal with it. 

Of course when Noods and Russ came back towards the end of the album they speed recorded the rest and got out of Plastic Beach as soon as possible

The amount of medical tests that 2D, Russ, and Noodle got done for radioactive poisoning and other reasons after they got out of Plastic Beach is kind of insane

Of course Murdoc didn’t get tested because he’s a nasty boy but the rest basically detoxed their whole bodies 

Also 2D had to forget all the feelings of eating jellyfish and whale to survive because he’s a vegetarian. He had to like, reset his mind and his energy and remember that he was doing it to survive.

Russ was big glad when he found Noodle not only for the sake of not being lonely but because he cares most for her out of all the band members and he was happy to see her safe

It’s probably 2D’s favorite album lyrically but he doesn’t like to think about it too much because he doesn’t like remembering all the cruel things about Plastic Beach

Those were all on the top of my mind but lmk if you want more