selenophhile

[loveridden1999]

obsessed w this video. my brain 24/7

[cokelipgloss]

[userfish]

[loveridden1999]

doing things at the right age is literally a made up concept. you can start/pursue anything at any age. btw.

[loveridden1999]

remember remember

[selenophhile]

I lied I love the struggle

[bloomzone]

Get your life together, even if it’s already 1 PM. Take a shower, care for your body, put on a face mask. Clean your room and organize that shelf. Make yourself some hot chocolate, grab that dusty notebook, and start small: divide it into three sections : one for daily planning, one for tracking habits (choose 2 for your first week and color-code them: green if done, red if skipped), and the last section for journaling your thoughts. Step outside, sit in a café, go through your phone, delete everything unnecessary and create a fresh email to follow inspiring people who actually lift you up. Do a little shopping, come back home, cook something for yourself, watch a movie, stretch and let tomorrow meet a better version of you .

@bloomzone

[herfleur]

girl, your competition isn’t other people

it’s your bad habits ⋆ your distractions ⋆ your insecurities ⋆ your lack of discipline ⋆ your procrastination ⋆ your ego ⋆ your fears ⋆ your broken routine ⋆ your addictions ⋆ the person you don't want to be anymore

[selenophhile]

Okay pondered and self reflected on this ( ie tortured and abused my self awareness) only to realize that that’s the whole point and finding it difficult is the whole point cuz that’s the only way you’re truly progressing and hardship after hardship you will get there and you will evolve

[selenophhile]

Trying to be functional and productive with an extremely sensitive nervous system and a mindset that gets easily challenged is so not fucking cool like wth

I know I should push through it but I’m exhausted

[bloomzone]

The work starts now, in the silence, where no one sees the effort but where all the results are made. I don’t need anyone to cheer me on because I know what I’m capable of. I am my own biggest motivator, and I won’t stop. There will be days when it feels like I can’t go on, but I will keep pushing forward because that’s where growth happens in the struggle, in the grind, when no one is watching. I don’t need recognition, I don’t need applause. All I need is to keep my head down and focus on what’s in front of me. The path won’t be easy, but I don’t expect it to be. I’ll face the discomfort, the exhaustion, the doubt, and still keep moving. I’ll work in the quiet, trusting that my efforts are building something solid, something that will eventually show. It’s not about proving anything to anyone else but it’s about knowing I did my best, even when no one was there to witness it. So I’ll keep working, keep pushing, keep moving forward, because I know what I’m building.

[firmament-of-slumber]

Just study. Study until you can no longer physically do so. Breaks are only allowed if you feel half dead or you are already done. become obsessed with it. The act of learning, of studying, of rotting away through the pursuit of knowledge. It'll take you far, my love, it will take you there

[billliebyob]

Do it.

[moonstoast]

We are a way for the cosmos to know itself

[therealrichardpapen]

(Account formerly known as deadpoet-of-asgard)

The secret history is a comedy and here are the facts:

Henry is trying to understand math only to poison someone.

Henry killed a dog only to prove a point to himself that he can kill someone with poison.

Henry was so ready to poison the entire Greek class only to get rid of a bitch. Bruh, have you heard of using a knife and digging a hole??

When Henry called Francis and Richard picked up, and then Francis whispered: tell him I'm not here and then Henry said: I know he is there. HENRY AND FRANCIS SOUNDED LIKE A 20+ YEARS OLD MARRIED COUPLE!!!! Donna Tartt, you wrote a comedy; not a drama!!!

Francis coming out of a bush saying: Henry, can I smoke now? Waiting for murder is so boring, I need nicotine.

The fact that they tried to flee the country in the middle of the semester was insane!! What were you thinking????

They wore bedsheets to summon a god in the woods!!!!!! I don't blame them, I would try it too.

Bunny never questioned why his friends were covered in blood. We all have our dumb moments, BUT IF MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND CAME INTO MY HOUSE WITH A BLOODY SHEET ON, I WOULD FREAK OUT

Henry, mastermind, killer, prodigy, speaker of 8282838 languages (dead and alive) wrote in his damn diary how he killed someone??? I gotta give it to him, at least he used another language. But still dumb asf.

Again, Henry, a genius, used the excuse of "picking up ferns" from the woods with his entire greek class, completely ignoring Richard Papen, the only person who kept his murders secret!!!!

And bunny, what a dumb mf. He truly believed he would live after threatening the fantastic four??

Your honour, the secret history is full of clowns and I love every single one of them! Case closed.

