Pehla lekh

How to write first time, what to write first time. it is a different and difficult thing. please be a partner of my journey..

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

एक पूरा खिला हुआ फूल किस कदर आपको तस्सली देता है यह तो तभी पता चलता जब आप इस को प्यार भरी नजरों से निहारते हो, और बस उसकी खूबसूरती में डूबते जाते हो। कभी मन करता है की इस फूल को तोड़ कर अपने पास रख लूं, कभी यूं ही बाग में रहने दूं और बस उसकी तरफ देखते देखते समय गुजर लूं, शायद वही वक्त होगा जब इस फूल के अलावा मन मस्तिष्क में कुछ हावी नहीं होगा, और मन को जो असीम शांति की जो प्राप्ति होगी उसका को मुकाबला नहीं हो सकता है। कुछ समय के लिए आप बस उस फूल के हो जाओगे, न किसी की चिंता सताएगी, न किसी का ख्याल मन में आएगा। इस सुंदरता को पाने के लिए इस गेंदे के फूल ने भी काफी सब्र किया है, हर दिन एक एक दो दो पत्तियों का खिलना होता था, पर अब देखो किस तरह से हमें अपनी खूबसूरती से लुभा रहा है।

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

Aap agar mera last post dekhenge to usme main umeedon yani ki hopes ka jikar kiya hai. Ye umeedein itni bewafa hoti hain or humari parchayi ki trha humari feeling ke sath chalti hain .

Mujhe lag raha hai main sayad fir galti dohrane wali hu jo pehle ki thi. Dono dost hi hain mere , ek to thi sayad nahi hai wo meri dost. Wohi galti, wohi insecurity, wohi msg karne ki meri gandi aadat, or mujhe bura feel hona ki usne jwab kyon nahi diya.

Or esa hone main jitni meri galti utni hi saamne Wale ki bhi. Unhone hi mujhe pehle itna achaa feel karwaya, mere sath Samy bitaya or mere baare main Socha. Kyon kiya unhone esa.

Esa nahi hai ki mere aur dost nahi hai, hain jinse jab bhi baat hoti hai ache se hoti ,jb bhi milte mera khyal karte hain or main unka but wo jyada na mujhse umeedein lgate hain or na main unse unka behaviour mere liye surprise hota hai but ye jo do the ye thoda aur najdik the sayad. Tabhi inse Durr jana , Inka mujhe ignor karna mujhe akharta hai.

Or fir main inke baare main inse puchu to wo mujhe sunake chale jate hain, ki main inhe pareshaan karti hu. Pehle wali ne to esa hi kiya mere sath. Sayad main hi dil lga baithti hu kisi se bhi ye meri sabse badi galti hai.

Or ye sab kuch dobara ho raha hai mere sath or main galti fir se na karun, iske liye aap sabse ye baat share kar rahi hu.

Haan ye bhi hai ab jab bhi unse milungi to main narazgi ko Sahi shabdon main bta paungi.

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

How can we imagine things, put our perception ,our thinking into something. In Hindi, mera kehne ka ye matlb hai ki hum kitna bhi khud ko samjha le ki saamne Wale se jyada umeeden na lgani hai , na umeed rakhni bas khud se hi ummedon ko pura karne ka promise karna hai but samay ke pass hote hote hum sab ye bhul jate hain. Saamne Wale ke sath rehte rehte usse na jane kyon umeedein jod lete hain, or pata bhi hai ki ye humesha Puri nahi hongi par fir bhi hum esa hi karte hain. Or esa hi main kar rahi hu aajkl. Mera ek dost hai pehle Tak wo mere time ache se nikalta tha, meri kheriyat ke baare main puchta or apne baare main bta jo wo karta sab kuch share karta or inhi harkaton ne usne meri aadat bigad di. Ab wo busy ho gaya hai uske clg suru ho gaye hain or assignment or classes ke liye time nikalne ke chakkar main mujhe esa lagta hai ki mujhe bhul Raha hai. Or mujhe yahi baat stati rehti hai. Pta nahi esa kyon hota hai ab mujhe khud ko control karna pad raha hai ki main na sochun uske baare main, na karun usko msg , call. Par fir bhi mann nahi manta. Kyonki ab wo meri umeedon ko pura nahi kar pa raha hai jo mujhe nahi lgani chahiye thi but lga baithi. Or ab khud ki in feelings ke liye bura bhi lagta hai. Ab aap log btaiye ki aap sab ke sath bhi hua hai kuch esa or aap kya kartain hai esi situation main. Do let me know.

