Binary Heart

I'm stuck in this hell. Transboy, He/Him If you ship 707 and Zen you've come to the right place. Anyways, feel free to chat with me! I'm a lonely lil dude. Also I do art sometimes.

[silenthill]

[mostlycatsmostly]

♫♫♫ sound on ♫♫♫

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

I love you all, really I do. But I think I’m taking a break from everything. 

I lost another one of my best friends last night. My hamster, Spice. 

A little info on Spice. 

He was a chinese dwarf hamster. I got him because nobody else at the pet store wanted him. He was the only baby and he was born half blind. I fell in love with the little guy immediately. He costed money but I wouldn’t have wanted another pet. He was my light. The sweetest little thing I’d ever got to call mine. My friends loved him and I’m sure he loved them. He was a social tiny lil creature and I don’t really.. Know what I’m going to do without him.

Having him helped me take care of myself as well as him, and I rely on pets for help as it is. I don’t know what to do with myself and I haven’t slept. I just can’t stop thinking about him.

I don’t know if I can continue doing anything at this point. I have to keep doing commissions so that I can take care of myself and buy myself some comfort. I need it now more than ever. So please forgive me and please consider buying a commission or two from me. It would mean the world to me.

Once again, I’m sorry for taking a break like this, as I’ve barely done anything as it is, but I need time to just have fun and focus on myself, I guess. I don’t know the words for it. I’ll most likely become more active on my HQ!! blog, so if you want to talk to me, go for it. The blog is @Boku-kuroo .

I’ll be a bit hesitant to respond to things for a while, but I hope you can understand. Thank you.

Please share my commissions post around if you can. It would mean a lot. There’s a lot I want to treat myself with lately. And now I want to do this even more.

[intensional]

Ok but is this not me

[intensional]

chloe: please god.. just let me have one good day.

god: oh my god, you again? give it a rest buddy!

[annie-leonhardts-ass]

Did you ever just feel so lucky for knowing someone you met online? Like.. I was one click away from not following you. I was one second away from never even knowing of your existence.  I would never have been this happy. 

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

distant relative at family event: It's been so long since I saw you!! How's school?

me: none of the things that once excited me make me happy anymore i'm living off caffeine and anxiety i'm paralyzed by my future my diet is trash and my body is slowly rotting but otherwise i'm good hbu

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

I don't even feel human anymore and it's hard for things to make me happy.

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

Give it up for day wahetever I'm officially distancing myself from people because everything makes me too anxious

[voltageotomehell]

WELL DAMN, Seven, do you like him too? 😂

[shoutloaf]

if i didnt have depression no one could fucking stop me. i only have depression because otherwise im too powerful

[lorileadfoot-deactivated2020072]

god nerfed me 

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

If I sold 2 inch buttons of premade art, or custom ones, would you buy?

Vote Now! [yes] [probably] [maybe] [no]

Out of curiosity, could you guys answer this? It’d help a lot! For future sales.

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

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One of my favorite followers

I can’t pick just one

@s-tothe-alt @badunclesaeran @hushedmusic  @latenightyaoi

there r more but

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

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A little known fact-

Idk what this means tbfh 

Uh

sometihng not many know abt me?

I love german shepherds.

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

8

-About someone I think is cute

white lips

pale face

zen

its zen.

[natakesgamingcorner]

Send me a number and I’ll tell you...

A nickname of mine

An embarrassing story.

A turn-on

A turn-off

Something I look for in a partner

About my best friend

About my worst enemy

About someone I think is cute

About someone I think is smart

About someone I think is funny

About my crush

About my parents

About my siblings

Something I like about my body

Something I dislike about my body

Something I like about my personality

Something I dislike about my personality

A quote I live by

My favorite book

My favorite movie

My favorite food

My favorite drink

A talent I have

An unusual talent I have

One of my favorite followers

A fictional character I relate to

My favorite book I read for school

My favorite play

A childhood memory

My best birthday

An embarrassing secret

A little known fact

A time I made a mistake

I time I succeeded

My favorite sport

My favorite video game

My favorite non-video game

My favorite band.

My favorite song.

My favorite animal.

I pet I have.

My favorite Halloween costume.

My favorite piece of clothing

My favorite TV Show

Who I want to hug

Who I want to kiss

Who I want to punch

Something I want to do before I die

Something great I’ve already accomplished

Anything! Make up your own 

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

Babe, as much as you think this is going to help, I don't want you to do this. I want you to live. Live for me - Zen

Continuing to live on would only pile more pain onto my shoulders and cause my life to shatter even more than it already has. I get yelled at for even cracking a smile nowadays. Living isn’t something I desire anymore.

Still, this is sweet. 

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

Don't feel like you're useless! You're useful. Always. Des, you mean the world to people. Please don't do this

Ah, but I am useless. 

I’ve only ever been useless. Nothing is okay and nothing ever will be okay. I’ll always be broken. I’ll always breakdown. The tears won’t end.

[seven-zero-sevzen-blog]

Sorry.

-15. Fifteen years is how long it’s taken to drive me to insanity. To drive me to losing my mind. assuring that no happiness is left. It’s taken 15 years of abuse and tears to make me realize just how useless I am and why I’m finally going to stop the pain.

-If I wasn’t a useless child. If I could actually do my work without breaking down, I wouldn’t get this constantly. If I could never fuck up. If I weren’t an outcast. If I were a girl. If I were normal. I wouldnt be hurting. It wouldn’t be too late.