"You guys all ready?" Evelyn giggles as she squats down beside the eager dogs tugging hard at their leashes. If it wasn't for Mingyu holding onto the other end of the leashes firmly in his hand, the dogs would've taken off the second they saw the dog park as they had walked up.
Winnie lets out a few excited yips and twirls around in her spot, tangling herself up while Henry was beside her with his little grunts and snorts. Without another second, Evelyn unclips both dogs leashes from their harnesses and in an instant they took off into the dog park to chase after each other.
"Ay, these kids I swear," Mingyu huffs with a smile on his lips as he slots his fingers together with Evelyn's, shoving the leashes into his coat pocket. The two of them walked into the fenced in area with Evelyn taking time to pull the metal gate closed behind them to prevent any escapees.
"Hurts my heart that we had to leave Bleu at home," Evelyn pouts her lips a bit as she clings to Mingyu's arm from the slight chill in the air, "Knowing her, she'll be sitting in the windowsill staring down at the street watching for us."
"We're gonna have to get her a harness and bring her out with us," Mingyu wraps an arm around her to bring her in closer, "Or one of those backpacks with the bubble on the back."
"We are not putting her in one of those. She barely likes being in her carrier when she has to go to the vet." Evelyn snorts thinking about the time all of the animals had vet appointments for a checkup and how they were very late because Bleu wouldn't come out from underneath the couch the second she heard the carrier zipper.
"She'll be just like an astronaut," Mingy's face scrunches up playfully at the thought, "Bleu the little space cat."
The pair found their way to a metal bench just off the pathway and settled down onto it. Within no time, the two dogs came barreling over towards them and Winnie used her momentum to push herself up onto her hind legs and press her front paws to Evelyn's knees.
"I know what you want," Her hand rubs behind Winnie's right ear with her other hand digging around in her bag to retrieve the desired object. Any trip to the dog park required one thing to come with: a ball.
Setting her bag off to the side, Evelyn stood up briefly to wind her arm back and launched the ball forward out into the field. In an instant, both dogs took off after it as fast as their little legs could take them. It didn't take long for them to get distracted and start playing and rolling each other in the grass.
"It'll be bath time for everyone when we get home," Evelyn snorts as she settles back down onto the bench.
"Ooo bath time with you. My favorite part of the night," Mingyu leans a bit closer to her, pressing kisses to the side of her head, "We can relax -kiss- I can wash your hair -kiss- maybe splash some water around."
"My tub isn't that big," Evelyn giggles, bringing her hand up to cup his cheek and pressing her lips to his. His hand found its way to her waist and gripped the clothed skin as he deepened the kiss further. A small sound left her throat as his tongue gently prodded at her lips asking for permission. He tugged her a bit closer as his tongue entered her mouth, his other hand tilting her head up by her chin.
It wasn't long before two tiny paws pressed into Evelyn's leg that had the paired pulling away from each other. She giggled down at Winnie, the wet and slobbery ball ending up on her lap. Winnie's tongue was hanging out of her mouth lopsided and her tail was wagging a mile a minute.
"Thank you little mood killers," Mingyu playfully rolled his eyes leaning over to pat Henry on his head, grabbing the ball off of Evelyn's lap and chucking it further out into the field.
~
"You know-," He traced his thumb over the back of her knuckles in absentminded comforting circles, lips forming a slight pout with what was pondering on his mind, "I got my letter the other day."
Evelyn's smile faultered slightly knowing what he was referring to, "I know…I saw it on the counter the other day. It's coming up real soon right?."
"Yeah, yeah it is…" Mingyu nodded his head even though she wasn't looking at him. He leaned down and grabbed the ball Winnie had dropped at their feet, reeling his arm back and chucking it out into the open field, watching fondly as the two dogs took after it.
"What am I gonna do without you?" She half joked, pressing her back firmly into the bench seat. She didn't want to admit it directly but the thought of him going away to the military tugged immensely at her heart, "Your side of the bed is going to be cold."
"You'll have the dogs and Bleu," Mingyu nudged her shoulder with his, a subtle grin tugging at his lips, "They'll keep the bed all cozy warm at night."
