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#/LFKJSKSLJFSLJ OMG! hold up let me get online!

@seokjinklm

i just like to be mysterious and sexy for you. aish, is it so bad i like to see my hyung and best friend happy together? don't ask me anything if you don't want the details, handsome. you should know way better than this. both, of course. i think we all deserve to have some happiness right now. yeah? i love that you love that. you know it took awhile for me to be able to do that. so... thank you for letting me be me. especially on stage and on this tour. oh! speaking of coastal... i know! we can house the shells in our beach house... somewhere in america with our pet donkey.

or maybe it was your subtle way of asking me if i wanted to be your boyfriend. i'm just going to assume madelyn already told you they're back together, so you got your wish granted yet again. what is it with you and your ability to ask for something, or just casually throw it into the universe, and then it comes true? if that's a supernatural skill, just know i always wanted a "special one" fishing yacht. and you're welcome. i just love seeing you actually thrive in your own skin for once in your life. please keep doing that, okay? ...we don't have a beach house. and for the last freaking time, we're not getting a donkey. don't manifest that, please..

#(chat: prkjimns.)

so, uh... we may be back together again... suprise!

#(chat: kimn.)#/he aint even that surprised...

…you just said that, didn’t you? like ... what the hell? but you know what, at the end of the day you did seem happier back then and if she can bring that side of you out again, then congratulations, joonie.

well, excuse me for not being able to read your mind. i'll do better next time, ja-ji. 10-4. i won't mention it again, supposed bestie. i was going to say, why the fuck would you care about being considerate? love is love. happy pride, jinnie. hm... yeah... so about that...

happy pride, joonie... go on...

hey listen, you asked me a question and i'm going to answer it. i'm not going to give you the dirty details like others would, but i know you're a big boy... you can handle it. i mean, likewise. it was semi payback for the noise hell you put me through. i don't think we're trying to recreate anything right now. we're just... spending time together again. i mean, i haven't even asked her to be my girlfriend again yet. is it in the cards? yeah. am i being a little bit of a coward right now? also yes. too be honest, no... i'm afraid it's going to turn into an argument. i can realize i'm probably living in a bubble right now, but it's a damn good one. i just... don't want to reality on this break, you know? kind of live in a delusional bliss for a few more days. is that fair to our relationship? probably not, but we've all been through a lot these past few weeks. both... can i say both? it's both.

i feel like my question was aimed more at the emotional side of things, but if you felt the need to share details about your sex life, then i'm more than happy to lend an ear. touché, though we do try to be considerate when we know there are people on the other side of the wall. heard kookie and tae going at it a few rooms down once, and now it's a constant reminder that someone could probably hear us too. though, at the same time, i don't really give a fuck. let love be love. okay, i think taking things slow is definitely the right approach, especially when there's history between the two of you. take your time and get to know each other again before making any huge commitments. from everything you've told me, it sounds like you've got the emotional side of things covered. and if whatever you're doing is making you happy and she's making you feel like you can relax and be yourself, then i'm genuinely happy for you. did she end up clocking a fan, then?

mvnsugas

private: it happened due to a specific situation. us spending more time together fueled it more. i know you are. don't blame you for wanting to understand. yeah, it was bad. like sure i was disappointed but also my feeling were screaming at me loudly in my head as well. i shouldn't have thrown all that at you but i should bottle things up like that. you can't. i can just say it sucks a ton. my heart just had to latch on and i couldn't stop it even if i tried. i'm glad you'll help me though, hyung. i appreciate it. i do need full control. i gotta figure out how i'd even wanna tell them. i like that but my brain is on the thought that i need to keep things to myself. one day, they'll know and then they can learn the other reason i was upset. i'm sure jimin would. i'm trying not to but it's hard. you know... i didn't share before cause i didn't wanna put thing on you when you didn't know if you liked men. i'm glad for that. could never deal with a life without you ever. i know and i'm glad you come back. makes me happy. you do! there's video proof that you make me laugh easily. i mean, kook makes me laugh but in his own way. i like giving him a hard time. yeah, let's not do that. you're welcome. i had to tell you... i know i couldn't keep you in the dark even if i tried.

