Starting A New

Trying something out don't hate me 💚

[serendipity2432]

I swear he be acting like he isn't this big romantic guy but than he goes does something like he did last night and he has me "melting like a popsicle on the 4th of July" and honestly it might not seem like much but it was the cutest little gesture he pretty much recreated one of our first dates made my night that much more special and he even let me vent and cry (big deal cause he always says "we don't cry we are strong") got to cuddle up on his chest and sleep in his arms most the night which I've been needing and the cherry on top was the sexy time this morning that I was woken up to 💚

[serendipity2432]

Here I go again acting and feeling jealous as if it even matters he isn't mine so why do I always feel like this he has made it very clear he doesn't want more than just a friendship but he also still wants the benefits of what we once had but after finding out he and her had their fun last week I just feel sick when he touches me in that way I mean we haven't done anything in a while last thing was just a make out but even than he stopped it before anything really happened which upset me but I guess I kind of understand or at least I think I understand I think he no longer finds me attractive which I don't blame him but it still hurts but than again I have no idea what he is thinking since I haven't actually had a conversation with him about it i really just need to lock in and get my shit together get this weight off and move on with my life need to stop with all my boy drama need to forget A, T and R although I still have my doubts about forgetting T but really I should forget him he wanted nothing to do with me am his ex for a reason and I can't keep letting myself fall deeper and deeper with him

[remanence-of-love]

[folklorebrunette]

August (08) assortment

Jeanette Winterson, from Written on the Body / Mary Oliver, from The Pond / poem titled An August Longing by Amber Khanzadeh / August by Taylor Swift.

[highfunctioningfuckup]

I need someone to put their tongue in my mouth like right now

[heylsgowt]

[1-ofthecoolkids2]

SEX IS NOT THE ONLY TIME YOU SHOULD FEEL LOVED, A REMINDER

[supremefliber]

[serendipity2432]

I want to believe that him telling me when he makes it home every day is his way of telling me he loves me his way of telling me he missed me all day. I want to believe it's his weird way of making us official. I can't be this naive again can I? I will admit I miss it. The love, the feeling of being with someone but am I really ready to put myself out there again and not only that but am I ready to feel that vulnerable with him of all people... again. The truth is I won't really know till I actually get up the courage to talk to him and clear things up. I'm not sure I'm ready to have that conversation but really why aren't I? We have been back at this for a year now and granted the initial conversation was just asking for sex not anything more, the way things have been going we are having more then just sex, it feels like more then just physical he has always had a way of getting into my head and making me feel more then what things are. Since it has been a year it needs to be cleared up specially when he has plans to move, while he was telling me his plans there wasn't any clear indication that he might want me to come with but he did seem a bit hesitant in making concrete plans. Maybe I'm just reading into things too much maybe it's just me being delusional and hoping he does and says what I want to hear. I'm really in no position to be making plans with him anyway, I need to fix my own life right now and I'm definitely not doing a good job of it at all.