"That's not what I'm talking about!" Her voice came out a little more forceful than she would've liked. It was like the air surrounding them had stopped in an instant and the world fell entirely silent.
"It's been…hard," Evelyn's bottom lip juts out, her gaze falling down to their hands clasped together. Her hand grips his a bit more firmly as she sniffles to keep the tears gathering in the corners of her eyes from falling down her flushed cheeks, "Watching everyone leave. I mean, we're all doing the best we can…but it's just-."
It had felt like a ton of bricks fell onto her chest all at once. For the first time since Jeonghan enlisted two years prior, had she let go of all the pent up hardship she had been feeling. Her usual happy go-lucky self was starting to crumble at the seams. It had been rough the last few months on not just her, but for the group as a whole. From filling in empty spots during choreography to covering vocal parts in songs; it has been exhausting on their bodies both physically and mentally. But it was inevitably going to happen whether they all liked it or not.
"There's so many what ifs that could happen during that time," She sniffled a bit louder this time, using her free hand to wipe at her wet face, "I just….don't want you to leave."
"Jagi-," Mingyu's voice was filled with the utmost sadness, pulling her closer to his body. He pressed his chin to the top of her head as she practically crumbled into his side, quiet sobs racking her body.
"I've gotten so use to you being a part of my life-," Evelyn's voice had quieted down a bit, her bottom lip pouting out a bit as she kept herself from having another breakdown, "- that it's going to be hard not having you in it for a while. It's hard enough now without some of the others."
He sighed heavily, his thumb rubbing against her arm as he held onto her. Her words hung heavy in the air around them and her sadness sent daggers straight to his heart, "Everything will be okay Evie."
"I know it will but…it's just-."
"What's really on your mind, baby?"
"I'm scared things will change between us being apart," Evelyn confessed, biting the inside of her cheek, "m'scared of being alone."
A stray tear made it's way down her cheek and dripped onto her hand, the bead falling down the crease of her finger. She sniffled loudly, wiping her face with the back of her hand before pulling away from him. This wasn't how she had expected their early morning dog walk to go nor did she expect to have a full on breakdown.
Mingyu smiled despite the tugging in his heart because deep down he had the same feelings. The first time since meeting each other were they going to be apart for a long extended period of time. The future was a scary sight. But as much as it pained him, he had to be the strong rock to be there for her. His hand reached down and clasped with hers, squeezing it tightly.
"I want you to know that I'm going no where when it comes to us," Mingyu cleared his throat to speak properly, "I'll get some vacation days after a while of being there and every single one is going to be used to come visit you. I won't have my phone for a bit but please know deep down, I'll always be thinking about you. And once I do get it back, you already know I'll be texting and calling as much as I can."
"It won't be the same," She sniffled, pouting her lips as her head met his shoulder, "And having to watch you leave every single time will hurt more than the last visit."
Mingyu turned his gaze out towards the field where the dogs had settled down into the grass, panting from their bursts of energy. He glanced up at the night sky, the moon was just barely peaking from behind some clouds. A small smile tugged at his lips, "You know, any time you'll be missing me, just have a look up at the moon. We'll be seeing the same moon and stars at night."
Evelyn looked up to the sky as the moon was coming out from behind the clouds now thanks to the slight breeze. The sky was littered with millions of little tiny glowing specks. She forced herself to sniffle back another onslaught of tears and a smile founds its way to her mouth.
The two of them were brought back when Winnie threw her ball at their feet, Henry barking at them with his hoarse voice. Evelyn picked her head up from his shoulder and pulled her phone out of the pocket of her bag. It was a bit past the dogs dinner time.
"Are you little puppies hungry?" Evelyn wiped at her face again as Winnie pressed her front paws to her knees and continued to bark. Mingyu reached down and gathered up Henry into his arms, the older dog licking profusely at his neck causing the man to let out a handful of giggles.
"Let's get these puppies home before they wither away."
