it's just a weird night, but one that is worth to remember for sure. honestly it wasn't a special day? or was it special like every day, i don't know.. i had a nice day outside, first at school nailed a presentation, didn't feel like an outsider for once and then had an amazing evening with the lover. these parts, although beautiful, were sort of ordinary, but then when i came home i felt this rush in my heart, a bit of serenity in my mind, something i didn't have for some time. a calm soul for a night, not the calmest maybe but enough to soothe me and give me the time to heal my wounds. this academic term felt like a nightmare time to time, i got too overwhelmed, cried a bunch of times, not knowing what to do, feeling lost and not bright.. however, tonight i felt like something became a little better maybe it's because i remembered, this, This that i'm feeling right now is about to be over and i will not live through these again. i'm growing, just as my body and my soul, and just as time passing. my birthday is close and it's almost the time to change the age in my bio from 22 to 23. i'm grateful for this whole year, i'm grateful for the memories, for the feelings it brought. i'm grateful for the opportunities of growth it opened up, and accepting of the things it took away.