‘Zero.’ he growled, he couldn’t express the rage he felt whenever he thought or spoke about that man. The man who did nothing but use Snake, he could never forgive, nor forget the terrible things Zero has done. 'We’ll keep building Diamond Dogs. We’ll recruit more men. And when we become stronger, then… we will get our revenge on the man that took everything from us, we’ll make him give it back, make him give back what we lost, what he took from us’ He shifted his eyes towards Snake, his eyes were filled with rage, and lust for revenge.
He knew that sooner or later this subject would arise, now that Skullface was dead, and Emmerich was gone. The kids needed to be dealt with, and he knew this. A weapon like Sahelanthropus in the hands of children is more than dangerous, not only to the world, but also to the children themselves. Miller felt guilty, this was partially his fault, if only he had let Ocelot question him, perhaps the kids would still be safe on Mother Base, but no, he was too damn stubborn, stuck in his own ways of trying to protect Eli– is it so wrong?
He felt his stomach twisting, even thinking of using such violence with children made him sick, they are only children. Children of war, they didn’t know any better– and how could they? 'You’re right.’ he let out a sigh. His eyes were no longer lusting for revenge, no, rather, his eyes were doleful, he couldn’t stand the thought of it. 'There’s no telling what they have planned. Children are reckless. This is the only way we can protect them.’ he added, his voice was regretful, 'how could I let this happen, snake?– ‘ his voice broke, 'I guess, we can’t change everything about this awful world we live in, but to think about those children in the war…’
He hated it. He hated the look that came onto Kaz’s face every time he was reminded of the pain. He wished more than anything that he could give it all back, bring back the ones they lost, and take all the pain away. What more could they do to suffice this thirst? Snake knew in his heart that there was no way to end this grief, so he held on to what little hope there was and let the demon arise to the surface. He let Kaz keep the hope that he had, the hope that once Zero was gone, everything would be solved.
“I know what you’re thinking.” He narrowed his eye at the expression on Miller’s face. “The children. What happen isn’t your fault.” He breathed in deeply and exhaled soon after, “I’ll do what I have to do.” Yes. Let the demon release itself. He was already in hell, there was no point in trying to salvage what little sanity he had left. He never even told Kaz about the hallucinations he had, along with hisghosts. He was a b r o k e n shell of his former self, and he just couldn’t let go of the past.
“They aren’t just children.” His eyes held a different story, not as mournful as the Commanders– No. He was prepared for the worst. “They’re soldiers, their innocence was taken long ago, and we have no way of getting that back for them. There are things you can never change.” He closed his eyes, letting his own words sink into his brain. “This was never your fault. They were doomed when the gun was placed in their arms.” It was tragic to think of what he would have to do, but Kaz was right.There’s not room for angels in their heaven.