~
"We need to plan a few days to drive down to see your family," Evelyn spoke over her shoulder as she wiped her hands on her apron after adding the required spices to the pot, "I miss your parents and I was talking to your sister the other day and she whined that she missed the animals."
"That sounds like her," Mingyu barked out a laugh, sweeping up the stray clumps of dog hair around the floor with the broom into the dustpan. The vacuum was out of the question for the dogs saw it as the worst monster they'd ever seen and saw it as their personal duty to protect the house and attack it.
"I want to take your mom and sister out for a girls day and you and your dad can go and hang out. We can take your parents out for dinner one night," Evelyn rambled on as she read off the next instruction on the recipe card.
Mingyu dumped the dustpan into the trash bin, hanging it and the broom back on the side of the cabinet. He approached behind Evelyn and wrapped his arms loosely around her waist and settled his chin on top of her head, "Sounds like a plan to me, baby."
"Mhm, I just want to do something nice for them since they're always doing nice things for us," She smiled to herself as she leaned back into him slightly. She tilted her head up and puckered her lips to which he responded immediately, "Can you clear off the table, this is almost ready. And if you could, just take that pile of clothes to the bedroom and I can sort them later."
Mingyu kissed her lips a few more times before he let her go, "Of course baby."
His footprints echoed down the hallway and a smile came to Evelyn's lips at the tiny patter of paws against the floor. Wherever the two of them went, the dogs followed right behind like little ducks in a row.
While waiting for the pot to come to a rolling boil, Evelyn glanced to the side at the cat tower at Bleu sprawled out on the highest perch, staring directly at Evelyn and flicking the tip of her tail gently. She knows the cat is annoyed at them for taking so long to feed her.
"Eomma is sorry missing your dinner," Evelyn spoke to the cat in her baby voice she used for all the animals, "I'll give you as many cuddles as you want after dinner." A few moments pass and Bleu turning her head to look out the window before looking back and slow blinking.
"I knew you'd cave to some cuddles," Evelyn giggled as she turned back towards the stove, stirring the pot. She dipped a spoon into the stew, blowing on it a bit before taking a bite, humming in satisfaction at the taste. Just like her grandmother used to make.
"Did you get the table cleared? Why are you quiet all of a sudden-," Evelyn's eyebrows were pinched together at the sudden silence of the apartment. She turned the stove off and moved the pan off the burner, turning on her heel to look behind her, "Mingyu-?"
Her heart jumped up into her throat and she had to grip the counter to steady herself on what she was looking at in front of her, her eyes darting around the figure as he was standing before her fiddling with his hands. Mingyu was changed from his sweatpants into Evelyn's favorite sweater that he owned, a pair of black slacks, and his hair was styled nicely; an entire different outfit. Evelyn swallowed the thick lump in her throat, her heart hammering against her chest as he began to speak.
"I -I don't know how to do this but-," Mingyu's voice shook a bit, a slight nervous laugh leaving his mouth. He hadn't gained the confidence to look up at her yet and chose to keep his gaze planted firmly on the floor of the kitchen. Evelyn had opened her mouth to speak but was seemingly stopped when Mingyu had knelt down onto the floor before her.
"Looking towards the future, whether its ten years from now, five years from now, hell even if it's five minutes from now; I want you to be there. To be there with me," By the time he managed to look up at her from where he was with one knee pressing firmly into the wood, his eyes had glossed over with his own onslaught of fresh tears, "I wasn't certain what my life would be like or where my life would be now all those years ago, but what I'm sure of now is that I want to live the rest of my life with you there."
It took a minute of him fumbling around in his pocket before he pulled out a square velvet box, fingers working to open it towards her showcasing an elegant silver ring with a beautiful diamond in the center of it.
"Park Eunji, will you marry me?"
"Mingyu I-" She hadn't even realised she was crying until a few tears dripped down her cheeks.
"I-It's okay if you say no. I just..had to. I wanted to. I-I can't picture any other person-."
Evelyn cut his words off before he could finish his sentence, her own voice laced with emotion and her eyes watery to the point she could barely see, "-yes."
"H-huh?"