[caffeineaddictedsociety]

Tag yourself as ‘The Secret History’ characters

Richard Papen: ‘Campus’ by Vampire Weekend

Oversized tweed jackets patched with lies and secrets, shoving the past into too small holes, black bitter coffee uncomfortably paired with whiskey, vivid dreams where even artificial reality feels like barbed wire, grabbing hold of dirt to try and climb out of a hole you dug yourself into

Henry Winter: ‘Glory’ by Friday Pilots Club

A brain made of polished clogs and wheels cursed into only being seen in black and white, deep crimson staining the hard wood floor, standing up and never knowing when it is time to sit back down, moving your friends like pawns on a chess board

Bunny Corcoran: ‘The Funeral’ by Band Of Horses

Unforgiving remarks and catastrophic comments, porcelain skin with a rotted soul, piecing together the truth to create the gruesome picture, cracked loyalty and blurred lines, having a mind full of all the wrong things, expensive clothing and extravagant taste

Francis Abernathy: ‘Heavenly War’ by Sea Girls

Getting lost in the forest of your own mind, cashmere jumpers painted in cigarette smoke, a true bystander in battle, a sensitive heart hidden behind the bars of a jail, watching the past through rose tinted glasses that cannot be removed, walking through the corridors like a ghost

Charles Macaulay: ‘Achilles Come Down’ by Gang of Youths

Attempting to drown all that is violent and unwelcomed and instead poisoning yourself, a halo that appears more cracked the closer you look at it, lava bubbling gently below the surface waiting to volcano, uncountable glasses of whiskey and unsurfaced tears

Camilla Macaulay: ‘Angel’ by FINNEAS

A wilted rose with the sharpest thorns, being placed under the microscope of lust, rejecting gender and being the only female in a herd of animals, beauty like anything natural, perfectly imperfect, unclear blood stained hands, being placed on a cracked pedestal

[carrslullabie]

i often feel like one of the many reasons why we are so passionate about the whole dark academia thing is because it gives us the opportunity to live in a fantasy where our passion, whether that’s literature, art, theater, science, feels valid.

we live in a world where we are constantly stimulated, constantly finding new things, constantly pressured into liking more and more stuff because the world keeps going on at such a fast pace and it never stops and it’s so hard to keep up with it and it makes your breath short your mind tired your fears bigger and.

it almost feels like we are trapped because even though we would like to slow down for a bit, we know the world won’t stop with us, for us.

if we turn our phones off it’s unnatural and people start worrying, if we don’t check our social medias during our study breaks we get anxious – no matter how much we want it not to be that way, no matter how badly we would like to dedicate ourselves completely to these passions of ours, we can’t do it entirely, slaves of times so flourishing but so scary. the world has a crushing weight and most of the times we soccombe to it.

therefore, thinking about the dark academia concept is a way of finding comfort not only in our own minds but even on this tiny corner of the internet.

in a certain way the concept softens me, although it can often be extreme.

gathering in the common room at three in the morning, a circle of eager friends with the same thirst for knowledge; the sound of a pen scribbling ideas on a thin sheet of paper; round glasses slipping down the tip of our noses always hidden by the pages of novels and poetry collections; dim lights caressing our backs curved from studying for so many hours those same subjects that make our heart race increase; our stray black cats resting on our bellies as we curl up in bed, notes spread out all around us – on the floor, glued to a wall, in between the pages of big tomes; the rain gently tapping against the window of our dorm rooms as we sit with our backs against the wooden wall, completely lost in between crinkled words with no cellphone, no distraction other than the characters and philosophers speaking to us in ancient languages, voices sweet as honey; our minds getting poisoned as we start to believe in those revolutions so badly we’re willing to lose our sanity after them; having lessons with just a bunch of other people, tea burning our tongues as it runs hot down our throats; and then, when the line between reality and fiction blurs completely, we might lose ourselves – but we wouldn’t feel guilty in the comfort we find when our love for knowledge becomes so warm it eventually starts to burn our skin. God, how sweet it feels to become ashes for these passions of us.

[selenophhile]

15/4/25

I feel so guilty for not actually sticking to this. I didn't have not one productive study day but I'll try to resume the challenge from today.

Today's plan:

Biology ch2 - atleast 2 topics

Chemistry ch1- atleast 3

Physics ch1 - atleast 4

Maths - determinants ( first 2 exercises)

I'll come back the end of the day, hopefully by then I've covered atleast 3/4 tasks :)