selfish dissatisfaction

[blinkees]

I HOPE GAME DEVELOPMENT GOES WELL!

thank you!!! it's going very well so far, I'm so happy to see the progress we've got <3 the game is called FORBODE and is based on a nightmare I had back in 2021 about a guy called Fella. here's a little sneak peek if you're interested:

(This scene is still a WIP, and an outdated one at that as we've already changed up the background and some of the sprites, but I think it should still give you a good feel!)

And here's a picture from our game developer that shows part of Fella's house!! this is also not up to date as some sprites have been changed/cut, but it's still a big improvement from the original design below. this was drawn immediately after the nightmare, so it's the very first FORBODE concept art!

I won't spam this blog too much with FORBODE stuff. I haven't really got it set up yet, but if you're interested, game dev updates will (eventually) be posted at @FellaFORBODE ! I'm the artist on the project, my fiance is handling the writing, and a very good friend of ours is doing the programming. They'll probably be running the game's other socials, but the tumblr is all me, baby! B]

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i am also a developer on this game and the programmer mentioned in this post ❤️ if u like my blog / stuff please check it out and consider wish listing it on your platform of choice when it’s up (we are doing basically all pc platforms + consoles we have playstation confirmed but we’re working hard on getting it on xbox and switch also ❤️)

and checkout @fellaforbode where my good friend will post updates ❣️

[selfishdissatisfaction]

writing poems

and drinking blood

oh I'm such a cliche

ill cry and whine

over sharp pains

I do to myself

and whatever it is

you see in me

ill make sure

to make it true

both for you

and the innocent little boy

I see in the mirror

behind my eyes

who didn't deserve any of it

and maybe I started for you

but I will finish for him

and be the person

who held him when no one else did

[alienclownprincess]

if i make you mine, would you slowly run away?

[selfishdissatisfaction]

when ur not around

the flowers don't blossom

and even though I saw some

the birds don't make a sound

but when you're there

the sky is a little more blue

and I know I haven't got a clue

but I feel okay wrapped underneath your hair

and when i see your brown orbs

I can't help but think

the birds sing your name

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each time I look at you

feels like the first

your long angelic hair

makes me cry

your eyes make me burn

deep inside

your chest soft and perfect

skin gold like ur favorite toast

your thighs like home

and I hope you hold me close

[salty-salutations]

the world is blue

[gettingghosts]

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how my brain feels

[superepicchan]

[opendirectories]

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This reminds me of those pics of the pirate bay owners lol

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kissing where no one can see

oh how I hope one day I'll find the key

white lies and white lines

sometimes I wonder if it's me

oh to be able to hold your hand

without looking out for signs

signs that someone will see

pretending to be your friend

I hope not til the end

I know we could be so happy

If it weren't not prying eyes

I live and die for your smoke breaks

and I don't mean to get sappy

but at least you love my size :3

but for fucks sakes

i don't want to keep acting funny

so marry me and call me honey

(breaking character the real selfishdissatisfaction on tumblr here. I know the rhyme pattern is kinda fucked up but I've been wanting to get back into posting more so I try to write about things while I still feel the emotions from them cuz it's easier then ? But as such things live less in my drafts and it's less proof read. But I think its worth it for the sake of being more "rAw and real" I write to my 50 tumblr followers LOL. but thank u to anyone who reads these it makes me infinitely happy sorry if u followed for more divine machinery cyber poem posting but I'm in a complicated situationship so that's what I'm writing about lol. ps also I've been sober for a little bit now at least off opiates still doing coke and ketsmine but tbh I've never had problems with those so I'm counting it as being sober suck it. I call it being London sober. Ok enough trauma dumping and life updates I love u tumblr people. )

[battylicious]

would i be hotter if i was blonde

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via

[pup-purgatory]

via

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toolbar dividers

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golden brown skin

make me want to sin

deep brown eyes on my kin

look just like heroin

but for you I'd fly

for you I would let it all go

and if you saw me in the sky

would you just go with the flow

even if my words stutter and lag

would you lay with me and get some bag :3

[jonnyconsequence]