She choked out a wet laugh, shuffling her feet over towards him until she collapsed onto the floor in front of him. It didn't take long before she leaned forward and cradled his face between her hands, "Yes yes, a million times yes."
He moved to sit fully on the floor, Evelyn falling in between in his legs as she closed the gap between the two of them in a slow and soft kiss, pulling apart and pressing their foreheads together. His fingers grabbed the ring from the box carefully, bringing up her hand and slipping the ring onto her left hand's ring finger.
"It's so beautiful." Evelyn brought it up closer to her face and smoothed over the diamond with the thumb of her other hand, sniffling back her now happy tears.
"I didn't plan on it turning out like this. I had a whole day planned just to do this properly but-," Mingyu wiped at his eyes with the pad of his thumb, "Earlier today you were just so sad about us, about the future that I-…I mean it when I say I'm yours until our very last days on earth, and even after that I'm yours forever."
She had spotted a bench in the distance, practically counting each time she placed her foot firmly on the ground. She hugged her stomach, the pain only getting worse since she took painkillers earlier. If I can just make it to the bench and breathe for one minute, she thought.
Evelyn and Evangeline were already a few steps ahead. She was dragging her mom through the park, as lively as ever.
Eden felt herself growing more dizzy, breaking into a cold sweat as she fell behind the two girls. She kept walking until she could bear her weight onto the arm of the bench. “Ev, I need to sit for a minute.”
Her sister looked back at her, her smile immediately dropping when she realized how far ahead she and her daughter were. “Oh god. I’m sorry, I didn’t realize.”
“Just one minute, and then we can go.” She forced a smile, propping her elbow on the wooden bench and trying to let the wave of nausea pass with the breeze.
“Auntie’s not feeling well, come here.” Evelyn led Eva to the bench, taking a seat next to her. She studied her sister, looking her up and down before resting the back of her hand on her forehead. “You’re warm, and clammy.”
“I’m sorry, I almost never have cramps. You guys can still go to the playground, I’m gonna have to sit this one out.”
“Aren’t you almost done? It’s been a couple days.”
“Tomorrow's day eight. And the bleeding has been consistent.” Eden runs her hands through her hair, getting it out of her face as she breathes in through her nose.
Evelyn scanned over her, her brain working out any possible explanation. “It’s your period?”
She nodded, only able to use her body to indicate how she’s feeling.
“Eden…” She spoke slowly and softly. “Is there any chance it’s not?”
She squinted her eyes open, looking over to her sister and not having a clue what she’s implying. “What?”
“Are you sure it’s your period? Were you guys… trying at all?”
“We’re not… not trying.” She started to think she might actually be sick.
Evelyn let her head fall back in a moment of weakness before collecting herself. She pulled out her phone to call somebody.
“Evelyn, what’s going on?” She felt the paranoia begin to settle in her bones.
“You might be pregnant, Eden. That’s not normal for you to be bleeding and doubled over in pain.”
Tears began to well up in her eyes. “I’m fine, I just needed to sit down. Besides, Eva still has to play–“
“No, Eden. I’m not taking any more chances, not with you.” Evelyn stands up, pressing the phone to her ear and walking to stand under the tree across the path.
Eden had no idea what she was talking about until it hit her. Evelyn had been in her position before. She knew a whole lot more than her. And she didn’t want her sister to go through the same things and waste time like she did.
She took a deep breath, turning her head so her niece didn’t see her crying. She started to tremble and as her stomach clenched, the pain started to worsen. “Who are you calling?”
“Noah. I’m gonna have him come and take Eva home. Then I’ll drive you to the hospital.” She looked back at her sister, forcing a tearful smile and then switching into her serious tone as he answered.
Eden quickly wiped her tears away, pulling her phone out to text her husband. She completely zoned out on Evelyn speaking, but the word ‘pregnant’ stood out most to her. She was fully convinced her period had come a little later than usual.
She felt a tiny, chilly hand on her palm, the child bringing her back to the present. Evangeline was patting the back of her hand, resting her head against her shoulder.
“I’m okay, Eva.” Eden wiped her eyes again, putting on a smile that hurt to fake. “Your mommy is the best, right?”
