Dear mom and dad, friends, teachers, relatives, God: I am not a woman, I am not a girl, I am not a wife, I am not a lady, I will never be a mother, a grandmother, an aunt, I am truly sorry, because this means that I am going to lose people, even if they are my parents, or close friends, I am going to lose, and at the same time I'm winning, my freedom. Yes I know, I'm 18 now, I may have not found the secrets of life, I may be stubborn, I may be fool, incoherent, reckless, stupid, but I'm not trapped anymore. This is what I stand for, what I fight for, what I suffer the most for, my body, my mental health, you are breaking me, destroying me, little by little, slowly. You gave me this life which I don't regret, but also I must tell you that this is not okay. Stop saying that I look ugly without make up on, stop saying that I must cross my legs, that I must be feminine, that I must wear dresses, high heels, earings, tight clothes, I do not belong in this anatomy, I do not fit in what you see as a perfect woman, I can't be what you want. You are right I need you, but if you go against my needs, against my stability, against my health, then you can go, cause I do not need toxic persons around me anymore. Mom and dad, brother, grandparents, cousins, friends. I am a man, I am a capable man, a human, a living thing just like you, I breathe, I eat, I sleep, I love, I laugh, I cry, I speak, I believe, I exist. I am Andrew, that's my name, I am a man, that's what I am, what I always have been, I am not a monster, I am not wrong, I am not ill, I am not in a phase, I am not hesitating. God, I know you made me, I know you don't make mistakes, I am your creation, I am your son, and I'm sorry if this disappoints you, if this hurts you, but, believe me, it hurts me more. Dear world, please be good with your brothers, accept them, love them, take care of them, because at the end of the road that's the only thing that's going to save us. Even if you hate me or other transpeople, I Love You Guys.