PRIVATE: that makes sense, especially if it's been lingering in the back of your mind for a while. it's just... i never pictured you catching feelings for me like that. our dynamic has always been so consistent, so i'm trying to understand what changed and what caused that shift. no, i get it... or at least i'm trying to. but i suppose it makes a lot more sense looking back, because you don't usually lash out over something like that. can i ask you another question then? did your anger that night happen because you were jealous of jimin? because the mere thought that i could've unknowingly broken your heart... kind of breaks mine. i'm sorry you've had to carry all of that on your own, but i'm really glad you chose honesty, no matter how messy it might be. and there's no need to thank me, yoon. i'm here no matter what happens. it's completely up to you whether you want the others to know, but i do think you could benefit from having more than just me to lean on. honestly, i'm not even sure it's a gender thing yet. i'm trying not to put a label on whatever it is i'm going through. maybe it's more about the person than physical appearance or biology, you know? and you're not going to experience life without me, okay? i'm here to stay whether you like it or not. hey, you're allowed to admit that i'm funnier than jungkookie. and i appreciate your honesty more than you know, okay? maybe i should take a page out of your book and start being honest right away myself.

uarmyhopex

Hyung just enjoy it, world wide handsome is now your blessing and your curse! Mmm...I will do it for you hyung but I just know the maknaes won't stop teasing me about it just like with Killin' it Girl...do you know how many times I' ve heard them singing it?

you say that, but when i see a fan sign that says worldwide daddy, i start to wonder if maybe i've outgrown the title. well... okay. but to be fair, i don't think jimin does it to tease you. he's genuinely obsessed with that song to the point where he can't even get through a meal without tapping his fork against his water glass to make the "clink clink clink clink clink" sound. jungkookie is a different story, though. i'm pretty sure he does it purely for the reaction.

#(chat: uarmyhopex.)

what do your hands feel like: soft, calloused, trembling ? (#11)

um... soft? trembling with lust when i touch my boyfriend.

what kind of question is that?

mvnsugas

private: yes before the napa trip. spent a lot of time delving more into my feeling while hanging out with you and the other members. that's part of the reason i blew up like that on twitter and that at you afterwards. i know you don't. always selfless hyung. i know it does but i've never been one to admit i like someone so i feel conflicted. okay... i'll get those thoughts out of my head. i know they are but i don't wanna tell the other at all yet. i don't even know what they'd say. i appreciate you hyung. i hope so. i know i'm thinking so negative here when i should. i just can't help myself. i'm glad. we both know i'd be a mess if i didn't have you in my life no matter what. plus you are one of the only ones that can make me laugh easily without trying. i'll be by yours as well.

PRIVATE: did it just happen randomly or did it start in a specific situation? i'm just trying to understand, i guess. yeah.. i suppose that makes sense if you've had all of this bottled up, and it's felt like i've rejected you in every possible way. that's the thing.. i can't even imagine being in your shoes right now, but i'm going to be here for you and help you however i can. and good. i obviously won't tell anyone. i respect that this is something you're dealing with and that you need full control over it. honestly, they'd all be supportive if they knew. they'd give you a shoulder to lean on, jimin included. i think he'd understand more than anyone. don't think negatively about any of it. it's natural, even when it feels like it isn't. and thankfully, that's something you'll never have to experience, a life without me in it. even when i try to push you away, you know i can't stay away for long before i come right back. i make you laugh? i'd ask if i could tell kookie that, but i also feel like that's just feeding the t-rex. and.. thank you for telling me, okay?

83 - What’s on your bucket list this year?

... to get a pet donkey and name him boba.

stop with the donkey, jimin. we've discussed this more times than i can count and the answer is still no. you're not getting a donkey.

