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little bits of importance

- sideblog to give The Thoughts a home

- i am an adult and will post adult content

- real name usage

- might use she/he for sem and they/he/it for lucas

- expect no consistent tagging

- blog should be fully hidden (if its not please let me know)

- don't put me on main please and thank you

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anyways im Home let me catch up on the month of ignoring tumblr today if you see me in your notifs that means i love you and your mind so dearly /parasocial <3

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I VOLUNTEER AS TRIBUTE

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i’m like if a pervert was a sweetheart

[saturnvault]

sorry same anon as before but even after getting passed the hurdle of internalised homophobia I don't think pangi would let himself enjoy it either like there's just always an undercurrent of worry !! is he doing this right, does this feel right, does he look pretty for lukey, oops hes already on the edge and they just made out...

and it eats every time

yessss. he also has such a weird relationship with letting himself have/enjoy good things. that was one of the things i had in mind when i wrote that. I remember during his daily streams how he would say he needed to 'earn' short stream days or going out with friends and things like that. or apologizing for so many things out of his control. he seems to have gotten better at the taking breaks things so like thats a development.

i think that would translate a lot to his relationship with sex and intimacy. cus even after getting past the internalized homophobia he still feels like he should not be allowed to want those things. wanting it is scary. and having someone who wants him in a sexual way feels even scarier cus what if he fucks this up? now that it involves someone else he cant just deny himself and supress everything like he usually do. it also makes him have to face why he feels such a need to deny himself in the first place even if he does want sex.

allowing himself is new territory. he does not know what happens next and how it will feel. and not knowing is scary.

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i keep thinking of this very specific scenario. pangi and lukey on their tentative first times together. that are also pangis general first times as well. pangi struggling so hard with both accepting his sexuality but also his general shame and guilt around sex.

the thing is, pangi wants to do it. he wants to have sex with lukey. his boyfriend lukey. because he has a boyfriend. he never imagined himself with a boyfriend. but them everything happened. or should he say lukey happened?

he still remembers his talks with pili from months and months ago about how he says he is straight because it's simpler like that. that he knows he feels some attraction to guys, but not enough to see himself actually acting on it. dating a man, having sex with one, all of that. How it's easier with women, his attraction more frequent as well. So even if he is not actually straight, that doesn't really matter if he is living like he is. He has had a similar talk with Zam once, maybe a year or so ago. Zam understood him. Like, if a tree falls in a forest and there's nobody around to hear or see it, did it even really fell? So he is straight. Pili said it's okay to not be ready. Pangi responded that he might never be.

But that was before lukey showed up and flipped his feelings and needs all upside down. Pili will never leave him live down how fast his actions changed once a conventionally pretty boy showed up and started hitting on him for real. But it's not like this! He genuinely meant everything he spoke to pili back them. He didn't see himself getting with a guy. Telling his mom and sister about him. But he loves lukey. He loves him so much its scary. He wants to have this. To kiss and go on stupid little dates and be his boyfriend. And have sex with him. He wants so much.

And that's why he now has this... problem. Lukey has been so patient about it, but pangi is sure he is aware of it. Of how pangi panicked the first time their kissing started to get a little more heated. How when they were both at least half hard that one time making out and, lukey went to take things further and pangi started hyperventilating. Lukey stopped the same minute, looking all scared and confused on where he fucked up. stopping advances and trying to calm his boyfriend down. because the thing is, pangi didn't say no. In fact, he said please when asked in between kisses.

And that's a whole another thing, because pangi don't answer sometimes when things get too intense in his head

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lukey and hannah telling sem variations of "you don't have to think" in the same stream? hearing his favourite words twice over and getting called pretty? and he's maybe getting a baby on merretje's island? what a weekend for him - 🌷

SHES THRIVINGGGGG genuinely all the boys and the girls want him and are telling him exactly how, and all she has to do is let it happen <3

oh my god. wait hold on. beautiful visions of the four of them right now. a sem lucas hannah merle combination might be too powerful but one must imagine. and i'm sure sem does. bisexual sub heaven for him. 🥰

i mean um. straight. yep. cause theres two men and two women. that counts as straight right? even if these two women are making him strip lucas down while they watch. if he's getting fucked while eating both of them out, carefully dividing his already wavering attention between them. and she's asked to describe the taste but words are oh so hard cause he's *distracted*

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"i don't think people talk about me online" ohhh we talk about you pangi don't you worry

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oh my god she's so fucking stupid i need to kiss her. actual loser boy doesn't want to be the one to end conversation before going to sleep. even if he's sooo tired he just looks at you pathetically, waiting for another kiss or a whisper or so much more. really just anything you'll give her. refusing to give him attention might be the only way to get him to stick to his self-imposed bedtime, funny how fast priorities can change.

