Deus Vult

28yrs This blog is 21+ This is my online headspace. Enter at your own risk.

[lycoside]

pray for those who are losing their way with God. may the Holy Spirit guide them back home and make them new

[ruinedchildhood]

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My hands are covered in blood

I am disgusted with myself

I am a monster

I might have as well committed a murder

And he breathes still

And he is gentle still

And he is good still

And He is God

And God is here with me

Covering my hands

He is Loving me unconditionally

He forgives me

His blood and mine

I am the body and the blood

I want to cut up my flesh

I do not deserve it

God if you could save the man on the cross

God if you still loved David and Solomon

God I know you still want me

But I don’t feel worthy

I don’t undserstand

I’m so afraid

You’ve given me chance after chance added chance

Again and again

I want it all to end

An angel waits for me in bed

But I wish for death instead

I won’t get what I’ve been craving for months

I tell myself it’s sin wrapped up in lust

What a sick infliction to the mind that does

Hands and knees

Head on carpet

I wish it was concrete

Hail marry full of grace

Our father who art I heaven

Forgive me father

For I have sinned

It has been over ten years since my last confession

If I ask for one more chance

What punishment will you give

It will be righteous

I don’t know about swift

Just let me suffer

I will give it up to you

I will give everything to you

I don’t know how

When I fail

I am so scared of your punishment

And your judgement

I am not strong enough to do this on my own

I am not strong enough to be better on my own

Please help me

Please forgive

Please forgive me

Show me how to repent

Please forgive me

Forgive me

Forgive me

Forgive me

I don’t deserve it

I don’t deserve it

In spite of your love gives me courage

I love you

I love you

I love you

I want to be close to you

Please cast this out of me

Get this demon out of me

Help me figure out how to get this demon out of me

Help me figure out how to release this anger

Please help me

Please

I am begging you

Have mercy on me

Have mercy on me

For the sake of his sorrowful passion

For the sake of his sorrowful passion

For the sake of his sorrowful passion

Have mercy on me and the whole world.

Have mercy on me

Please God I didn’t mean to.

I don’t know why I succumbed to the dark

I don’t want this anymore

I only want to find you

Forgive me father

Forgive me for turning my back on you until my darkest moment

Forgive me for not realizing I needed you until now

Please father help me come back.

I keep thinking about what happened when I was a kid

I want to crawl out of my skin

I want it all to end

But I will try again

I will try again

I will try again

I will try again.

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