[sellyoursoulnot]

darling, be careful about the dreams born out of desperation.

[sellyoursoulnot]

forget about a new place. or career. or people. you can choose to switch jobs and move in another continent in a flash but if contentment has not found its way to your heart yet, you'll remain restless wherever you are.

[sellyoursoulnot]

all she needs really are a picnic box, sandwiches, fresh apples, newly blossomed flowers, warm sunshine and a place where reality can't touch her.

[sellyoursoulnot]

What if it's still never it. You think and you hope that that next thing will finally save you because you're getting mad at each passing minute because heck isn't life too much of a responsibility? And everybody's getting drowned without screaming and maybe death likes the quiet—it thinks there's less guilt there. But people's heads come out of the water eventually, from time to time, most people that is, those who aren't stupid enough to let life get to them, who treats it like a gift they asked for and always wanted. But what about those who didn't? Those who soon learns how to breathe underwater and spit out bubbles like some important magical show? They fall and fall and fall but the ground is never near. I get nightmares about feet searching for something solid sometimes.

[sellyoursoulnot]

her soul is restless again and she's running out of ideas on how to comfort it.

[sellyoursoulnot]

and he said something like now isn't the right time to decide about them and she kinda agreed and they both kept silent and they both know that supposed right time will never come.

[sellyoursoulnot]

if only you loved him sooner..

[sellyoursoulnot]

no, don't do that. just like how you refused to do that certain thing a few years ago. just like how you avoided something last year. just let your pile of regrets grow.

[sellyoursoulnot]

how to teach the heart to stop hoping? how to stop it from doing things that will only hurt it in the end?

[sellyoursoulnot]

the thing is, she never looked at herself as the sum of everything she's been. she sees herself as this one person who doesn't seem to carry much past. she keeps forgetting. she keeps forgetting where she's been. maybe that's why the present does not taste as sweet as it should.

[sellyoursoulnot]

different places make us want different things. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i was in the wrong place, you see.

[sellyoursoulnot]

Date a girl who's lost and be prepared for all the misadventures to come. She's just overwhelmed, you see. The whole concept of existence baffles her. She doesn't understand how anybody should be able to pick something for the rest of their lives when there's still a lot of things they hadn't tried or known. So watch her uncover pieces of herself on all the things she touches. She might turn them into a cage though without meaning to. So be sure you remember where all the keys are located because she won't. She won't even know they exist at all.

[sellyoursoulnot]

and how many times do we find ourselves in the wrong company just because we can't stand our own?

[sellyoursoulnot]

darling, you're looking for poetry in the wrong eyes so don't be surprised if you can't find it.

[sellyoursoulnot]

every lonely girl needs a city that never shuts up.

[sellyoursoulnot]

some things you just learn from hurting.

[sellyoursoulnot]

some people just don't quite know how to exist without their pain. you need to understand this if you intend to keep her.