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Pangi, girl. You are the type to walk willingly into a baby trap situation. Unprotected mpreg sex? Sign him up (and make sure to praise him for it)

is it truly a trap if you choose to get stuck? 💭

you're so right anon. honestly if you praise him enough there's very few things she wouldn't do, i believe this in my heart. but it seems like he doesn't need a whole lot of convincing on the concept of playing baby roulette.

when sem can feel the thrusts inside him getting more uneven, near frantic, and she knows they're about to cum. without thinking about it he'll wrap his legs around their waist and lock them in, keeping them close. putting those strong thighs of her to good use, making sure not a single drop gets lost. pure bliss, this might be the first moments of her future family, and it feels amazing <3

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Unfiltered thoughts on the most recent round of Pangi baby fever?

oooo! well we're getting into some confusing territory here for her, cause what exactly do you mean you got 'baby fever' from seeing a puppy? that's not... you know what, sure man. you can have a dog as your baby and be its dog parent <3

we just. we have to believe that the sem breeding kink is real though. "we're not using condoms tonight!" sem. "i will experience a real pregnancy!" sem. "what if i get pregnant on the twitchcon stage, with 1000 people watching me!" sem...

the way she gets around babies, whether that's humans or animals, real or fake — cause god the minecraft tiny takeover has his phantom ovaries begging for it — is downright adorable. i think he'll make a great parent one day (ONE DAY. NOT YET. you're not ready dear 💛) and while pregnancy is really not *my* thing, thinking about a future where she gets to take care of something so small that will become his entire world never fails to warm my heart and make me tear up. like yes. if there's one person in the world who Should get to be pregnant, it's sem.

[tuliphides]

Positive reinforcement for our behaviours? No no. We need to positive reinforce this behaviour for Pangi.

Keep posting those clips and videos and we will keep showering you in praises like we know you love. The type that makes you melt and shut off that brain of yours in such a delicious way. Come on Pangi. We know you have a praise kink. Let us reward you for giving us exactly what we begged for. And then maybe we can get you begging too :]

no you're so right,

i wish it didn't break every social rule and etiquette to tell him this shit because fuck me, he'd blush so pretty to hear it.

we get rewarded for our begging, he gets rewarded with praise, he begs for more, everybody wins :D

[yoursweetcorpse]

when a guy stretches and their shirt rides up a little so you can see their happy trail. they groan as they stretch. okayyy let me fuck you then slut damn

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cum. by the way. and it looks so damn good on her. 💛

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so... how's your day going 🤭😏 - 🌷

oh i'm absolutely thriving thank you for asking ^^

annnnnd he did! boy did he ever 🫠

waking up next to sem has to be a cure for depression. and i'm very sick. please. i need it.

[tuliphides]

puppy pangolin,, the urge to pet and scritch his hair

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some recent art i saw on main has given me so many thoughts that aren't safe for main. thoughts like slutty shorts and hoodies long enough to cover but so easy to ride up when bent over. shorts tight enough it's clear there's not a second layer underneath but enough give that a few fingers can wander down and see just how firm training has made that backside. and maybe if someone keeps distracting with kisses those fingers can become hands dragging those shorts all the way off and push that hoodie high enough to inspect the other muscles hiding. but don't worry about stamina since one of them has enough to last a triathlon and the other will always push past reasonable limits. after that? so many more options either to bring hands to completion or entertain the idea of those mouths finding something else to latch onto besides lips and delicious spans of open neck.

oh i've beeeeen thinking about beautiful art i feel you nonnie. shorts that should barely count as clothing at all. last time she wore them his friends called him out, but feeling lucas' dark eyes lingering on her all night made it sooo worth it. funny how little whispers of degradation can boost your confidence somehow. bending over in this little pair was very easily learned.

fuck and with all the extra training since then, he must feel so strong, solid, unbreakable in lucas' hands. but it know just how to make him melt, have her malleable. allowing those muscles to try and press him ever closer to them, touching as much as possible. stamina should never be a problem for those two, but patience is another story. that one might be a lot easier to run out, and a lot more fun to exploit when it does. genuinely the way they look at each other... wow. there's no way they're making it any further than lucas three fingers deep into sem, not even bothering to fully undress, before she just collapses on top of them from sheer desire overtaking.