Also I don't know if I should say this. But I sort of feel like my department at uni don't take my health conditions seriously. The one time I brought it up, they said that my illness isn't an excuse for absence. I can only legitimately be absent for doctor's appointments. The thing is, my illness, whatever it is, leaves me in so much pain and it makes me so exhausted I can't even function sometimes. It looks like a combination of fibromyalgia and arthritis at the moment but I can't be sure until my rheumatology appointment. I've been to the doctors so many times over the past few years so it's well documented that I'm not well, but the uni just seem to believe I'm kind of making it up? My gran said "They don't know what theyre talking about. If it was a lie then you've stayed fully committed to it for the last 2 years." Like sure, I'm totally pretending that I'm in so much pain sometimes I can't walk. I'm lying that I get so tired I struggle to get up no matter how long I sleep for. 4 hours or 10 hours I feel the same. The fact I'm sick every single day, which so many people have witnessed. That's a lie too. I am so frustrated. If they want me to go in, fall asleep, cry all day from the pain and throw up everywhere, then that's up to them.
















