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bea. she/her. believer of milfs. 

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It's my 15 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Coming back here to commemorate this milestone!!! I WAS JUST A CHILLLDDDD!!! An evidence and timeline of my hyperfixation. 😭 Everyone I met on this hell site is still so very dear to my heart. I love them, and I hope they're all healthy, happy, and safe.

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Charlie Weber's birthday post for his baby Liza Weil

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happy deathversary, winterfino! enjoy boning in hell ❤️

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happy deathversary, bonnie and frank!

i am still shattered. the thoughts below were written the day after the finale of htgawm aired, and to be honest, nothing has changed. i miss my traumatized murderers everyday. you especially, my bonbon. i hope you're enjoying the hot showers wherever you are now.

Thinking of how Annalise survived that day and the rest of her years when her two ride-or-die for decades literally took their last breath in her arms, 20 seconds apart.

Did she refuse to let Bonnie’s body go when she’s already being taken away from her embrace? Did Tegan help her arrange their funeral? I’m sure she did. What did she make the both of them wear? Did she include butterflies to make Bonnie happy? Did her eulogy include how much she loves them and how much they loved each other? How she somehow knew they would end up together? I’m sure it was beautiful. Were they cremated and part of their ashes were put in a small urn necklace for her to wear? Or buried next to each other where she visits them when she feels lonely? How did she clean up and sort the Winterfino house? What items did she keep to remember them? Did she keep at least one cardigan of Bonnie to smell it when she misses her? She didn't want to keep any of Sam's things but she didn't love Sam the way she loved Bonnie and Frank.

Everyone's been saying how the death of these two sets Annalise free from a lot of things. How she can now enjoy a life without crime, guilt, and the constant worrying for them — but she was the one who pushed them to the edge, their overflowing love for her made them the person they've become. They've always felt like they have to pay her in whatever way because she took them in and gave them a sense of what a family should be. Sometimes she asked for it, sometimes she didn't, but she knows. She knows and she will always have a cloud over her head having the knowledge that these unhinged lovers didn't die for each other but for her.

They're codependent, the three of them, in every sense of the word. Bonnie and Frank could've ran to Oregon, Annalise gave them a chance to do it, but both of them knew they would never have peace not knowing if she's safe or not. They could never take losing her. Bonnie and Annalise almost lost Frank but they comforted and kept each other grounded. Frank and Annalise did everything just to keep Bonnie alive (how ironic is this now 😭) because at the end of the day, she's their baby. Imagine Annalise losing both of them in one go, no one prepared her for it. She imagined them being there in her funeral, not her arranging theirs.

Annalise will never not love and think of them. She would always have what ifs of what could've been if they're alive, if their kids would have green or brown eyes, if they're brunette or blonde. Bonnie and Frank's photos should've been there during her memorial, no one was ever there for her more than them.

Years later, when she closed her eyes and went, I'm sure she was comforted knowing she'll probably see them both again. The same comfort Bonnie felt when she passed in Annalise's arms, and the same comfort Frank felt when he passed in Bonnie's arms. Full circle.

Endgame in the afterlife.

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hello cutiepies! of course i’m still mourning bonnie winterbottom every forking day. thank you very much. i have tons of queud gifsets of her that may or may not be posted soon. working on everyone’s requests! if you have requests or just feelings you want to share, feel free to hit me up.

manifesting a better year for us.

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“𝙶𝚘. 𝚂𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛s𝚎𝚕𝚟𝚎𝚜.” “𝙽𝚘.” “𝙶𝚘. 𝙳𝚒𝚜𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚛.” “𝚆𝚎’𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚗𝚘, 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚝’𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚞𝚜.”

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all's well that ends well to end up with you.

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When the hell are you coming back????? Are you still alive or what??

i’m physically here but mentally i’m with bonnie ❤

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I know you need the hiatus but we need you here the winterfino tag is dry as hell please comeback

pleaasee 😂 thank you, anon! i won’t be leaving that long again. i honestly have so much stuff in my drafts that i have to post soon! hope you’ve been well! ❤

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I miss having you around and your Bonnie gifs. Recover well xxx

Heyyy, thank you very much! I MISS IT HERE! I’m kinda back and will be queuing lots of bonbon’s beautiful face! I’ve been doing great, just kinda overworked and constantly trying not to breakdown whenever I remember what happened to those two! How have you been?? How are you coping? Please hydrate ❤

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Frank “i love you and i also respect and understand Bonnalise unlike the other men in your life” Delfino

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just want to share the pain with everyone and emphasize that at the end, frank chose annalise when he decided he’s going to “make it right” for her. and bonnie chose frank when she ran towards him fully knowing that the security would backfire and might hit her. 

anyway, they’re happy in oregon now so don’t mind this. 🤡

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You’re the one who kept us together, Bonnie.

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your hiatus here is killing me! hope you're doing okay though! we need you and your winterfino content

heyy! i am doing a-okay, thank you for worrying(?). i won’t stop supplying winterfino content, don’t cha worry.

just took a much needed break from the pain that is htgawm. i worry and try to fight real life wars that our world is facing everyday. people and animals are dying in real world and remembering that my bonnie also canonicaly died sends me into an intense outrage and breakdown. so i gave myself the best birthday gift: erasing 6x14&15 from my memory and not visiting reddit and tumblr for 3 weeks! my mental health has never been better ever since i stopped visiting htgawm’s reddit, tbh. i’m feeling better, i still miss bonnie everyday of my life and i don’t know what phase of mourning this is but all i know is that it will still get better.

we still have lots of wars to win and i have lots of gifs to post! so stay safe and healthy!

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Am I the only one who finds the fact that Liza and Charlie are always standing/sitting next to each other in interviews, photos and just in general, so adorable?💓

They are literally attached at the hip since 2013 and they’re the cutest. 💕

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Tumblr needs more Liza content (and honestly Charlie too!) maybe if it wouldn't be too much to ask, can you share more of your fave videos/interviews of her? We all need to relish in how wonderful she is!

Definitely! Just a little busy right now but will make time for it anytime soon. 💕

ALSO P.S to the anons requesting for gifs!!! I see you and I want to reply to your asks with a link to the gifset already so 🥺🥰

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Happpppyyy Birthdayyyyyy !!!! You are amazing and you're winterfino gifs keep me sane so tysm :)

Thank you, darling!!! Sorry for replying late but this means a lot to me. 💕🥰 Please stay safe and healthy wherever you are.