my self hate collection

cigarette smoke & Diet Coke I am in no way promoting eating disorders. This is a personal blog only. Feel free to message me at any time about anything, my inbox is always open !! This is to follow my journey through anorexia, BMI: 17.5. I am 17, 164.5cm (5”4) // SW: 49kg , CW: 48kg , GW: 45kg, UGW: ?? If you would like to be ana buddies just dm me! Do not own any photos unless stated otherwise :))

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some of my favourites

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Rainbow thinspo 🌈 Not my photos

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Dainty thinspo Not my photos

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Double thinspo 🤫 Sorry I haven’t been active lately, I’ve recently been binging like crazy and I don’t know how to stop myself and yeah my life’s a mess cool xoxox (Not my photos)

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Red thinspo 🍒 Why can’t I look like this 😭 (Not my photos: credit goes to owners)

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being able to see your bones Bonespo (not my photos: credit goes to owners)

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Literally had the worst few days, completely binged. Hopefully now that I’m back home I can get back into my routine and lose all the weight I just put on 😌

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Legs thinspo 🤩 (Not my photos; credit to owners)

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Dark themed fishnet thinspo (Not my photos: credit goes to owners)

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Starve, starve, stave, binge That’s the way I do things. Thinner, thinner, thinner That’s why I skip dinner. Guilt, frustration and defeat The feelings I face when I eat. I just want to be pretty And to do that you have to be skinny. A poem by me 💖 (Not my photo: credit to owner)

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Day 6 of 30 with Ana: Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way? I’m in between, some weeks I’ll be healthy watching what I eat and exercising but other weeks I will fast for days at a time and then binge and do it all over again. It really just depends how I’m feeling. ( not my photo: credit to owner)

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Day 1

Breakfast:

1/2 cup of oats and almond milk -183cal

Lunch:

Nothing

Dinner:

Nothing

Snacks:

Greek yoghurt -144cal

8 Almonds -59cal

Mango sorbet (homemade) -156cal

Drinks:

Green tea - 10cal

Total:

552 cal

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Oversized thinspo 😇 (Not my photos: credit goes to owners)

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Day 5 of 30 with Ana: Do you binge? if yes, why do you think you do it? I binge a lot, I do it when I get in a depressive state. I try control it as much as I can but sometimes I can’t because I’m a massive comfort eater which is why I put on so much weight in the first place. (Not my photo: credit to owner)

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Day 4 of 30 with Ana: What was the last thing you ate? The last thing I was was an Apple 🍎 (Not my photo: credit to owner)

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About to start a fast,

Let’s see how long I will last

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Day 3 of 30 with Ana: When did you first start losing weight? I first started losing weight around this time last year but ended up in a massive binge which led to be putting all that weight plus more back on so I’ve had to restart that process now. (Not my photo: credit goes to owners)