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Roni Horn's portrait series of Isabelle Huppert, displayed across Reykjavik's digital billboards, kiosks, and bus stops during the first three days of 𝟤𝟢𝟤𝟧

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one of my close friends just told us that she’s pregnant and i feel so weird about it. i feel weird whenever i find out anyone i love or admire is pregnant, because i have to face the fact our lives will start diverging. they will become part of this world that i can’t and won’t understand and can’t relate to. it feels so selfish but i can’t help but mourn the end of our current dynamic and the fact that things will never be the same for us.

it’s also a tricky one because she has secretly confided in me before that she doesn’t really want children. she hates noise and mess and disorder, and she doesn’t really like kids, but her husband has always been desperate to be a dad. she had a really chaotic upbringing and she has a very unstable sense of self (she’s definitely neurodivergent tbh) so i know she thinks having these traditional things will ground her and make her happy. maybe it will.

sometimes i wish i was someone who wanted the traditional marriage/kids/house set up. maybe i am a little jealous in a way because i wish i wanted anything that much. who knows honestly 🙃 i need more friends who don’t want to have kids because it sends me on a spiral!!

#i have no one to talk to about this as i am sworn to secrecy!!!