Nathaniel

he/they☆ 20 ☆ lowkey everyone i kin is autistic

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[poteryashka007]

waaa I wanted to say thank you SO MUCH everyone for likes and reblogs!! I didn't expect anyone to like my stuff tbh !!🫶🫶🫶

(Im obsessed w emo jax grrrrrr)

[eyes-0f-the-v0id]

My friend said that Jax could literally write “I AM A WOMAN” in her own blood and people would still be calling transfem jax a headcannon

And yeah, he’s not wrong

[bicryingpotato]

I would fight wars for her

[callmerina]

Jax haters will do anything but admit that maybe being trapped in a virtual reality for years while being a suicidal closeted trans woman with a shitty real life ON TOP of grieving the only friend you had might eventually make you a jerk who's not exactly enjoyable to be around.

Just saying.

[moontaingoat]

riverdale episode titles are so funny because sometimes you have episodes like "Citizen Lodge" where the whole thing is an obvious reference to Citizen Kane and sometimes you have episodes like "Fire Walk With Me" which seems like it might only be called that because Gay Kevin walks across hot coals for a few seconds

[oncelerfucker]

Jax literally killed himself in the circus after making the other two openly queer people around him - a nonbinary person and a non-straight woman - the targets of some of the worst of his externalized self hatred and queerphobia.

But in real life, in the physical world, she's at Riley's bar. She's surrounded by other queer people. He killed himself but she's alive in a place hosted by the nonbinary person he resented. She has the community of other queer people that he rejected.

I wonder if Goose meant anything by this.

[toziertoa]

[TADC EP 9 SPOILERS!!]

stupid jax

[dandeliont3aandsageleaves]

SPOILERS

Okay I fear some of us are missing the point.

Yes there was a lot of misogyny and transphobia in jax's inner thoughts. It's because he has a lot of internalized misogyny and transphobia that he needs to work through. It wasn't character assassination.

Jax grew up in an environment where masculinity was violent and hated, and if he was anything less then a man then he was shamed and punished. He was forced into the shadow of his father and any choice he made (embrace it or fight it) was punished. His inner selves reflected that.

You had the trans femme side that couldn't let people know the truth, that she enjoyed being in the dress, in fear of ridicule. Because she never had a safe place to come out, because if she was less then a man she would be punished.

You had the sexist side that objectified women because that's what a man is supposed to do. That's what Jax is supposed to be. If he wasn't then he was punished by his mother. That was the part he was expected to play in the society that he grew up in.

Then there's the soft part that plays the piano. The closest to the real Jax, the one who gives Pomni the key, the one who is still chained. They're softer, kinder, and they're abused by the other sides of Jax. They aren't allowed a voice, just there to provide entertainment to the others.

They're all a part of Jax because Jax has things they need to work through. Because Jax is not a perfect character, they have trauma, they've suffered abuse, and that's how the abuse manifested. It's not character assassination because we've seen these sides throughout the series. Jax in the maid costume during the softball adventure. Telling Gangle that she's "supposed to be submissive and agreeable" during the candie adventure. It's all been there, these are just those facets played up to the extremes.

[chellehc]

I was sat there in the cinema with tears streaming down my face repeating ‘There is still time” to myself and to her. holy shit. representation is SO important. as a very repressed trans person who is terrified to come out that was so important to me. happy pride everyone.

[ghostapop]

"when i showed weakness i was less of a man than him" and "i said something deep and personal that i thought would get her off my back" and ribbit putting their bow on jax and then saying "your secret is safe with me" while jax is happy and blushy looking at the bow and the montage of jax scenes with isn't she lovely playing in the background WE WONNNNNNN WE SO FUCKING WON

[arlo-skipp]

based on the reactions on my original post, i feel as though this is more accurate

[whirlwindsworld]

I think you are all 12 years old, this is your first fandom, or you are suffering from immense brain rot in the media literacy part of your brain. I am only half joking about all that.

Anyway my thoughts on the tadc finale

I’m going to need to wait for the youtube version in order to rewatch and properly analyse the episode but my god. The stuff we see in Jax’s mind is not meant to paint to her as an irredeemable abuser. I’m fairly sure it’s all the ways she’s learnt to push people away. They aren’t fantasies of violence and sexual harassment. It’s guilt and shame and fear. Each defence as an aspect of herself.

Think about it. She blames herself for Ribbit’s abstraction and likely Kaufmo’s too. Her mind is populated by scenarios in which the others have abstracted, with at least one being directly her fault again. Why on earth would these be fantasies and not scenes of guilt and shame and denial?

Just because you are not being spoonfed doesn’t mean you should jump to the most superficial conclusions.

Because why on earth would Gooseworx’s thesis be that a transfem coded haracter commits suicide off screen and is actually an abusive pos through and through? Why? Could it possibly be that she was communicating a different message? Maybe the execution wasn’t the best, but c’mon.

Jax feels like a cautionary tale. A warning about what can happen if you continue to push people away. A story that encourages you to accept help and care. And that even when you’re not in a place to receive it, it will be there regardless. Waiting for you. People love you and will do the work to care for you. You are not unlovable.

Jax was also really young. 22 years old and homeless. The circus fucked her up further. I don’t the message was ever meant to be that this kid was unlovable. More like saying, hey if even everything goes wrong, people will still be there for you.

Remember that before, abstractions were thrown into a cellar to be forgotten. But they didn’t do that this time. They made a safe and calming space and kept Jax company. They showed how much they cared even when Jax was hypothetically least able to receive it but also when she needed it most.

[infizero-draws]

never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[infizero]

the way she's literally this image im gonna be sick

[2tfrut]

-> lol I kin them

-> *psychoanalyse

-> hah they [INSERT TRAIT HERE] that's really self destruct- ohhhhhh

*NEW THING ABOUT SELF UNLOCKED*

[riotd]

do you ever get the irresistible urge to bash your head against a brick wall