Stardust & Moon Shadows

A Tweaker's Guide to Magick

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Sitting and waiting for the #rain at work. Come on #monsoon we need you. #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CglcUlCuFZq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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#monsoon #skies from a few nights ago. We need actual #rain though. Lots of #clouds but not lots of wet. #monsoon2022 #tucson #arizona #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CfSFdwMvUrJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Today I am 3 YEARS #CLEAN !! I told y’all #TweakersCANrecover don’t let anyone tell you different. If i can get off #meth #booze #coke and #sex #obsession then i believe you can too. I’m in the #gym this morning cause i ate a lot of feelings in 3 years and now it’s time to work that shit off. #gains #recovery #newwaytolive (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CfEuN7SL59g/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Yes! I still do #tarot readings but I only do them IN PERSON. I also work 40 hours a week so I have to schedule them around that. If you want a #tarotreading message me directly or #text me. Thanks. (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbDjr8Av5fl/?utm_medium=tumblr

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My son gave me a nice #quartz for my birthday. #PiscesSeason got me #creative and shit. I haven’t done a wrap in quite some time so it’s off center a little but it’s mine and I love it. Who else is getting that #twinfish creative flow going right now? #Pisces energy always feels a little like being drowned in my #emotions for the first couple days and then the immense creativity hits and I just want to make stuff. Jewelry is my new lust since I’ve been stuck on #crochet now for a bit and #clay #runes I wanted to start honoring the #stones I have and making them more wearable for outside the house. (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CaaPS2VPt8K/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I think I’m gonna have to learn how to #crochet other things or leave the #desert cause i have SO MANY #hats and now I’m doing #infinityscarves but it’s only cold for about 5 minutes of the year here. #northdakota on my mind i guess. Getting ready for #TheNextPhase or some shit like that. #2moreyears till total #freedom I can’t wait. #crochetersofinstagram #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #warm (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CZsTUkFv8S2/?utm_medium=tumblr

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#rainbows on #nye hope this means #2022 is THE year. I really need something amazing to happen. #nye2022 #worklife #nomorepartiesfor me #rainbowsandrecovery #tweakerscanrecover #serastar #serastarmoon #tucson #arizona #tucsonskies (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/serastarmoon/p/CYKv_pMPrsG/?utm_medium=tumblr

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More #crochet more #hats I definitely understand my mother more now. She #knits and knitting is something i never got good at. For whatever reason #crocheting makes my brain happy. Everyone is getting hats for #xmas because it’s all I do with my life these days besides work A LOT. I think I’m bored. One thing about #recovery is that it’s really fucking BORING at times. It’s cool and all to keep adding days but it’s also really fucking boring and I would be lying if I said I don’t think about the days when I was out every weekend and just dancing and laughing and meeting new people. I still think it’s worth it in terms of #peace in my heart. I don’t wake up afraid every day. That’s still nice. Meh. I am not a fan of this time of year. #tweakerscanrecover #serastar #serastarmoon #isit2022yet (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXmO6btPifT/?utm_medium=tumblr

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That beautiful moment when you catch the #newmoon in #scorpio exactly as it’s happening with you #moonapp (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CV3omr3PjEN/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Today was a day for #selfcare and I am so blessed to have an amazing job that pays me enough to afford that. I decided it was time for a moderately drastic change. Not as shocking and some of the hair things I did in my 30s, but enough to afford an IG post. It took me 2 years to grow my hair that long and in 2 years of being #clean I’ve grown and changed so very much. Sometimes hair needs to change so that our outsides can give a glimpse into what the insides are doing. I am proud of this life I am in today. Not everyday. Some days i just want to escape. But lately #TheWheel has been on the upswing and I was low enough this last #depression to really appreciate the fuck out of this. It was so hard using and being depressed. But being clean and suffering a bought of serious depression was shockingly harder. I think so took to many good days for granted in my #recovery and I mean to not do that if I can avoid it. I’ve been doing better but I damn near died this last low and I want to enjoy every day I have not in the grips of #emotional #torture #tweakerscanrecover #cutitoff #changes #serastar #serastarmoon #ifoundmeinthedark (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVZbCdpL5Z8/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Pssssst—i am open for #tarotreading the next 3 days (Sept 24, 25, 26) at my home on the SW side of #tucson If you have been wanting a reading from me and I’ve been MIA —NOW IS THE TIME— I will have very limited availability after this weekend as I have a new amazing day job that will take a lot of my #tarot time. My readings range from $15-$75 USD and I do not time them. Whatever needs to come will come. #tucsontarotreader #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #seer #lightworker #imback (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUL6DUrpXt0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I want Hank’s life. #catsofinstagram #lifeofhank (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ_k3eVh8wI/?utm_medium=tumblr