#/🤣🤣🤣

mvnsugas

private: um.... i'd say a little before the napa trip. okay, take all the time you need. you don't have to say a thing. i honestly had planned never to say a thing and just suffer in silence. honestly, i feel horrible and conflicted. like i shouldn't be feeling this way when you clearly have something going on already. i don't know hyung. i haven't even told tae or kook at all. i don't wanna ruin things again cause i had to catch feeling and watch other things unfold in front of my eyes. honestly feel like i'm betraying people here. if anything, you can just ignore what i said and i'll try to get over it but we both know that won't happen. good cause i don't want him to be upset with me cause of this...

PRIVATE: before the napa trip? that's.. but i don't want you suffering or struggling through this alone. first of all, this changes absolutely nothing between us or the way i see you. so if there's any part of you that's worried about losing me or thinks i'm going to look at you differently, i need you to get that out of your head right now. and don't feel horrible. those are your feelings and i'm here to help you work through them, not judge you for having them. this isn't going to ruin anything, and you're not betraying anyone. yoongi, no matter what happens, and i really need you to hear me when i say this, you will always have me. i'm not going anywhere and i'll always be by your side.

PRIVATE: ...what the fuck? how long has this been going on? i mean... okay, let me just take a second to process this, because i honestly don't know what to say right now. but first.. are you okay? what can i do to make you feel better? because i can't even begin to imagine how you're feeling. and no, i'm not going to tell jimin. but.. shit. ( @mvnsugas )

of course we all have, but it's not in the way i wanna hold hands with you. get it? no. i don't think they've gotten back together yet, but i do know she had to have heating pads between her thighs on the flight back. and that's the tea. plus, you know i'm always shipping them. thanks, daddy. ... who said that? did you leave the window open? i'm lucky you love sparkly and extra jimin. yeah, maybe i am. i love you... but... you're not decorating the house if you think that's beautiful decor.

so as a couple? why don't you just ask me what it is you want to ask? in what universe did i imply that i wanted to know that? a simple yes or no would've been more than enough for me. are you rooting for them because it's good for joonie or because it benefits you to have her around more? ...please, continue, by the way. i'm listening. and i love that you're comfortable enough to express yourself and be your true self. if being extra is part of that, then i'm on board with it. but... here i was thinking it would be giving coastal, but whatever..

#(chat: prkjimns.)

what's different, dr. phil? well, the fact that she was willing to drop everything for me and come out and see me on a whim like i said before. i mean... i thought the sex was banging before... but now? out of this damn world. it kind of feels like we're back to the place we were two years ago... happy again... you know, before the fighting and ps5 controller incident. i feel like you forgot that not only did she break my heart but i also broke hers. i wasn't completely innocent in this. yeah, i know. too be honest, i was afraid that she'd swing at any army with a daddy namjoon sign.

okay, so we're just jumping straight to the sex details now? you do realize we were staying in the room next to yours in vegas, right? we heard way more than we ever needed to. but don't you think there's a difference between missing someone and trying to recreate something that used to exist? and have you talked to her about why you're reconnecting, or what either of you expects from it? no, but i'm not her friend or her hyung, i'm yours. of course i'm going to advocate for you. that's kind of my job, just like i'm sure her friends are doing the exact same thing for her. afraid or turned on? joon, be so fucking serious right now.

touché. yeah, well, i thought i was... but my plans changed. vegas really put things into perspective for me. i mean, she flew out on a damn whim for me and was there for me when i needed her the most. i know... don't think i don't notice you trying to be a good friend and trying to protect my heart. i love you for it. but, i don't know... i don't think i ever got over her.

okay, i hear what you're saying and i understand that you still have some unresolved feelings for her, but what's different since the last time? you're still RM of BTS, and that hasn't changed. in fact, you're more popular and in higher demand now than you were two years ago, so i'm just curious.

oh, so, you hold hands when you go out to dinner with namjoon? because i'm pretty sure maddie would kick your ass. she is small, but mighty. i don't know. okay, i'll stop questioning everything and just be my extra self. we can get an extra suitcase for them... i don't mind hauling them. cause then, eventually, we can display them in our place together... wherever that may be. i think that would be cute.