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29 | She/Her | New Mexico, USA Looking for serotonin via nostalgia and memes Marissa

[serotonin-toadin]

Back at it again with the biannual Tumblr post

Idk what I'm doing here

Actually

I know exactly what I'm doing- procrastinating editing my book, avoiding homework, and searching for a hit of nostalgia

le sigh

[serotonin-toadin]

Help I haven't used tumblr correctly since my teenage years.

Is there even a correct way to use tumblr?

[serotonin-toadin]

Dear High School Best Friend

Before all else, I hope you are doing well. I hope you have found happiness and are safe and loved and finding your way in this crazy, huge, sometimes amazing, sometimes fucked up, world.

I don't know why we parted, even now years down the road I try my hardest to think back on what happened, try to find the why in the memories, but I always come up empty handed. Maybe because you moved. Maybe because our plans to go to vidcon and marry dan and phil failed. Maybe high school ending meant that our friendship was doomed to end as well. It's probably the Dan and Phil thing.

Speaking of Dan and Phil, they're officially out and their gaming channel has been brought back from the dead. I've been watching their new videos and it makes my heart warm but hurt at the same time. There is so much nostalgia in their content, so many happy memories that they bring up (remember our text message fan fiction we wrote? Where I died tragically in a car crash and my husband phil was left to care for our twins and he called them his buggies? My brain remembers the oddest little details I swear...)

Anyway, watching them again had me thinking of you again. I thought about messaging you directly, but that felt like a sad ex-girlfriend reaching out to her lover who has clearly moved on. So instead I throw this letter out into the void of tumblr- which I'm surprised still exists- and wonder if you will ever see it. If you will ever scroll and see it and recognize that it's you I am talking to. Or maybe you read this and have no idea, you probably haven't thought of me in years! Or maybe, either the best or the worst option, you simply scroll by without sparing a second glance.

I don't even know why I'm writing this anymore honestly. Maybe I should try a private journal instead. But I guess I might as well throw this crumpled up piece of paper out into the void of the internet. Let it float around out there forever and maybe, just maybe, it will land on your dashboard one day and a small spark of memory will light within you and you'll remember that tall awkward girl in black boots and a My Chemical Romance jacket- a girl who would draw on her left arm with sharpie everyday, a girl who was your uber to and from school, the girl who you bought chocolate therapy Ben & Jerry's for after she broke up with her first kinda sorta boyfriend.

This has gone on for far too long so I'm going to cut my sleep deprived brain off and spare anyone out there reading this.

Goodbye old friend, but maybe also hello?

[pixelins]

mysterious elixirs ….

[vorpalfae]

♡‧₊˚🕸 succulent scribbles ‹𝟹 ∙ 🕷

[halloween-sweets]

[lanadel-heyyy]

correct fnaf letterboxd review

[tangerinesayswhat]

josh hutcherson, you are so good at playing grimy little dudes who have no clue what’s going on but you put your all into it

[zoddamnlt]

[pumpkinpuffgirls]

Shout out to bubbles for being the one Powerpuff Girl who bit the villains, can relate. Was my number one way of retaliating at that age.

[serotonin-toadin]

The original i-t g-i-r-l

[rhaena-morning-deactivated20250]

[serotonin-toadin]

so excited for that funky little family to return

[netflix]

Always remember who you are. AVATAR: THE LAST AIRBENDER, coming to Netflix on February 22, 2024 #GeekedWeek

[lindagoesmushrooming]

[serotonin-toadin]

delicious

[lizclimo]

[chibird]

This little pig is very wise. Big happiness can seem complicated and unattainable- it often requires change and hard work. But small happinesses, while smaller, are much easier to find and achieve. And after a little apple and a run around... you realize it might be possible to get that big happiness after all. You have it in you!

Chibird store | Positive pin club | Instagram

[i-am-a-fish]

did you know that if you type "58008" into a calculator *giggling* and then, if you turn it upsidedown,, *giggling*

[albertcamuesli]

no writing workshop can help you improve your writing as much as this screenshot can

[serotonin-toadin]

Saving this as 'things to avoid in my writing'