My Life Is A Mess

An Inner Monologue

[serilda92]

Grief

Grief isn't something you feel constantly. It comes in waves. Sometimes you're fine and then the next thing you know you feel as if you've been suckerpunched and can't breath your chest feels so tight. The pain literally takes your breath away.

#grief #loss #gonebutnotforgotten #love #missingyou

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Silence

There is never enough, for anytime the moment occurs my mind rises up in a constant torrent of thoughts

#thinkingtoomuch #neverenoughsilence

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Torn

When your heart is torn in different directions equally, how do you know which one is right?

#feelingtorn #decisions #life #whichwaydoIgo

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Where Do I Go?

Now that you're gone, where do I go?

When I need guidance, where do I go?

I used to talk to you for hours

Sometimes about nothing at all

I'd listen to your voice, and relish in the comfort it brought

Now there's nothing, not even a voicemail

I wake up in cold sweats some nights

Worrying I'll forget that sound

Whenever I felt down, lost, hurt, or confused

I knew who I could call, I knew it would be you

Now I don't have that, now you're just gone

Where do I go from here? How do I move on?

#grief #losingalovedone #missingyouforever #lostbutnotforgotten #innerfears

[serilda92]

I'm full of hurt, anger, sadness, grief, love, forgiveness, and happiness. I'm working towards being the best me I can be and I'm slowly but surely starting to believe in myself.

#buildingconfidence #proudofmyself #workinprogress #slowandsteady

[serilda92]

My Life Is A Mess

You ever feel like your entire life is just a giant black hole? Like you’ve fallen down a pit and all that’s around you is sticky glue and no matter how much, or how little you fight to get out it doesn’t work and at the end of the day you’re still stuck in that dreadful pit?