She nodded, wrapping herself around her aunt's arm like a koala. She craned her neck to give her a kiss atop her head. She only texted Seokmin a couple sentences, keeping them as vague as possible so as to not worry him. She knew he was at practice and didn’t want to disturb him. Though, she wasn’t certain what she would do if someone came to find out there was something wrong with her.
Noah ran through the park to find them, a layer of sweat collecting on his face once he spotted the girls. At that point, Eden could barely walk without hugging her stomach, the stabbing pains getting worse as she moved. He had to carry her the rest of the way back to the car.
They had taken Eden’s car to the park, leaving only Noah to take Evangeline home. Evelyn drove her straight to the hospital and everything else was a blur between then and when they got to the emergency room. Her mind was running a thousand miles a minute, she didn’t remember Evelyn signing her in and doing most of the talking. She could only hone in on her pain and the what ifs of her circumstances. She started becoming more aware as soon as they asked if they could run a pregnancy test on her. Once they took her sample, she and her sister were led to a room and waited for a few minutes before they started doing her intake. The doctor came in shortly after to ask questions and examine Eden.
He pressed his hand down on her abdomen, feeling around until he reached her right side, feeling a pain so sharp and sudden, her vision was dotted and she screamed. It didn’t take much for her to start crying again.
He sighed, putting her shirt back down. “I’m gonna let them get an IV started on you now, but I think this is definitely an ectopic pregnancy. We’ll draw some blood on you too just to be sure, but if it is what I think it is, you’re gonna have to have emergency surgery so we can remove the egg.”
She stopped breathing for a second, her heart falling as she listened to him speak. Her eyes filled with tears, trying to keep herself composed. “I… I’m pregnant?”
He removed his gloves, walking over to the computer and pulling up her chart. “Your symptoms check out,” He paused before continuing. “Your urine test came back positive…”
“But I don’t understand.” Her voice faltered, her hands beginning to tremble.
Evelyn reached out to hold her hand, her own eyes glossing over.
“This isn’t a normal pregnancy. It’s ectopic, which means the egg is growing outside the uterus. It could be in your fallopian tube, outside it, your ovary, anywhere it’s not supposed to be. And I fear that with how severe your pain is, it’s about to rupture or has already ruptured. I know this is a lot of information to consume right now, but we need to operate as soon as possible because ruptures can be very life-threatening.”
Eden felt overloaded, trying to stay in the present, but she was stuck on the fact that she was pregnant. She was pregnant, but it wasn’t a pregnancy that she could see through to the end. She had no idea the entire time. And now she only had so many hours left to hold onto something that would soon be taken away from her.
“Eden.” Evelyn pulled her from her head, squeezing her hands. She turned towards her sister, her lips trembling as she clenched her jaw. “I’m so sorry.”
She choked down a sob, whispering to Evelyn. “Can you call Seokmin?”
“Of course. Whatever you need.” She leaned in to kiss her temple, patting her hand before getting up and excusing herself from the room.
As soon as she was alone, she lay back against the hospital bed, letting the tears fall down her face. She lifted the hem of her shirt, brushing her hand over the right side of her belly. She couldn't apply too much pressure, wanting to avoid the pain at all costs.
After some time, Evelyn came back into her room, grabbing her chair and scooting next to Eden’s bedside. “He’s on his way. I explained to him what’s going on.”
Eden blinked her tears away, letting her head fall back on the pillow. “Is he okay?”
Her sister stroked her hair, eyes softening but having no answer to give her. “I’m sorry.”
Her lips wobble, trying to keep her cries at bay as she forces out a whisper. “Why is this happening?”
Evelyn shakes her head, wiping a tear away with her thumb. “No one knows. It’s just something that happens to people like us.” She squeezes her shoulder. “But it’s not your fault, Eden. You know that, right?”
