Seoul-Man

Journey of my life and its musings.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[this-old-stomping-ground]

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[thedesertdove]

[mournfulroses]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, from a letter featured in "Letters of Fyodor Michailovitch Dostoevsky to his Family & Friends,"

[seoulman77]

How is it as an adult, I still find myself at times having to defend myself from a controlling parent. Setting boundaries is like a crime that is always deemed punishable.

[danger]

[cozyvu]

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[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[specialopz]

[m1nd--0ver--matter]

[seoulman77]

If I had been 30 minutes late, it would have been 30 minutes too late to say goodbye. I would have not been there to talk to her and hold her hand in the final moments. It was just her and I as I wanted some time alone with her even if she could not respond. I wanted to tell her how I proud I was of her after loosing Grandpa last year and how much I loved her, but that I understood if she wanted to go then I wouldn’t hold her back. I think she heard and she knew it was her time. It only took a few breaths before I saw the monitor flat line, but I kept holding her hand knowing she didn’t want to leave this world without someone next to her. She made her peace. 

They always say that getting old and dying is part of life, but the emotions behind it never change. I will never forget watching my grandmother take her last breaths and taking comfort that it was just her and I together in the final moments. I don’t think I’ve ever seen my father cry until that day. 

[seoulman77]

I lost my grandfather last year and a year later my grandmother is nearing the end stages of her life as well. We put my parent's dog down a couple weekends ago and it would be my dog's 7th birthday today since he passed 2 years ago. Today I will be saying my last goodbyes to my grandmother before she passes on.

I don't know if the world is testing me right now but everything is happening so quickly and on bad timing. This is far beyond what I had imagined life to be this year, and it overwhelms me to the point of feeling just numb to everything.

How long before things will find itself back on course. I am exhausted and overall tired of death.

[seoulman77]

I can't tell if it's the end or the beginning I know I haven't been myself, I'll admit it I put up walls so if I burned any bridges just know I'm doin' everything I can to try and fix it But knowin' me I'll probably miss it These voices get so vicious Feels like I'm rippin' stitches I wish some days I could go back Before life changed it was so fast That time is gone and I know that So please Let me be sad Even for a little while Just a chance to catch my breath

I Prevail

[seoulman77]

The world is fucked as we know it.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[understands]

[nature-travel-photography]

A walk through the Mist; Staircase Rapids; near Lake Cushman, WA [OC][2001x3000] IG = @Lionseye_Photos - lionthebrian