Insecure — Billy × gn!reader!!
content: billy and you are dating. fluff. fictional character × reader!
there might be translation errors.
You and Billy met at the hospital, after his accident. He almost burned alive, and even had to make many interrogations because of the police. He didn't get signed as guilty, because the bikers did most of the things, Billy just had to get the money back for them. Everything he did, was to keep himself alive. And about him killing Sheila, that wasn't what he wanted to do, and after Melinda got interrogated too, she ended up not being guilty as well, since her actions came out of panic.
You were a doctor, checking on him everyday all day, because he got into a coma. And when he woke up, seeing you there next to him, immediately fell in love. You were the only one who was there with him, the only one who took care of him.
And two years ago today, you are dating and living together.
Billy doesn't show it, but he has always been insecure. He sometimes asks himself why are you here, what do you find in him that is so special. He doesn't realize that you love him as much as he loves you.
Right now you're alone in the house, watching TV while wrapped in a warm blanket, waiting for Billy to come back from work. Yes, finally he has a normal job.
You almost fall asleep while watching a random program, after all it's almost midnight. But then, you hear the familiar sound of the lock of the door unlocking, meaning that finally Billy is home.
The door creaks open, Billy's footsteps echoing in the hallway as a background, since the TV is louder.
You hear him taking his boots off and take off his denim jacket.
You are too lazy to move, tho. So you just tilt your head up as you hear Billy walking towards the living room. When he sees you, he smiles faintly.
«Hey my love» he mumbles and moves to sit down on the couch next to you, then leans in to peck your lips gently.
«Hey...and, yeah, I am» you say quietly and rest your head on his shoulder. He kisses your temple and caresses your arm as he wraps his around you.
«Did you have dinner?» Billy asks next, gaining a faint nod from you.
He doesn't know why, but as usual, he's feeling damn insecure. Like, a lot. Seeing you not looking at him, returning his kisses, or cuddling against him. He feels like you don't want him anymore — which is stupid, you have been dating for two years now. And this happened many times, it's just you being tired. But Billy overthinks too much to get it.
He swallows a lump in his throat and looks down at you, and your eyes that are slowly falling shut, your gaze absent towards the TV screen.
He hates working until late during weekdays. He feels like he isn't giving you enough love and attention. He wishes he could buy you gifts, too. Being a good boyfriend.
And he is, but he thinks the opposite. But you always saw him as the perfect one, because he is, and think that everything he gives you is enough.
«What did you do today?» Billy asked quietly, still caressing your arm.
You yawn and bury your face against his shoulder.
«Missed you. And...I don't remember, maybe i cleaned around a bit and watched a movie or something. And napped. And...hmm...Showered, I guess» you mumble sleepily.
Billy smiles a little, «Just that? You didn't leave the house?»
«Nah...I was too lazy to.» you murmur.
Billy huffs and finally hugs you fully, burying his face into your hair.
You frown a bit and adjust in his embrace, tilting your head up slightly to look at him.
«For what?» you ask quietly.
«For not being enough.» he says.
That wakes you up, basically. The tiredness suddenly vanishes as you hear those words, and your chest aches a little for him.
«Baby, you are enough. The hell are you saying?» you reply.
«I am not. No wonder you...don't act like before anymore. When I was able to stay with you most of the time.» Billy sighs and shrugs, finally looking down at you to meet your beautiful eyes.
«...What do you mean? Am I acting different?-» you mutter, your eyes widening a bit.
«Baby, you aren't thinking that I don't love you anymore, right?»
Billy doesn't reply this time, he just looks at you, one of his hands coming up to caress your jaw. You gulp, your frown coming back as you notice the lack of response.
«Billy...I love you, I swear. You're the only one I want to spend my life with.» you murmur as you move to sit on his lap and cup his face in your hands.
«I won't ever love you less than now. It's impossible, since everyday I fall more and more in love with you. Got it?»
Billy's eyes widen slightly, his other hand resting on your hip.
«...You mean it?» he whispers.
Your eyes widen as well, noticing just now how much your boyfriend has been insecure this whole time.
«Yes, I mean it. I can swear it on my own life» you reassure him, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his lips.
Billy's hand on your hip tightens it's grip, and he returns the kiss the most sweetly he ever did.
«I love you more» he mumbles and smiles more than before.
You can't help but return that perfect smile of his, and chuckle a bit.
«Nuh-uh, I love you more» you say and rest your forehead against Billy's.
«I bet I'm the one loving you more.» he teases.
You blush a little at that, your chest feeling warm.
«All yours.» you confirm.
The two of you hug again, your face buried against the crook of his neck while his face is nuzzling your hair again.
The sleepiness starts hitting again, and you can't help but yawn like earlier.
«Do you want to go to bed?» Billy asks in a low, soothing voice, gaining a small nod from you.
He puts his hands under your thighs to hold you against him as he gets up from the couch, then walks to your shared bedroom. He gently lays you down, noticing the way you are already in his hoodie and a pair of shorts. He didn't notice until now. He changed quickly in a pair of sweatpants and a tanktop, then lays down next to you. He wraps his arms around you and holds you against his chest, and you throw your leg over his waist to try and pull him closer. The warmth of his embrace slowly relaxes you into a blissful sleep, while he stays awake to look after you. He holds you protectively, cuddling you in your sleep.
«Gotta thank the bikers for getting me in trouble...» Billy mumbles as he kisses your hair.
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