Eden covered her face with one hand, the dam breaking free as her body trembled. “What if it was? I mean—I had that wine a couple days ago, I’ve been learning choreography—what if I did this-”
Evelyn grabs her shoulders, calling her name strictly. “Eden, you did not do this. I’ve gone through it too.” Her voice rasps as her own tears overflow. Eden sobs, opening her arms as her sister takes her in for a hug. “I would’ve done anything to save it, but it’s just not possible.” She cries for her and her sisters’ losses, overwhelming stabbing pains taking over her.
The lights made her head spin, shutting her eyes as she gripped her sister through her sweater. Her entire body trembled, her stomach queasy as she felt enveloped in coldness. She inhaled sharply, her lungs on fire as she could feel the bile rise in her throat. She clapped her hands on Evelyn’s back, pushing her away. “I’m gonna be sick.”
“Oh!” She looked around their room, searching for the bags and pulling one out of its dispenser. “It’s okay, here.”
After handing it to her, Evelyn gathered all of her hair at her neck, gently rubbing circles on her back with her palm. She knew firsthand just how awful throwing up was, trying her best to comfort her through it and letting her know she wasn’t leaving. Eden emptied what little was in her stomach into the bag, and more tears forced themselves out of her eyes from the violent heaving. The pain in her belly worsened with each time the muscles contracted, forcing more up that she didn’t know she had.
A nurse entered the room, taking note of what was happening, and quickly closed the door. “I’m so sorry, sweetie.” The woman took a seat in the swivel chair, pushing over to the bedside and squeezing her ankles through the blanket.
Eden shook her head when she felt she was done, her ears ringing as she could barely hear the nurse ask if she could take the bag from her. The pain was excruciating, her vision blurry as she fell back against the bed, her sister and the nurses' voices echoing in the distance. She let the darkness envelop her completely.
The fluoroscents were burning through her eyelids, the sound of people talking muffled, unable to comprehend what anyone was saying. The beeping. The antiseptic smell. The unfamiliar voices in the room scared her, wanting to be aware of just who was with her. She attempted to open her eyes, forcing them shut and bringing her hand to her face.
The voice that was most familiar to her stood out, the bed dipping beneath her as she fought to open her eyes. “Eden, hey.”
She hummed, feeling her hand engulfed in warmth, kisses being placed on her skin. Everything was foggy.
“Hey, baby. I’m here.”
Her mouth felt gross, her throat sore, and her body heavy. She squinted her eyes, Seokmin coming into a blurry view as the lights shone from behind him. She saw him. The sight of him made her painfully aware of their circumstances. If he was here, then everything from hours before was real. It was happening, and it was happening to both of them.
“Is…it…over?” She mumbled slowly, everything aching as she tried to speak.
“Shh, you don’t have to talk.” He brushed her hair behind her ear, his voice soft enough for her to hear. “You fainted before I got here. But they’re doing everything they can to give you some relief while they wait for an OR to free up.”
She looked down at herself, the rough material of the hospital gown against her skin. An IV was in her hand, a pulse oximeter on her finger. Her hand shook as she dragged it to the spot on her right side. She winced once she felt the pressure, a sob racking its way up her throat. He took her hand away, squeezing it in his.
“It’s gonna be okay. Everything is gonna be okay, E.” He repeated to her, convincing not only her but also himself. “I love you. So much.”
She mouths the words back to him, too weak to speak before she’s overcome with grief. She swallows, eventually forcing herself to talk to him. “I didn’t know. I swear I didn’t know…"
“I know, baby." His voice wavered for a split second. She caught it. He took a breath, steadying himself before pressing on. “I know you didn’t.”
Her tears finally fell sideways into her hair, Seokmin quickly patting them away with the sleeve of his shirt. She raised her hand, bringing it to his face and focusing on him. She saw the faintest hint of wetness near his eyes, her heart shattering as her lips started to wobble.
“I’m sorry.” The words died in her throat, her trembling fingertips trying to wipe away his tears.
“No, shh…” He shook his head, standing from where he was sitting on her bedside and reaching down to press his lips to her forehead. “You have nothing to be sorry for, Eden. I love you so much—nothing’s ever gonna change that.”
She cried, hearing the doors slide back open to reveal a couple of nurses.
“We're ready to take her.”
