kissing where no one can see
oh how I hope one day I'll find the key
white lies and white lines
sometimes I wonder if it's me
oh to be able to hold your hand
without looking out for signs
signs that someone will see
pretending to be your friend
I know we could be so happy
If it weren't not prying eyes
I live and die for your smoke breaks
and I don't mean to get sappy
but at least you love my size :3
i don't want to keep acting funny
so marry me and call me honey
(breaking character the real selfishdissatisfaction on tumblr here. I know the rhyme pattern is kinda fucked up but I've been wanting to get back into posting more so I try to write about things while I still feel the emotions from them cuz it's easier then ? But as such things live less in my drafts and it's less proof read. But I think its worth it for the sake of being more "rAw and real" I write to my 50 tumblr followers LOL. but thank u to anyone who reads these it makes me infinitely happy sorry if u followed for more divine machinery cyber poem posting but I'm in a complicated situationship so that's what I'm writing about lol. ps also I've been sober for a little bit now at least off opiates still doing coke and ketsmine but tbh I've never had problems with those so I'm counting it as being sober suck it. I call it being London sober. Ok enough trauma dumping and life updates I love u tumblr people. )