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everybody's always mad about something. figured if that's the way that it is then i ain't got time to worry about nothing

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Wow after 14 years I am deleting this account just to get rid of you! Sick freak!

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Actually really tired of people playing the deliberately obtuse game when it comes to porn/sexualized content/thirst traps and algorithms

Like any time someone dares to step out of the status quo and acknowledge that the amount of sexualized/half naked content that shows up on their social media feeds is annoying, male or female, the pro porn people (likely the ones posting thirst traps) immediately “well you build your own algorithm! It only shows you that because you engage with it”

This is a ridiculous claim imo. Why would we ever be surprised that, in a capitalistic society where engagement and data are currency, big companies who stand to profit from said engagement would use the sex sells method on as many people’s feeds as possible regardless of their usual algorithms?

I am 28 years old. I’ve seen enough porn. I don’t need to seek it out. I am anti porn & anti porn culture. I assure you, I don’t seek out the shit. And yet… it creeps its way in. And like… it is not like I’m asking you to do rocket science when I ask you to think critically about the society we live in and how sex is so deeply entangled with capitalism.

These companies don’t just give you free reign over your algorithm - yes you can curate an fyp on TikTok that shows you things you like, but the end goal on the company’s part is to monetize, monetize, monetize. And if engagement is money, they can’t just show you videos that align with your current hyper fixation about civil war era trains. They have to also show you controversial content for example - things they know you’ll disagree with, things they know will make you angry, things they know will cause you to spend some time arguing in the comment section.

I assure you, they also intentionally show thirst traps and stealth only fans advertisements on purpose. To everyone. And people can pretend they’re not seeing it every now and then, but they are. I know that they are. My late mother was an elderly, devout Catholic who barely knew how to use her phone… most of her feed was about the Bible & ovarian cancer awareness. and yet Facebook found ways to show her things that had her clutching her pearls, to the point she was trying to detox and delete it (was a bit of an addict) shortly before she started hospice.

It is a problem. To pretend that it isn’t happening and to gaslight people and flip it on them like they’re all categorically “asking for it” is literally psychopathological imo. Yes, algorithms work a certain way… but they don’t only work in your favor all the time. These apps are not free for no reason, and they do not just make their money off of advertising and marketing. They harvest engagement and they will do what they have to do to get their money.

May sound mean but the people who try to gaslight everyone who’s sick of the constant porn being shoved down our throats are either 1) those who create the porn/thirst traps/whatever the fuck or 2) those who create the demand for it. And how dare we, as normal people, have anything negative to say about it. Don’t you know the internet is for them? The internet exists solely for porn and jerking off and sexualization and dehumanization of women. It is not meant for funny videos or interesting videos or for research or for community, no. Those things are all secondary. Porn comes first, always And if you don’t like that, then you just need to get off the internet and it’s your fault anyways.

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I had to cancel a dog sitting gig that was well over 2 weeks away because of extremely personal reasons pertaining to my grief over my mom and like having to prioritize my responsibilities because I just don’t have as much energy as I need to do everything that needs to happen that specific week (like my dog now has to have surgery around that same time and it’s just not going to work having to care for her after a surgery and 2 other dogs and chickens + my day job + college like I just can’t do it all with her having surgery)

These people are being so petty refusing to acknowledge the heartfelt apologetic text I sent where I offered to help them find another sitter and interview people to take the stress off them. They’re pretending I didn’t cancel it seems.

I’m so irritated. They’re only being petty because they would have to find someone who actually set her own rate. These people heard of me from word of mouth and my other client decided it was cool to set my rate for me (wtf!) which was actually way below market value for the services I’d be providing and I reluctantly agreed THREE DAYS after my mom died. It’s not hard to find a sitter, these people don’t know me well enough to “only trust me” or w/e either. They just want to get away with underpaying and anyone else won’t let them bc the precedent won’t be set by a word of mouth relationship.

They can pretend I didn’t cancel… they’re SOL. I’m not doing this job. Petty fucks. I would’ve helped them find someone.

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I miss my mom. I don’t see how I can keep going on like this. It’s only been three months. It feels like an eternity

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I don’t want to eat. I want to call my mom.

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bruh those people are assholes and ppl like them are the reason covid still hasnt been eradicated

I’m so angry. Like when I get Covid it makes me so so so so so sick I know for some people it really is just like a bad cold but for me it is HELL. They are such assholes and idk if I wanna work for them anymore

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I’m just having the absolute worst anxiety now too. I really can’t afford Covid. I’m just waiting to start feeling sick. I will get worse grades and my laundry will pile up and I won’t be able to cook and I’ll have to spend all my money on food delivery and then even after I’m better the long Covid night sweats and insomnia and caffeine intolerance won’t go away

Fuck these people like fuck them!!

And they’re GOING TO CHICAGO ON THURSDAY!!!!! ON A PLANE!!! TO GO TO A CONCERT!!!!!! AND INFECT HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE

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Showed up for my first day at my new nanny gig and the mom as soon as I walked in was like “hehe we have strep I hope that’s okay!” (Literally what choice did I have if it wasn’t!!) and I wasn’t worried about it bc I do not get strep since I got my tonsils out 21 years ago.