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

Dheere dheere aap kisi se kis trha hai umeedein (hopes) baandh lete hain or wo jab Puri na ho to kis kadar bura feel hota hai or esa kyon ho raha hai ye bhi pta nahi hota hai to wo jyada bura hota hai.

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

Hey gyzz, how are you, I hope you all are fine and healthy. Aaj ka blog late ho gaya, haan itni busy bhi nahi thi bas blog likhne ka time nahi laga. Mera kehne matlb ye hai ki mujhe koi thakan nahi lagi na koi bhaga Dodi ki mene bas kuch activities main busy ho gayi thi. Or kab time beet gaya pata hi nahi chala. To aaj ka din jesa bita to usse do baatein pata chali mujhe , pehli ye ki Aajkl log double personality lekar ghoomte hain , samne to esa dikhte hain ki humse sarif koi nahi or peeth piche esi harkatein jo humari imagination se bhi bahar hoti hai, to logon ko parkhna bhi sikhna padega or viswas thoda kam karna padega. Or dusri baat ye ki choti chote experience aapko bade experience ke liye teyar karti hai.

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

Hlw gyzz. Hope you all are fine. Main to achi hu. Kal ke din kuch hua tha esa jiske liye mujhe ek decision Lena pada or mujhe pehle se lag raha tha ki esa kuch hoga to wo baat kal huyi. Abhi main ek job kar rahi hu or isse pehle mene ek jgah interview diya tha sab kuch sahi gaya but unhone mujhe hold par rakh diya or uske baad main job main dusri jgha working pe aa gayi. To kal mujhe wahin se call aaya or to wahan gayi main. To wahan ke head main apna decision thopne ki kosis ki , haan thoda salary jyada thi wahan , exposure jyada tha but wo mujhe formalities karne tak ka time nahi dena chahte the, bus unhone kaha purani firm ko chod do or humko join Karo. To maine bahut socha or sab kuch compair kiya of fir yaha decide Kiya ki main apni purani firm ko nahi chodungi. Agar main ese hi chali jati hu to ye meri credibility or trustworthiness pe question karega or main betrayer kehlaungi. So aaj main wohi routine follow kar rahi jo kal tak kar rahi thi. Or esa karne main mujhe koi bojh nahi uthana pad raha hai or free hoke jee rahi hu.

So aap kya kehte ho is baare main. Please let me know.

[shabdonkiudaan2410]

Hellow, I am desire of every person's heart. Yehh desire is another meaning of my actual name. This is my first post. I installed this app many months ago, but I have no idea , what to write in it and other thing. But last day I had decided that I am gonna write everyday something about my life , what I learn everyday, some stories, my experience and many more things.

I love hindi , I just love to write in Hindi but see I introduced my Hindi in English. Kesa time aa gaya hai na , hum Hindi ko bhi English main pehchan dete hain. Funny hai na. Yes it is. To àap log kya sochte hai is topic pe , kyon hum ese ho gaye hain.

Main aapka ek normal hone wali ek baat pe attention chahti hu ki jese humare so called modern school ke bache , English school ke bache hai unki Hindi pe gor or English pe bhi. Unke sath hum ganit(math) ke no. Hindi main jab bhi bolte Hain wo confuse ho jate hain or itne dumb ki agar hum unhe galat no. Bhi bolde to wo accept bhi kar lenge ki yahi sahi hai. Or other situation ki baat karti hu jo humare Hindi vidhyalaya ke vidhyarthi hote hain unki Hindi to achi hoti hi hai sath main English bhi achi hoti hai. Unhe to kabhi koi problem nahi aati hai esa kyon hota hai. Sochna and then let me know.