You know that fanfic that I started writing in like idek 2015 and then said fuck it in 2020 and started posting it? Yeah there's like a ton more of that shit written down but like I didn't get negative feedback but someone and I say this with appreciation for the time and effort reading and writing all that, someone left essays under each chapter dissecting them and questioning my choices and like the mistakes and shit which I said right away it wasn't beta read or anything like uhhhh yeah if that thing has not been updated since 2021 it's because of those comments and I'm being completely transparent here. I wrote that for myself and I didn't even expect more than two people to read it but then I got that and it was just like idk I didn't ask? It wasn't someone I knew and like my personal headcanons don't have to align with anyone's so it really dissuaded me from posting the rest. Especially because they were on a road trip just the two of them and then I wanted to have queer rep from the 90s and had to add OCS and this person wasn't a fan and I'm like... Okay that's fair but did you expect them to just be existing in the world and nobody else existed? Like a whole story and it would just be two characters existing in a void with a Toyota Corolla? I don't know what world that is but whenever I go outside I am made to interact with other humans and make acquaintance with them whether I like it or not because people acknowledge your existence and you acknowledge theirs unless you've got your head stuck on a phone which... This story is set in the 90s, that wasn't a thing. People interacted a lot more. I'm not missing those days but like even now you see other people and you acknowledge that they exist and have their own lives and interior worlds. I'm sorry that doesn't seem to be your case but uh well yeah this is a good example actually. You found my shit and decided to get all in my face nitpicking at everything like you knew me and that's like? Not everyone is just going to pretend their stuff wasn't just called trash with nicer terms by a stranger who framed it as helpful criticism or whatever like I'm sorry and I do appreciate the time but yeah that's the reason I got cold feet and have thousands of words written down gathering dust in a folder and haven't updated that thing. If that person is reading this well yeah you did that. Anyone else who for some reason liked that I mean yeah let me know but leave the person alone I don't want to send anyone after them which wouldn't even happen I don't think since I'm a nobody. But just in case yeah if I see that, I'll delete it because no. No. Not cool. I just saw the file and was like ah yes this. Some bad juju right here mmm
Oh right I forgot about the person who found my twitter when I still used that shit and it was still called that and called me cruel and a sellout because I was writing for another fandom like... Uhhhh that was fucking weird. Again the reason I was not updating that was the pressure of the dissecting person not because I got more feedback on the other shit lol insane actually that this motherfucker would go out of their way and demand and feel entitled to my shit like it was polar opposites. One saying it was shit in nice words and this one saying I was shit and calling me other names. I swear to god what the fuck actually. Again I barely expected this shit to be read at all lol