But then… an hour later… her husband tells me “oh…. She has Covid actually…” and I was like “oh…. Good… well… let’s hope I don’t get it because it knocks me out for like 3 months ha ha” and they told me I could leave if I didn’t feel comfortable but I was like eh I mean whatever I’ve already been exposed. You threw your coughing snot nosed child at me the minute I walked in the door. I already have it. Might as well make you fuckers pay me

It’s just frustrating how inconsiderate people are. I get that you can’t always avoid getting sick but they KNEW they were sick and they DID NOT KNOW that I do not get strep. They were going to force me to watch their kid either way and potentially catch whatever tf they had because they needed childcare

It’s just sickening the way people are. They could have at least given me the information needed before consenting to coming into their home and touching their things and child. Knowingly exposing someone to illness is a major character flaw and idk if I should even keep working for them

Now my dogs tooth extraction had to be rescheduled bc I don’t want to expose my entire veterinarian’s office. I’m also grieving and want to be held by my fiance and given affection but now I can’t have that either. I have to spend the next 7-10 days in isolation because they couldn’t just call out for a couple fucking days

Fuckers.

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The only person who gave a fuck is dead.

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I hate that it’s somehow controversial that parents are responsible for their children 😭😭😭

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After my mom died, one of my older sisters has remarked how she is the most like our mom and how I’m “not really like her” at all. The other older sister (half sister, different dad) keeps saying “she was mine first since I’m the oldest and I knew her before even dad did”

It makes me feel violent and sick. I am so tired of grieving alone. You’d think you’d be able to rely on your siblings during a time like this but… my siblings, like everyone else on this godforsaken planet, just want to compete.

I miss my mom. I miss her so badly. I have no intention of making my sisters feel worse, I would never tell them that they somehow have less of a license to grieve her than me, I would never tell them that they weren’t like her, or that she was “mine” first or that our relationship was the most special or whatever

I just cannot wrap my head around treating someone like that let alone your youngest sister. My sisters like looooveeee to use the “we are the oldest we had to raise you” thing against me (they literally didn’t, when my mom was at work and my dad was out of town for work I cooked for myself played by myself cried by myself - I literally grew up alone and if I asked them to pay me any attention or care about me they’d slam the door in my face and tell me I was annoying)

well if you were suuuch gooood older sisters, why would you say this kind of thing to me? As it turns out, you’re both emotionally immature assholes who think grief is a competition

And then they wanna be like “you know you can talk to us about mom right” but when I do it’s met with crazy comments like those or they just condescend me and tell me I’m grieving wrong. Like I’m not allowed to be upset or angry or whatever and they have to like “coach me” on how to correctly feel and speak. I don’t wanna be tone policed I just want to talk about missing my mom

But I can’t, not even with the people who knew her as well as I did. Because they hate me apparently and want to hurt me

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This dude in my complex has a truck that’s so loud it literally scares the shit out of me when I’m stoned. It sounds like the aliens have come down from space or something like it is just this crazyyy wild low rumble sound and it always makes me look around like

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I really wish that people understood that shaming people for poor dental hygiene just encourages them to neglect their oral routine even worse

Like… they’re certainly not going to want to go to the dentist, especially if dentists are also shaming people with poor oral hygiene. They’re not going to want to deal with their teeth and gums because they don’t want to confront it or feel like they’re gross

If you really truly cared about oral hygiene, you’d come online and explain the benefits of flossing and brushing correctly, provide tips and tricks for maintaining routines and habits, show empathy, and educate people about proper flossing technique. The C shape flossing technique is quite literally life changing and solved the gingivitis issue that I was convinced I couldn’t get rid of.

Not everyone can afford to go to the dentist and it isn’t realistic to expect average adults to be able to afford it in this economy… but everyone CAN be educated about the best home care practices which will be much better for them in the long run than simply being told they’re nasty and disgusting.

People with mental health issues or people that just weren’t raised and taught how to do these things properly aren’t inferior to you. They are human beings and deserve to be treated with compassion. I just don’t get pretending to care about other people’s oral health with no intention of helping them. Improving my oral hygiene as an adult has been an extremely rewarding and satisfying process, but I couldn’t have done it without the compassionate, wonderful dental hygienist I found on YouTube back in 2019.

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I wanna go see my mom

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Male centered friends are crazyyyy like I just think it’s nuts how they’ll be able to send 10 min long VMs and paragraphs about whatever guy they’re talking to & you can invest in them and give them well thought out responses and stuff but the minute you get shorter because you can only repeat yourself so many times they get annoyed and god forbid YOUUU need to talk about something non man related that you’ve talked about once or twice already 😭 now you’re being annoying and need to not bring it up again but

God forbid you get tired of talking about the same crusty mannnn that they’ve told you the same thing about a million times

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I’m such a sucker for a good story and that’s why I love tv shows and I feel like I’ve seen most good stuff with gripping stories that really tug on emotions and describe the human condition. and when I ask for suggestions it’s always just “game of thrones!!!” Like grooooaaaaannnnnn people do not understand me