Seokmin looked back, nodding and sniffling as he turned back to Eden, patting her hair down and grabbing her hand. “I love you, Eden. Everything’s gonna be fine, and I’ll be the first thing you see when you wake up, okay?”
The nurses worked around him, unhooking her from the machines and unlocking the bed.
She mouthed the words back to him, her grip on his hand tight and deadly. She didn’t want to let go. She was terrified. “Evelyn?”
“She’s in the waiting room. We’re not leaving.” He kisses her head, then brings her hand to his lips. “I love you.”
“I love you.” She spoke back, holding her eyes open as she looked at him. The nurses pushed her bed out of the room, feeling his fingertips slip from hers. Immediately, she felt the loss of contact and felt completely alone. Even with the nurses surrounding her and even all the other people in the building, she’d never felt so terrified.
He dragged his feet as the staff showed him out to the waiting room. The look on Eden’s face would be burned into his memory forever.
The waiting room was empty except for Evelyn, who sat slumped in a chair. She saw the little movement, looking up and seeing Seokmin approaching her.
She shot up, taking a deep breath as she clasped her hands together. “Did they take her? What’s going on?”
“They took her back.” He collapsed into one of the hospital chairs, eyes locked on the floor as he felt his emotions rush to the surface.
“Right. Good, good.” She nodded, taking her seat next to him. "Talk to me.”
Seokmin rested his elbows on his knees, covering his mouth with his palm. He shook his head, staring blankly as tears started to pool in his eyes. “She’s pregnant.”
Her hand snuck onto his back, rubbing softly to comfort him.
She pursed her lips, feeling herself start to cry again. “I’m so sorry, Seokmin.”
“Her face… She looked so scared.” He clasped his hands together, closing his eyes as his lip trembled. “I didn’t—I couldn’t do anything for her.”
“You’ve done all you could. We have to leave it to the professionals now, but you guys are gonna need each other after this.”
Tears streamed down his cheeks, running his finger across the wedding band on his finger. He was still grappling with the knowledge that his wife was pregnant. He didn’t understand it all. Even when Evelyn tried to explain it to him, all he could do was ask the question ‘why?’.
She auditioned for JYP, YG, Jellyfish, Starship, and SM Entertainment.
Her audition song was COME BACK HOME by 2NE1.
Although Misa is one year older than Winter, their birthdays are one day apart (January 1 & January 2)
She has a youtube channel titled ‘mimi’s world’ where she releases her self composed music. She’s currently in talks with SM to let her officially release her solo music on streaming platforms.
Her favorite movie is Bruce Almighty.
Misa doesn’t like rain and prefers to stay inside when it does. She also texts all her friends and family to check in and tells them to stay inside.
She has writing credits for a few of aespa’s songs: I’ll Make You Cry, Mine, BAHAMA, Just Another Girl, and Count On Me
She loves soup, especially miso soup.
Her role models are Taeyeon and D.O.
She’s a fan of WWE.
Her favorite holiday is Christmas.
She likes to bake.
She likes playing video games and even has her own PC set up.
Misa had the nickname “Ice Queen” after debut.
She is a brand ambassador for Miu Miu.
She likes to watch baseball.
Her favorite era is Drama.
She likes her routines and will be in a foul mood if she doesn’t stick to it.
She loves blind boxes, although gets mad when she doesn’t pull the item she wants.
Her favorite season is winter.
She wants to pursue acting at some point in her career.
Misa plays sudoku to strengthen her mind.
She is learning English. She likes to listen to music to learn the language.
Some of her favorite artists include Asha Banks, Delaney Bailey, and Sydney Rose.
She loves cats. One of her habits is meowing randomly.
She is a fast typer.
Misa snores lightly when she sleeps. The members record proof to show her when she denies it.
She’s scared of driving and has no desire to get her license.
A lot of us would thrive in a kinder and softer world, but since it’s not, be sure to be the kindness and softness, for others and for yourself, even when the world pushes back. Being gentle with yourself is the first act of real rebellion in a harsh world. Even if no one notices, your own heart and body will thank you.
