A little odd.

Belinda | KL, MY | About | Trash I'm a bright spot in a dark room.

[semisurreptitious]

Anyone else feel like their anxiety is the only thing keeping them alive?

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Surviving for the sake of surviving

My battle with depression is fucking exhausting. And I don't know why I bother fighting it. I win some battles but can I actually win the war?

Now I'm going through the days only so I can survive them. What's the point? Am I going to be fighting for the rest of my life? Why? What good can come of it? Nothing can really make my depression go away - things can bring me happiness but it's often temporary. And all I'm doing is wearing myself thin. I take days to recharge but then they turn into nights like this one - where I feel completely deplete of a reason for staying alive. I don't know what I'm doing here. And no one understands and or can really empathise with this. It seems like everyone finds a reason to live eventually - maybe I just haven't found mine yet. But what if I never find it? I can search the moon and stars and Netflix and people and therapy and drugs and myself but I don't see hope. I see struggle, constant and unshakeable. And I'm tired of struggling. I'm so tired. The more I read about depression and mental health, the more hopeless I feel.

I just want to die. Is that so bad?

[yourgoat]

*sees a feather on the ground* *small gasp* a gift

[daniellerussells]

*slam dunks a pumpkin* fall is life

[hotboyproblems]

Pro-lifer: Would you have wanted to be aborted

Me: Yes

[pi-la]

my two moods

[honeypotgf]

[narnia]

[mjalti]

me, interacting with another 20+ year old on tumblr:

[summersweeet]

via weheartit

[itsbenedict]

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@maverick-ornithography i felt like i needed to try my hand at the most convincing sales pitch i’ve ever heard

[maverick-ornithography]

Maybe I’m alone in feeling this way but for me the real sign you’ve made it as a Writer On Tumblr is when somebody loves one of your posts enough to perform and record it. Thank you for this, it has really brightened my day :) (image source [X] , since it got lost in translation so to speak)

[cornerof5thandvermouth]

This runs through my mind so often I’m fairly certain I’m going to come out from anaesthesia muttering this

[robertdeniro]

how exactly do you get into the feet pic selling business 

[acidhues]

put your best foot forward

[gyaradont]

A good first step is selling your sole

[robertdeniro]

None of you are funny I just want foot money

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A dose of realities (TW)

I'm depressed as hell

I've been cutting and hurting

My brain tells me several times a day to kill myself

I'm ashamed of my illness

Depression is real

My emotions are volatile

I'm resigning from work

I'm broke

I'm going to the UK in a few weeks

I'm anxious about what my colleagues will think

I'm ashamed

My scars burn and I regret them, even though I know I can't stop myself

Roslan cares about me

My friends care about me

I find it hard to care right now

I'm afraid the medication isn't working

I feel alone even though I'm not

I'm trying my best (which my brain always tells me is not enough)

Seeking help is hard

I wish I was dead because suffering with BPD and depression has made life an endless torture

I will continue trying

I scare myself and hate what I'm becoming

[semisurreptitious]

When did barely functioning become so hard?

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I really don't know if I believe in love anymore

[midori-kim]

Anything from the heart.

Happy Together(1997)

[sixpenceeeaesthetic]

The Como Park Zoo and Marjorie McNeely Conservatory