I don’t know for how long, probs just until I can somehow sort this sorry mess with Him out coz he’s done what I thought was impossible, he’s broken my spirit, my positivity in everything, an what’s more, my love for Doctor Who.
It’s complicated tbh, so I'll try to explain, tho I’m no good at it, but the bottom line is that he doesn’t want me to talk about the things I love, because he hates it and he’s fed up and has had enough. I’ve tried fighting against this kind of fascist rule of his for years, long before I even joined up on here, but now New Year just proved to me how much he hates anything I’ve ever enjoyed and he’s broken that in me.
Doctor Who wasn’t just a show to me, it gave me a reason to keep living, to keep going, something to look forward to, as well as the many Awesome wonderful friends that I’ve made just from talking about it. Same goes for tumblr too.
So because I can’t ever stop talking about Doctor Who, I love it that much, the only way for me ever to stop talking about it away from here, is to put it away and never look at it again. I’ve already taken down all my pictures and posters, packed my other stuff into boxes, and when I’ve posted this, they’ll all be going away into a cupboard. And this isn’t just about Doctor Who, coz Idk it does seem so petty, but it doesn’t matter what I ever get interested in, even tho he said yesterday for me to”Get other interests” he’ll be the same whatever it is, I used to be mad about The Simpsons and CSI, and talked about them a lot, he got fed up with that too, so that had to go in my mind as well.
This is really heartbreaking for me to have to do this, and to write this out here but I’ve said it for years that my happiness doesn’t count in my house, nor do my illnesses count, only his, which I’m constantly reminded of by his family. So if this is the price I have to pay for only to keep the peace at home, then so be it. Coz I have no choice but to live with him, I’m in a catch 22 here with money, housing and so on, so I can’t just up and leave, nor have I the money nor the means to.
Anyway, I’ve still got so much to do, so I’ll hopefully see you’s later, or sometime anyway.
(P.S My blog will still be open, I’m not closing this down, I’ll still update my @starmirrorcartoons and @garfielddailyunoffical blogs everyday, but I won’t be updating this one for a while coz just looking as anything Doctor Who is hurting me like fuck)