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My dog is drugged and still so scared. #fuckthefourth (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ7ta-iBMKh/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I made it to the black key tag. 2 years #clean today. Can’t lie and say life is amazing. I am clean though and that’s pretty cool. They tell you that your brain will start to get better after a couple of years clean. I can say it will get easier to live everyday life without the constant anxiety or fear. There is more clarity. For me, i can’t say that my mental health is totally healed and that I’m so happy now. I have C-PTSD so that is going to be a life long struggle for me. I’m having a hard time with that even though I e been in treatment for 2 years now. But, I am clean. I don’t have to get high. I go to bed every night. My life is pretty quiet and mostly lonely and boring. I still do t care to be close to people. I don’t think that’s going to change. But, I am clean. For what that is worth. For 2 years I have not put chemicals in my body to alter my state of mind. So, it’s something. #tweakerscanrecover #serastarmoon #serastar #stardustandmoonshadows #recovery #lifeaftermeth (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQZENh2BKNU/?utm_medium=tumblr

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What an amazing and well needed 3 day weekend. Today I did a #tarot reading that was so deep and connected I finally opened a crack in the illness that’s been on me for a long time. Then I went to see the amazing Merry Star at the Mount Lemmon artists market and it felt like home. How I have missed markets, events, and TAROT READINGS. I talked to the organizer and he said I have a spot when I want it. I didn’t even know how much I have missed my tarot life until that moment. The people, the atmosphere, the talent, and the spirit of in person events is truly priceless. I will be on mount Lemmon this summer for sure. I won’t be a regular due to my schedule, but I will try to remember to post the weekends I plan to be up there. Yes, it’s a drive. But if you live in the #sonorandesert in the summer you already know it’s worth it. The air up there is clean, cool, and CONNECTED. My daughter and I had the most profound #spiritual experience today together. There is truly nothing in this world that compares to shared spiritual moments in my opinion. Today I was allowed to read for a deeply powerful #Gemini then I saw my dear friends Merry and Mike, and the icing on this day is the time my teenager gave me in a shared spiritual moment. Today was a good day. I belong reading tarot. Before covid I had no doubts of that. Post covid I let fear take over and started moving in another direction trying to “be responsible”. Fuck that. Tarot IS my responsibility. It is a gift I have been allowed and I will be damned if fear and capitalism will push me off my path. I did not come this far to second guess myself now. I have not felt this alive in so long. Tarot is my passion, my gift, my medicine. #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #seer #tarotmedicine #sorceress #lifespiral #dreamer #tweakerscanrecover (at Summerhaven) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPkF72WhXrN/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Wow. Who knew I could stay #clean so long? Definitely not me. #tweakerscanrecover #onedayatatime It takes a village to keep me sane and safe and sober. I didn’t get here alone. I won’t continue alone. We NEED each other. Love #addicts even when you have to do it from afar. #LOVE is the answer. And step work. And meetings. And therapy. And a sponsor. And a community and a #SPIRITUAL path. Whatever that means to YOU. #YESyouCAN (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPJcopNBIKM/?utm_medium=tumblr

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My dear friends #coyote were hanging out at an intersection on my way home from work yesterday. There were 2 but the others didn’t want their picture taken. They were definitely hungry and thirsty looking. Poor babies. Coyote is an amazing animal and they are constantly murdered like millions of other #animals each year so that humans can infest earth. Take care of the animals in your areas. Feed and water them. Protect them and thank them for the amazing #energy they share with you. Respect their lives and their homes as you do your own. These are as much a part of us as another human. SEE them. SEE each other. Leaving water for the animals or giving a few bucks to a panhandler is not going to kill you. It’s going to HELP ANOTHER ENERGY BEING. If you can’t understand that I feel sorry for you. It doesn’t matter what the monetary cost of ANYTHING is when we are all dead. Money is just murdered trees and toxic chemicals. Love is eternal. LOVE. IS. EVERYTHING. #love #coyotelove #sonorandesert #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNrM7cFBdru/?igshid=aimvmioqmmjn