[scottlangs]

thanks for following me but you’re gonna regret it later

[eightyonextwentyfour]

something about ilya always kissing shane’s chest (where it hurt him before he accepted who he was) and shane always kissing ilya’s forehead (where it hurts him, depression)

[crimsolyn]

I think the purest form of love is just wanting someone to notice life with you. "taste this. look at that. hear this song." again and again. until you can't imagine noticing life without them.

[bartylusvariant]

happy pride month to henry winter!! it was very nice of him to carry his husband to the hospital, read to him by his hospital bed and yell at the nurses for not being gentle enough with him AND giving him his king sized bed to sleep in for the rest of winter break!!

[museify]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

no one is coming to save yo- wrong!! everyone who has ever shown you love and/or care is saving you a little bit.

[excandescence]

and my friend niall kennedy is ignoring every single one of them

[thedeadsparrow]

“they killed bunny bc he was annoying” “they killed bunny bc he was sexist and homophobic” “they killed bunny-“ they killed bunny because he deadass wasn’t breaking his back to try and fit in with the others and their weird cultish aesthetic.

its like that scene in mean girls where regina sits down and karen + gretchen are like “you can’t sit with us because you’re wearing sweatpants, its monday” (or whatever day) “so thats against the rules and you can’t sit with us”

bunny was actually liked by the vast majority of people at hampden and the greek class didn’t like that, because it didn’t fit into their whole “aesthetic”.

bunny had a girlfriend that did an education degree and he was very public about it, and the greek class didn’t like that, because it didn’t fit into their whole “aesthetic”.

bunny ate a grilled cheese and milkshake, and the greek class didn’t like this. not because he was being greedy, but because it didn’t fit into their whole aesthetic.

why do you think richard got turned away when he first showed up to julian’s class? because he didn’t fit into the aesthetic.

i love the greek class as much as the next guy, but please. come on guys. lets just…open our eyes here.

[standingcowrrdly]

do my dark circles and deteriorating health make me look hot

[potatosaresweet]

in my richard papen era(failing academics, in need of friends, romantising things i don't even understand)

[tabortrillion]

And if I said Niall embodies the innocence Ruben lost to his father and the softness that life wrung out of him and that Ruben embodies the rage Niall has suppressed in himself his whole life and the confidence that life leeched out of him early on, that they found the missing pieces of themselves in each other so how could they ever possibly give the other up fully, what then huh?

[apricustar]

insane production design choice to put a 1984 poster on niall’s bedroom door, because the immediate shorthand of the novel is obviously ‘big brother is always watching’—this idea of an omnipresent authority that continues governing your behavior even in moments of physical absence—which feels inextricable from the way ruben operates within the show. but what makes 1984 so genuinely horrifying is the psychological consequence of prolonged domination: the erosion of a private self, the way fear and control become so thoroughly internalized that the watcher no longer needs to stand in the room because he has already taken up residence inside you, rewriting how you understand love, loyalty, safety—and what you believe you deserve from all three.

that is exactly what ruben’s violence has done. even in his absence, everyone continues organizing themselves around him—anticipating him, contracting around wounds he opened years earlier, the past remaining not behind them but invasively, insistently present. he’s a specter lingering over everything.

which makes the placement on niall’s door so devastating, because this episode is about niall reaching—toward autonomy, toward a life expansive enough to finally contain honesty and desire. just away—far enough to exhale, far enough to start anew. and yet gadd frames his most private space with a novel about what total surveillance does to a person’s interiority and selfhood.

niall is trying to become someone. the poster is gadd telling you, in the most precise way possible, that big brother already got there first.

because in the end, winston smith—the protagonist of 1984—doesn’t just submit to big brother. he loves him.

[english-idylls]

From Aurora Leigh by Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1856).

[mothprincess]

Mary Oliver, from The Fire

[cascadingcrystal]

don’t you forget that richard and henry were the only pairing in the secret history to be directly and explicitly paralleled to achilles and patroclus and for a REASON. no other pairing even came close to the devotion, muse-like obsession that was between winterpapen

[matchadolly]

stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you

[transtarks]

reblog this and put in the tags at least two (2) songs you are listening to on repeat right now

[septxwber]

I have issues but at least I’m aware of them, that has to mean something